i think there is a fault in my code

“There’s no need to thank me. You told me not to stay for you, remember?” Kaiden arched a brow before winking, that familiar, mischievous curl to his lips returning. “I’m doing it for me,” he replied flippantly, feigning an arrogant facade as he snorted and looked off to the side. A fond smile ghosted across his lips as he passed a sideways glance however. Kaiden wanted to believe what Arielle said next - after all, theoretically she was a survivor. He just hoped the same could be said emotionally.  Kaiden sighed as he nodded, eyes downcast as he raked his fingers through his hair. “Yeah, maybe we shouldn’t worry.” He was in awe every time Arielle could do that, have courage in the face of adversity. Maybe he could learn that from her. It was something K lacked in, really. When something went bad, he’d drop everything and walk.

Arielle’s smile grew a little more as the full of himself guy she knew her boyfriend to enjoy pretending to be started to come back. “No worrying,” she shook her head quickly as she heard Kaiden sigh again. “I mean I’m fine, I survived flipping my car, I can survive anything you throw at me,” she joked with a small laugh, though she slightly regretted it as she realized maybe it was too soon to be joking about that. She closed her mouth quickly, hoping he would just let it pass as she tapped her fingers to the bed a few times. 

ask-the-seahorse:

Because, if you could love someone, and keep loving them, without being loved back … then that love had to be real. It hurt too much to be anything else.

Racey giggled and shook her head. “Well a shower can do wonders for a person. I’m luckily to get one, but I have a lot of help around here too. Now if I could just get Kallista to stay home sometimes.” Her laughter resuming as she shook her head. “She can’t get enough of these two.” She grinned proudly over the infants before looking at Arielle with confusion. “Presents? For me? This is new… I didn’t know I got presents for laying there feeling like I was going to die.” She halfheartedly laughed before shaking her head. “Ok, maybe that one was a little too much.” Her eyes widening as she realized what she just said and trying her best to cover up the possibility of her letting her secret about Nova out. She covered her mouth and shook her head, then bent over to pick up the bundle of pink and holding the baby out to Arielle. “You wanna hold one, or two. I mean its tricky to do but you can at once or one at a time.” 

“Well I mean if I wasn’t dealing with my own crap I’d probably be over here more than I have been.” Arielle admitted with a little shrug. “Take it, silly.” she shook the paper bag a little more towards racey before laughing, “I’ll admit your present isn’t as fun as theirs’ are. But I feel like you definitely deserve presents for feeling like you’re gonna die, Ian didn’t get you a push present? Did someone forget to inform him that that’s a thing.” Ari’s smile grew again and Racey lifted up the baby she only assumed was a girl from the color of her blanket and clothes and it was then Arielle realized she still didn’t know their names. “I think I’ll just stick with holding once, I doubt having one resting on my cast would be very comfortable for them.” 

Kaiden opened his mouth to rebuke, only to press his lips together and look down, hiding the defeat in his crystalline eyes; she was right. And it hurt to be reminded that he didn’t have much time with Arielle at all; he was so used to acting, pretending, that they had all this time that it felt like a punch in the face whenever the subject was brought up again. “I don’t want to go, either,” he uttered, his voice barely audible. Kaiden slid his gaze over to her dainty hands playing with his fingers. A faint, albeit fond, smile lifted the corner of his mouth as he realized she did that a lot. He couldn’t leave no matter how much he thought he should, could he? “I’ll stay because I want to,” Kaiden finally stated in a clearer tone, his eyes locking with hers.

The moment of silence felt like forever, her fingers continuing to move with his as she wove and unwove them to try and keep her nerves down, like tugging at strings in a sweater. A small wave of relief came over Arielle as she barely heard Kaiden say he didn’t want to go. As he spoke more clearly she nodded a little bit, unable to keep a small smiling from forming across her lips despite the uncertainty she still felt about their future however long it be. “Thank you,” she mumbled softly, though she wasn’t sure what she was thanking him for other than calming her mind even just a little. Her smile remained as Kai said he couldn’t stay away from her, she wanted to say the feeling was mutual but her train of thought was interrupted by his hand holding onto hers tightly. 

Some people are like nicotine, you know they aren’t good for you; but you want them any way.