mamihlapinatapai

Having hobbies, connecting w others, laughing and smiling and dancing and having a good time, reaching out in place of turning inward, being in love w a person and my friends and the world, nourishing my soul and heart and mind, eating good food, being part of this world—all these things really are so much better than digging my own grave and trying to make a home out of it

loving loneliness and being alone, hating loneliness and being alone, believing that everyone is alone, believing that nobody is alone (all of these at the same time)

really just want to live a quiet life with quiet, genuine, humble people. not interested in loud people or dramatic situations. just want peace, and the sun, and tenderness, and warmth.

unfortunately im very self aware

yes my favorite colors are the warm orange of the windows of a house u see on a walk at night and also the deep blue of the night around it