kageyama kin screaming under the cut
yknow i really grew a lot in canon
i wasnt aΒ βkingβ with hisΒ βfollowersβ
i was a person on a team
but
with my hpd and other mental shit ive gone back to thatΒ βkingβ mentality
not just as kageyama, but every aspect in my life
im better than everyone and they should conform to me
i feel like
everything that i went through was wasted effort now
rationally i know theres shit wrong with me but
i dont wanna fix it
i wanna stay on my thrown as long as i can
i want people to worship me
i want them to bow down to me
i want them to adore me
but then that makes me just like him doesnt it
that god damn bastard
that god damn bastard who i hate
who i despise
who i want nothing with
but that i had fantasies about
disgusting fantasies about me and him
and about my boyfriend walking in on us
and that piece of shit would mock him
i had fantasies about hinata walking in on me and the person i hate the most
i really am a fucking sicko arent i
i wont learn from it either
ill just be alone without anyone
just like i was before i went to karasuno
sure noya is a headmate of mine and noya found his tanaka and that tanaka has daichi and suga in his system as well but
ill just be alone
noya says i wont be but
i dont know
i dont know anymore
















