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Calories in: 100

Calories out: 784

23/01/2020

Working again today. Hella early. I’m tired.

~ Breakfast ~

•Strawberry Yogurt (70cals)

~ Lunch ~

•Brown Sugar, Cinnamon & Vanilla Oatmeal (149cals)

~ Dinner ~

• Baked Salmon Roll (188cals)

•Philly Roll (136cals

•Shrimp Gioza (100cals)

~ Snacks ~

•Hot Fudge Sundae (330cals)

•Almonds (170cals)

~ Total Cals Today : 1142cals

I hate myself. I hate myself. I !! HATE !! MYSELF !!

So. Clearly binged. Again. Fucks sake. Don’t really wanna comment on it.

So I’m aiming for under 400 Cals tomorrow...

Here is how the sushi turned out!🍣

Can you guess which roll I made? (Aaron made the other one)

Spicy “Crab” avocado roll (230 cal whole roll, 8 servings/28 cal) <I had 2 pieces> 🦀🥑

food consumes every thought

you feel heavy and just. so fucking disgusting.

you want to feel the hunger

gaining weight is one of your biggest fears

you want to be that friend who’s perfect

1.) Your preferred body type in a partner?

2.) Do you smoke?

3.) What do you use to suppress hunger?

4.) Coffee or tea?

5.) Do you self harm?

6.) What exercise do you like doing?

7.) What is your daily caloric limit?

8.) How do you stop a binge?

9.) What are your stats?

10.) What size clothing do you wear?

11.) What size clothing do you want to be?

12.) How do you hide your restriction?

13.) How do you feel about fasting?

14.) What style of clothing do you wear?

15.) Where do you shop for clothing?

16.) Safe foods?

17.) Preferred method of travel?

18.) Can you drive?

19.) Do you drink?

20.) Do you have a special diet? Vegetarian, vegan, etc. ?

21.) Pets?

22.) Hobbies?

23.) What do you want to be doing 10 years from now?

24.) Where do you want to be in 10 years?

25.) Does anyone know about your mental illness/eating disorder/addiction etc.?

26.) One secret about you no one around you knows.

27.) Does your partner know about your ED? Are they supportive?

28.) Thoughts on recovery?

29.) Thoughts on hospitalization?

30.) Do you have other mental illnesses besides ED?

31.) Do you take any medication?

32.) What languages do you speak?

33.) How old are you?

34.) What country are you in?

This is part one of a series I’m doing to share everything I have learned as a newly independent person recovering from an eating disorder- hope it helps!

The best thing you can do for your grocery budget is PLAN your meals out before shopping. This way, you will have every ingredient you need, and nothing you don’t, saving time and money. Meal planning helped me take control of my recovery because my dietitian and I could put together a plan that let me know I was on the right track. Here is what I do each week to plan my meals-

1. Make a calendar. Just make grid on a piece of paper with a box for each day that you want your meal plan to last. I go grocery shopping weekly, so I plan my meals to last one week. I find this works best for buying produce because it normally spoils if you try two weeks. Keep this paper so you know what meals you have available each day.

2. Look through what you have. Look for any produce or dairy about to spoil or non perishables that are taking up too much room in your pantry. The key here is to look for recipes that incorporate those ingredients you have, cutting food waste and saving you money. I just search “(ingredient) recipe” on Pinterest or google to find a way to use the food. For example, just adding a soft boiled egg, carrot, and soy sauce to that old packet of ramen noodles makes a quick, easy, and delicious lunch!

3. Fill in nutritional gaps. Hopefully you were able to 3 to 4 dinners out of what you already have without adding too many things to the grocery list. Now, look through what recipes you came up with. What is missing? Carbs? Veggies? For the rest of the week, add meals that balance your diet. I try to have at least one meal from each continent for variety.

4. Lunch can be leftovers. I save money by making big dinners that can be tomorrow’s lunch. It’s much cheaper to make one big meal than two small ones!

5. Add the basics. At this point, you have seven dinners planned, and your grocery list includes everything you need to make those seven dinners/lunches. Now you add anything else you need for the week, like snacks! At the end of every grocery list, I normally write eggs, bread, soymilk, chips, any anything else I like to have on hand like dried black beans and rice. (Honestly, just buy a giant sack of rice from an Asian market so you never have to worry about getting enough carbs again)

Ok so I lost almost 15 kg in a month and a half and a lot off my classmates notice my weight loss so they asked me how I did it and of course i lied to them but if you wanna know then:

~ I did 150 - 200 jumping jacks almost every time i went to the bathroom

~ I did 20 - 50 squats and situps every day

~ When school ends I would go to the next bus station that is 30 min of walking and then when I get out of the bus I have like 15 more min of walking to my house

~ I as a muslim fasted every other day and for sahur I would only drink water and for iftar I would sometimes eat something that is under 500 cal and sometimes just drink green tea

~ For the days I don’t do a muslim fast I still fast but I drink water, green tea and sometimes coffee through the day

~ I always help my mom with her chores

~ If I’m hungry I would distract myself by watching youtube, doing homework, draw, listen to music, look at thinspo, ec..

~ If there is something sweet that I want to eat for eg. a cake I tell my mom I eat it later and when she goes to lay down and nobody is watching I would take a small piece and chew every bite 20-30 times and spit it out except the last bite I will swallow it (this goes for everything that is high on cal not only sweets).

That is what I did and for ME it was really easy but it doesn’t mean that it is going to be easy for you. I also allowed myself a cheat day twice in these past mont and a half but i never went above 800 cal. Feel free to ask me questions.

This riced cauliflower recipe is only 155 calories per serving—super filling and delicious!!!

1 pack of Trader Joe’s riced cauliflower (100 cal)

2 Trader Joe’s veggie patties (300 cal)

4 white button mushrooms (25 cal)

1 romaine lettuce leaf (15 cal)

1 pack of any seasoning you like, I use stir fry seasoning (25 cal per pack)

Total: 465

Makes 3 servings of 155 calories each !!!

sauté the minced mushrooms and lettuce (I use garlic powder and pepper for flavoring)

sauté and mince the veggie patties after

remove both mixtures and heat the rice with your preferred seasoning

mix together until done

- I AM NOT PRO ANA. THESE ARE JUST THINGS THAT I DO TO AVOID EATING. DO NOT PUSH YOURSELF TO DO THESE THINGS, THEY ARE VERY UNHEALTHY-

⚡️I would sleep through meals and just not eat when i woke up. Down side of this is that naps that are too long can make me feel like shit.

⚡️Dancing Wii/Xbox games. My goal right now is trying to get 5 stars on every song in the game. If youre worried about a family member thinking that youre overexersizing, you can play it out like youre just a goal setter or something.

⚡️flushing food down the toilet/ throwing it out your window. I threw food out of my window until a dog came searching for the pork I threw out one night and it scared the shit out of me. So don’t throw out meat or things that attract dogs. When you flush it down, cut it into small bites and do it in small amounts and intervals.

⚡️substitute meals for one another. I would never eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner. If i ate breakfast, i didnt eat lunch. if i ate lunch, no breakfast. If i didnt eat lunch or breakfast i would have a regular size dinner.

⚡️I found a hobby. It ocupied me A LOT.

when you’re out, people can tell if you’ve binged or not

you should starve yourself

no fuck it you should binge

if you eat healthily you aren’t going to lose weight and your effort will be in vain

that girl is skinnier than you

that boy is skinnier than you

you’re the biggest person in the room and everyone can tell

you’re not that fat

you’re so fat

you can’t look after yourself properly until you’re skinny

your friends are embarrassed to be around you

you can’t buy any new clothes in your current size because you’re going to lose weight

this won’t make you lose weight, you should stop restricting

this will make you lose weight, keep going

just eat something

do not eat anything

you can’t eat if no one else is

how many calories are in their food?

just give up

do not give up

casual dressed thinspo

stay safe and drink water, take vitamins and your meds

Have any of the following or may have :

Eating Disorder

Anorexia

Bulimic

Binge-Eating

Mental Health Issues

Bipolar

Depression

Anixety

Social Anxiety

Anyone with eating disorder or 420 blogs that follow me I will follow back!

you couldn’t guess by the title, this is my skinny perks / sticc aspirations / reasons to get skinny post. so the first 12 are basic and generic so scroll ig? Also tell me if they’re repetitive

When I’m skinny….

My jawline will cut onions

My collarbones will be visible

The armpit fat will ? fuccin ? disappear ? like ???

Imma wrap my fingers around my upper arm

My wrist will look so bony omg

I’ll look at my own bony, veiny hand instead of my friend’s

Chest dysphoria? Sorry idk her

Astronauts will see my ribs from space

My stomach is gonna be concave or flat idc tbh

I’ll spend the whole time wrapping my hands around my thighs

and they wont jiggle

Actually slim calves uGh 

I’ll be skinnier than my friend who’s just perfect

I’ll basically be called the skinny friend 

People will refer to me as ‘the skinny one’

My hipbones will protrude to the next galaxy ahead

…and they’ll bump into everything #skinnyproblems

 Not just looking thin but feeling thin like feeling light

And being told I’m light when I get carried

‘you’re the smallest, sit on someone’s lap’

My thighs won’t go dhbvifhhdhbhiPPITYJIGGLYPANCAKE when I sit on a chair

My stomach being too small to finish a meal

i sWEAR MY CRAVINGS WILL GO AWAY

Fitting into clothes that are from three-four years ago

Oversized clothes only being a size S/M

My actual size being XXS/XXXS

Or a size 0

‘Mum we need to buy new clothes these are too big’

My mum telling me if I don’t eat I’ll disappear

‘tf does she eat? ‘She eats air’

Being called a twig, a stick, a skeleton, a pile of bones, idk I like it

‘u sick?’

The girls will whisper and talk abt how sticc i am

My friends will joke about a) How light I am and b) how far they can throw me

People saying they’ll crush me if they hug me

I just wanna look good in my clothes okay???

People at my new school won’t know how fat I was

My aunt who, while being overweight/obese, tells me I’m fat (I’m actually healthy but still-) will regret what she said

In class I’ll be the skinny one

I’ll get asked for weight loss advice

I can proudly say ‘Oh, I’m XX kilograms’ (i don’t actually have a gw lol)

I’ll look the smallest in my dance class

I’ll post body checks 

I’ll be used to eating healthy

Tight clothes will define my bones instead of my fat

So that my phone slips between my thighs

I’ll borrow my friend’s clothing and be like ‘sorry they’re too small’

My ed will be taken seriously

I won’t get judged for eating anything in public like if I eat salad I won’t be the fatass that wants to lose weight trope and if I eat a lot I’ll be the skinny h0e who just can’t gain!!!1!111!!

To make aesthetic body pics on sc where all my friends and old classmates will be jealous

I’ll crave water, fruits and veg instead of anything else

I’ll be able to give advice like ‘oh just exercise and eat healthy’ while starving

‘You lost weight’ omgyesyesyesyessss

I’ll undress in front of my close friend without embarrassment 

all angles are skinny angles

I’ll rush out in a jeans and a t shirt and look fab asf

‘who’s [deadname]?’ ‘the skeletal girl over there’

If anyone finds out I starve they don’t say ‘bUt yOu dOn’T lOoK aNoReXiC’

buying a new fuccin wardrobe oh myyyy

I’ll wear anything and look good

Waking up, weighing myself and feeling accomplished

losing weight and insecurities

I’ll shop online because everything is too small

Unhealthy cravings will disappear

People will offer to give me piggybacks

I’ll be encouraged to eat instead of being made fun of

Girls will give me jealous stares

I’ll get double takes bc I’m thin

I’ll get surrounded by people who are heavier than me

My friends will look at me eating a salad while they eat chocolate

I’ll be underweight by like 6kg so if I overeat I won’t ruin my progress

I won’t feel like a pig

‘you’re so small!’

‘[insert object/younger person over 35KG] weighs more than you’

I’ll be happy about that one perfect food day

People will call me the girl who eats and doesn’t gain weight

T H I G H   H I G H S

I’ll sit on anyone’s lap and not crush the poor person with 45KG over their legs

I’ll fit into my aesthetic

My body will be aesthetically pleasing

I’ll be cool in summer

I’ll throw away my old, shitty, massive clothes

This is insanely fucked but skinny insults like bones, stick, skeleton, etc. bc that means I’m undeniably thin

People I know will ask how I did it, and people I just met will never know what I was like 

instead of funny / cute / nice my adjectives will be thin

Pale, graceful and thin

I won’t feel like a pig anymore. OINK OINK 

Less grease, sugar, cholesterol, salt, acid, fat, heat

My skin will be clearer

I won’t have to put a lot of effort in losing weight when I’m older

This shit’s been a wip since what, April? March? Possibly January?

I’ll get picked up easily

I’ll enjoy my bd cake !

I’ll take less space on the airplane - more comfort!!

Gonna be using this as a reference

🌼 500 calorie limit

🌸 Fast at least 3 days per week

🌼 Drink only black coffee, green tea and water

🌸 Drink at least 2L of water per day

🌼 Limit dairy/meat

🌸 Limit carbs and sugar

🌼 Work Out!!!

🌸 Weigh yourself every day

🌼 Log everything you eat

Gonna be using this as a reference

🌼 500 calorie limit

🌸 Fast at least 3 days per week

🌼 Drink only black coffee, green tea and water

🌸 Drink at least 2L of water per day

🌼 Limit dairy/meat

🌸 Limit carbs and sugar

🌼 Work Out!!!

🌸 Weigh yourself every day

🌼 Log everything you eat