m i l e n e

     Seeing Kokichi and Kaito being adorable on my dash.

    Milene’s profile song is the main theme from GRIS. A game that I played some time ago. In my vision, Milene sings a similar song. A song filled with grief, confusion, but also a hint of strength. I felt like this song  was a perfect fit for Milene. Not just because of the song itself, but because of the origin it came from. GRIS is a game about a girl who is broken and is trying to piece herself back together. Throughout the game, you are trying to remember hues and colors to piece back into your grey life. Overcoming inner turmoils and fears to find strength and who you are. I see a lot of Milene in that aspect. With inner turmoils and being broken, trying to figure out who she really is. What side of her is real and which isn’t. Is she kind? Is she cruel? Is she a liar? Is she loved? Is she hated? They are answers that, Milene herself, can’t answer. Once pure, but then corrupted by her father and his organization after the loss of her mother. Her once genuine purity, turned into a mask to cover the hatred and bitterness in her heart caused by events over years with her father and the truths about the entire world. Somehow, Milene wants to remember colors, remember who she really is, and piece herself together.

     I’ve been watching disney movies all day and I so want a verse that’s like a spin off of beauty and the beast. Except the other person doesn’t have to be a beast, just an asshole who captures Milene. It’d be fun to give her a different personality and see what unfolds from it. Idk I’m sitting here thinking of verses. owo

     Well, it’s probably pretty obvious that Milene’s favorite color is pink. Mostly because her mother loved pink too. Her mom use to call her, her little pink rose. Even though it’s a very girly color, it is just a color that looks good on her. She doesn’t go overboard with cute things just because she likes pink either.

     What was this? Acting like he actually cared about her in some way? What did he want to get out of this? Maybe later ask for some sort of favor and use this as a means to dangle in her face? She stared at his arm before she shook her head. “I’m fine, I don’t need to go to the infirmary. You are in my way. Please move.” She asked him once more, her icy eyes looking at him stubbornly. She didn’t have time for some false act of kindness. If she failed this test or failed to show up timely, it could ruin a lot of things and it would probably upset her father greatly. She’d probably get a slap on the wrists with a ruler and grounded more then likely. She clung to the wall for a moment, as if it was the only thing holding her up. “Your concern is misplaced....” It was so hard to hold her tongue with the frustration she was having, but even then, she was too exhausted to even put up a fight or spat any words.

     I want to address the weird fricken post someone put on my blog. Not sure how someone got into my blog, but I’ve reset my password etc to make sure it doesn’t happen again! Sorry about that weird post, I’ve made sure to delete it and thank you so so much for the people who messaged me to let me know!

     Of course she was more trustworthy then Kokichi...or at least she would claim to be and pretty much no one, other than Kokichi himself, would argue. She gave the girl a soft nod. “Yes, we wouldn’t want you to explode or anything! Who would provide us with magic?!” She acted all concerned and worried as if the world would fall apart without Himiko’s magic. “What I was told that would help is if you pat your head and rub your tummy at the same time. Rubbing your belly will help the tummy ache and patting your head will send out brain waves to fight off anything that might make you explode!” How silly it sounded, but she somehow believed that Himiko would believe her. She smiled sweetly to Himiko before she spoke again. “Do that every time your tummy acts up and you should be fine!”

     She takes a seat, sitting proper and up straight. She looks over to him before picking up some files and flipping through them. “Hm...well from what I heard you were quite deceitful yourself once upon a time.” She hummed as she flipped through a few pages and eyeballed some information. This was such a bother. Why did she have to put up with this anyways? Why did she have to babysit some bad boy wannabe with a god complex? An inaudible sigh came from her lips. Her eyes shifting back up to him. She gives him a smile, her eyes somewhat squinting in the process. “Sorry, but I’m not from here. Where I was born we called people by their first names. So it’s easier for me to remember first names better, I hope you don’t mind, Gundham.” Something Milene did often. Although seeming innocent with her words, of course she did it on purpose to specifically annoy him. Though her posture, expression etc would make you believe otherwise. She then went back, flipping a few more pages before opening her mouth to speak again, disregarding any comments he might say after her spat. “So, I was specifically asked to have you check in and inform us what you have been doing and where you have been over the last few weeks.”

     She had made her way down the hall towards the kitchen of the dorms. A nice cup of tea always sounded nice in the morning. Tea was something she drank a lot of. She didn’t care for soda or coffee like some other students did. She grew up mostly on tea, so it was what she mostly drank. She rubbed her eyes softly. She was still in her long, pink night gown. A little over dressed for sleeping, but it was normal for her. As she enters she notices someone is already there. “Hm?” She hums softly as she blinks her icy hues. “Oh, Shuichi.” She smiled sweetly to him. She was surprised he was up so early. She expected most students to be lazy bums who slept in unless they had class. She listened to him explain that he was boiling water for tea. “Well, I was actually going to do the same thing.” She explained to him with a soft laugh.

     Who was this? A pink and white bunny of some sort? Why did she have a bad feeling about this? Was this a trick by Monokuma? Then again, he did have those ‘children’ was this another one? She eyed the bunny curiously, not sure what to think as she listened to her talk. She seemed nice enough, but Milene wasn’t all too sure still. “Well...thank you.” She decided to smile and just make the best of it. “You are quite cute too...at least more so then Monokuma.”

     Milene smiled before she closed her eyes. “Always make sure to brush your teeth twice a day! We eat a lot of different things and walking around with bad breath is just bad! Especially if you’re trying to make a good impression on someone! One of the first things people will see will be your smile, so make sure to keep it sparkly white!”

     She found herself away from all her classmates, alone. Her mind frantic, trying to figure out how to fix this, how to fix the crack that was now in her mask. The broken pieces at her feet and she had no idea how to fix what had been done. For the first time, she looked at her hands, her hands that started to shake. What was happening? She felt like she was crumbling, but she couldn’t let that happen. She couldn’t. She inhaled deeply, trying to settle herself, but it faltered when she heard steps behind her. Quickly spinning around, it was Kokichi. Without realizing it, her facial expression was something that was never seen. Her eyes were wide, as if with fear. Something Milene never showed. Though, finally taking in that it was Kokichi before her she tried to regain her composure, but realizing that she couldn’t. So she merely turned her back to him yet again. “W-What do you want Kokichi?” She forced out, trying to control her voice but struggling to do so. “Go...Go away! You’re the last person I’d ever want to see!” She tried to threaten him. It was true, Kokichi was just a reflection. A constant reminder of what she was. A liar, a deceiver, something she hated. She grasped one hand in another, trying to calm her shaking. It fell silent, she waited to hear his footsteps walking away, but they never came. Realizing he wasn’t going to leave, she turned around to face him. “I SAID LEAVE!” She yelled at him, hands grasped together. As if yelling at some shadow self that she couldn’t fight off instead of it being Kokichi.