godspeed, my lonely angel.

my first art of 2025 was butchfemme msr, I figured it'd be a good way to start this year too

This is at the core of Shauna's resentment of Nat's moral posturing throughout Season 3. She trusted Nat and believed in the good in her, enough so that Nat was the one to appear as her trusted confidant and support in her post-labor vision. She once viewed Nat as the grounded moral compass, but then she watched Nat eat her baby along with the rest of them. Unlike the others, Nat carried visible remorse. There's a look of clear guilt on her face, while the rest only appear hungry and crazed. But she still participated in the same unspeakable act. Remorse does not equal innocence. Even though the dream wasn’t real, Shauna still carries the visceral memory of it, the emotions attached to it, and the meaning she drew from it as though it were. When Nat tells Shauna, "You don't have to enjoy it so much" (about Shauna and Melissa maiming Coach Scott, even though Nat stood by and allowed it to happen) and Shauna fires back, "And you don't have to act like such a saint," all Shauna is seeing is Nat with her baby's blood smeared across her mouth, but with an expression that is "seemingly sorry."