Aint No Forgiver Forgetter

Have you ever felt totally ignored in every way that you could be by the only people you want to recognize your needs?

I feel like I'm constantly going above and beyond for others, dropping everything for them, and always being there for them. Yet I don't think anyone ever does the same for me. I don't know if it's because I'm not worth it or because I don't have surround myself with those who are willing to do the same for me. Idk but it sucks.

I am hinestly going to explode at how abandoned I feel in terms of support with my academics. No one is helping me, no one is giving me the support I need. Like yes guys I would love some way to revise my work or raise grade. I feel so overwhelmingly hopeless towards my own success and no one seems to want to uplift me. I hate academics for just this reason. No one's actually out here to help you. They're all here to make sure you fail, don't succeed and have to endure MORE time within the academic sphere which only makes me more miserable, hopeless and disappointed. I would just love support and if not from my professors I need emotional/physical support so I can get through finals and not explode because I feel like I'm a idiot who has no chance to make it through this shitty college. But it's hopeless on all fronts because there's no forms of support to be found for me. Lol.

I hate wanting to express feeling over social media because I look down on it but I always have my emotions pent up that screaming into the void via any medium is helpful for me