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*pops back* Soooo, hey. It's been a minute since I've actually written. We're in defrost mode rn, so my tone and style might be a little all over the place. This piece was noooot proof-read, my ass just typed it all out to get it out. I have some cute shit stewin for August. There isn't a real plot! Just some drabbles that can be read stand-alone or as a cohesive chapter work. Soooo. Yes! This one can be read as a stand-alone and open-ended, but it will have a pretty clear part two (though that one will also be able to be read stand-alone).
First Meetings
5k Words
Tags; first meetings, artist/business owner! reader, muse at first sight, artistic infatuation (?), illness, is it sexual tension or artistic appreciation?, deals/bartering
You blink once at the tall blond man, head tilted back as you stare at bright orange goggle lenses. āā¦Hiā?ā
āYOURE THE ONE!ā The blondās voice booms, and you jolt out of reflex. Your shoulders jump even more as large gloved hands slam down on your shoulders. You might be more on edge if Enjin didnāt have a shiteating grin at your elbow. If you werenāt so taken off guard by the blond in front of you, perhaps you might have deadlegged the one beside you.
Instead, youāre left blinking again at orange lenses. You looked a little dumb, just staring, but the man sprang on you so fast you couldnāt do much more than stare. The goggles were a tease, considering how aesthetically pleasing the rest of his face was (you werenāt blind). You didnāt like not having a whole face to look at, even if you werenāt known for your steady eye contact. His goggles gave him a distinctive half-unfinished feel, like someone had blocked half the Mona Lisa.Ā
But, the Mona Lisa was the Mona Lisa, and likewise, a hot guy with his eyes obscured still made for a pretty hot guy.
You didnāt need to say a word, mostly because the long, blond-haired man rambled on. His voice reverberated through the infirmary. You might have wondered about bedside manners if you werenāt acquainted with Alice Stilza. Volume was not an issue in this infirmary. āI keep hearing about some dudeās stitches, and I kept seeingāem on all my fits ā which theyāre kinda shit, but theyāre hella sturdy! And I had to really get in there to rip out the stitches when I was workinā on āem, so--ā A tightening of the hands on your shoulders, āhell yeah!ā
That was definitely a little insulting -- or it would be if you had a technique when it came to your sewing. Instead, your lips twitched in pride at his comment about their sturdiness. That was entirely the quality of the thread you harbored in your shop. You did have phenomenally good shit.Ā
āAugust, let the guy breatheāā Ah, so Enjin decided you were worth rescuing. It wasnāt a surprise to you that heād waited until after youād been grabbed and manhandled to interfere. Asshole.
The name made you focus. August was one of your favorite names, though youād never met one. What would an August be like?Ā
Apparently someone whoād grab you immediately after meeting you.
Enjin sounded less than half-hearted. He waved a large hand, like August was a dog he could make mind. You doubted it.
You were lax under the gloved hands. Aside from the jolt, you hadnāt reacted much -- no glare, huff, eyebrow twitch. The guyās volume startled you more than anything. His words might have offended someone else, but not you.Ā
That wasnāt out of tough-skin, mind you. Half the time you stewed over the stupidest, most inane side-comment made your way. But, this was about your sewing (which you didnāt care much about).Ā
He wasnāt wrong. Your work was (again) kinda shit. Plus, you only did those repairs for the Cleaners who stopped by your shop out ofā¦vague moral obligation, some residual grief, and your own general magnanimity. Something about putting good into the universe to one day receive it back -- or thatās what The Trashsweep would have said.
You forced your brain back on track. You really got distracted too easily -- youād do better if you could smoke indoors. Your head tilted, cutting the blond off before words could fall from his big mouth (it had been open, ready to fly at the handle -- you also noticed it was a pretty mouth, like the rest of him. Nice teeth, pink lips, very expressive.),Ā āSo youāre the guy who makes all the equipment?ā
A fervent nod that had your own neck aching in sympathy. Your body swayed with it. The big guy still hadnāt relinquished your shoulders. You werenāt even small, though you did lack some balance and general structural integrity. This guy was just sinewy and tall. And, obviously, quite rambunctious.Ā
(āRambunctiousā -- god, that old fuck had rubbed off on you more than you wanted to admit.)
āYour designs are sick, butāā Your eyes are lidded as you mirror back the words, āyour material is shit.ā
A beat of silence follows Augustās deep gasp. You watch the artist for a moment longer. You canāt help but note (again, and twice too many times within the 10 minute span of you seeing him) that heās pretty -- between the straight, slender nose, defined chin, cut jaw, clear skin, and flowing blond hair. The silence makes heat bead at the back of your neck, and haltingly, you clarify, āThat was a joke.ā
Enjin coughed beside you, head turned to the side to muffle it. The fuckface had to be laughing.Ā
āDo you really think so?ā August curved over you, and not for the first time, you notice how tall the man is. His height allows him to peer over you in the truest meaning of the word, leaning down to hear you better. He smells like acetone, motor oil, and burnt sugar. The smell makes your nose tingle, then twitch in irritation at the tickle.Ā
Enjin has to be taller, but something about Augustās lithe frame and much bigger personality makes him seem infinitely taller.
August doesnāt sound offended, at least. You donāt hear it if he is. Your mouth doesnāt open, dark eyes wide on the taller man. Should you respond? Was now the time to respondā? Or was he about toā?
āBecause I got like three busts in the past week, not the sexy kind, and I canāt get anything to stick. I tried like a helluva bunch oā stitches ā ladder,ā and everything after that you do not understand.Ā
You didnāt know half the stitches you even did with a needle; you were just stubborn and stuck the needle where it felt best. You didnāt even use regular sewing thread ā you used embroidery thread, hence how tough your stitching is. You enjoyed embroidery, bloody fingers and loud bitching aside. You used lots of mediums with your projects, and that led you to embroidery more than once. Thick, bold embroidery thread was typically the only thread you had on you. Actual sewing thread wasnāt made for visibility like embroidery thread, and therefore was useless to you.
Not to say you didnāt carry sewing thread in your shop -- you carried everything in that bitch. It was your biggest flex.Ā
(You had a lot of customers say otherwise -- before theyād then see what they were looking for. If the object went missing somewhere in that moment of them finding it, that wasnāt your problem. Inventory was spotty in a place like Pandemonium.)
Anyway -- you really couldnāt fault the guy for calling your stitching technique shit.
You do understand what it feels like to create something, though. You donāt notice Enjin opening his mouth to interrupt, because you settle deep into this conversation. You can talk shop ā can talk arts and crafts.
āI recycle spherite clothes for my thread,ā You supply, eyes back on orange lenses.Ā āTheyāre a lot heavier--āĀ
You were going to explain how you recycled clothes into thread, except the last half of your sentence is a chorus. You squint your eyes at the blond. He doesnāt react much, aside from how his smile is only widening.Ā
You tilt your head, a matching smile tilting the corners of your chapped lips, āI can sell some, or tradeā¦ā
Because you are a business owner -- magnanimous repairs to stray Cleaners who appear at your shop or not. Your elbow hits Enjin in a light jab when you hear him snort. The asshole was laughing way too fucking much during all of this.Ā
Except the rest of your sales pitch is drowned out by a screech of your name. The voice is as loud as it is grating. A small yip breaks from your lips, and the only thing keeping you from jumping a foot high is those large, gloved hands dwarfing your shoulders still. Not that you minded, but when exactly was August (you remembered his name -- good for you) going to drop his hands?
āGreat,ā Enjin mutters at your side, sounding as thrilled as you feel. You give a deep sigh and trade glances with him. āHey, doc!ā Enjin was a better man than you for greeting her. You were sufficiently tuckered out from the impromptu meeting with the tall designer in front of you.
Another parrot of your name, though this time from a much more pleasant voice (even if it was almost just as loud). Augustās timbre cracks, conveying his shock. You cock a brow as he proceeds, āLike, that guy?āĀ
Okay, well, fuck you, too. Your eyes squint up at him in discernment. You were a generally polite person -- or at least you thought so. You lift a hand in a small wave, almost absentmindedly patting the large gloved hands. āI mean ā maybe? Depends. You got beef?ā Your tone is light, but Enjinās hip knocking your side reveals that it falls a little flat.Ā
āAugust!ā Alice Stilza booms, her crow-like eyes honed onto the blond who is still holding your shoulders. He seems to realize it with you, lightly shaking you back and forth. You tense for about a second before slipping back into deadweight and letting it happen. A younger you would have bristled. Luckily for August, he was meeting a much more docile you.
He must enjoy the reaction, because the shaking speeds up just a bit. You easily let yourself rock on your heels. You were too old for this shit.
āGramma! You didn't tell me you knew the stitches guy!ā His head whips to her, and you notice that his nose is perfectly straight. His profile is as aesthetically pleasing as everything else about him, and that just feels inherently unfair. You wonder, briefly, about a deal you could make -- or would that be creepy?Ā
Your lips tug down as you think, but you move on to much more pressing matters.
āGrandma?ā You croak. You take a step back and finally break the hold on your shoulders. Your eyes snap between the hawkish woman of your nightmares and August, āHeās your grandson?ā
Thatā¦actually makes so much sense, you realize. Still, the geriatric scarecrow of a woman canāt be reconciled with the (objectively) attractive blond man in front of you. Attitude-wise, though, that made so, so much sense. August, now that you stared a little harder at him, was just as scarecrow-like -- in a different, pleasantly distracting way. The overalls added to it. He wiggled his fingers at you in what might have been mock demure or purposeful goofiness. You couldnāt tell for sure, and both seemed likely.
You pause.
āHuh,ā You huff in light acknowledgment.Ā
āHE IS!ā Alice booms. Youād seen her so many times that the volume hardly made you flinch -- the initial scare aside. The sallow-skinned woman swarms down on you. August is forced to take a step farther back. Pale pink, chapped lips pout at the older woman. āHurry up! Get on the table, idiot.āĀ
You frown, āI didnāt even say I was hurt, or that I was having an attackāā
āDonāt talk back! Sit.āĀ
You couldnāt really argue with that.Ā
Your full lips tug farther from a frown and more into a pout. You slide around August. You head to the med table and hop up to sit on it with a soft oof. Enjin meanders with you, and you idly knock your foot into his knee. The man knocks back as he settles in a lean against the med table by your side.
Really, he had work to do, but you were confident he was dallying with you to avoid it. Youād already done the trade youād visited for, Alice aside. You suspected the older man was concerned, and that gave your heart an uncomfortable warmth. The warmth traveled in an uncomfortable itch to the back of your neck, making you worry you might get hives. Alice wouldnāt let you leave if you ended up with something like that out of the blue.
At least neither of you were acknowledging his presence. What Enjin succeeded in showing through action, he often failed at in communication.Ā
(You had witnessed, eavesdropped, and been on the receiving end of this many times. One time you almost pissed your pants after two of his hookups bumped into each other at the club -- neither of which knew about the other, both of which Enjin had seen in the past week with the bruises on their necks to match. You had no sympathy, and neither did Bro or Gris. A man was only subject to the consequence of his actions.)
āGramma! You knew the stitches guy, and ya didnt tell meā!ā August was near whining. Your lips twitched. Seems like there was someone who could rival Aliceās volume.Ā
(Part of you wondered if he did it so his grandma might not feel so alone. The original Trashsweep, your mentor, had told you about how Alice became so loud. Her volume wasnāt a choice, and you knew patients often avoided her. You couldnāt fathom that a woman who made it her lifeās work to solve a terrible disease didnāt want to help people -- that maybe it was saddening to be avoided when your passion and profession were to help people. God, you couldnāt think too hard on that, or youād cry.)
āYa already met!ā Alice barked, diving into her pockets to dig out a stethoscope. You know the drill and straighten.Ā
Undoubtedly used to his grandmotherās work, August manages to stay quiet the whole time she listens. He doesnāt make a peep or even move too much as she feels your pulse and counts your bpm like second nature. With your head stuck straight forward while she works, youāre stuck watching August. You canāt see his eyes behind those goggles, but you watch as his body leans to look at you around Alice.Ā
Long, pale blond strands swish as his head starts aimed low and rises -- a once-over. While you knew that from very different contexts, you still registered the body language. Your lips twitch into a small smile. His head cocks (not unlike a dog, you realize), and his hair sways lower.
āYer kindaāā August starts, but the end remains a mystery as Alice slams a hand back and into his stomach. The tall man flutters back, hands cradling his gut as he gives a choked puff of air. āGramma!ā
āDonāt interrupt me when Iām workin', brat,ā Alice barks out, though sheās putting her stethoscope away. Her beady eyes turn to you, āYouāre as shitty as always.ā
Well, canāt argue with that. You huff even as you smile, thoroughly unbothered by the verdict as your feet sway gently in the air. All you offer her is a polite (because you are well aware of how anal Alice is about respect), āSorry, maāam. Iāve laid off on the smokes, mostly.ā
Augustās body tilts to one side at your words, like a melting clay figure. You tilt your own head at him, mirroring his earlier action. Instead of being rewarded with an answer, he only smiles wider and tilts farther. The pose makes him looked prep to fall. You fight the urge to tilt even more to see if he will. Enjin puffs a breath beside you.
Ā Alice moves to the medicine cabinet for what you know to be your inhaler and supplements. You make a point to open your mouth before August can, āWas he here during one of my visits?ā
It made sense ā especially if it was a long time ago. Your first few visits to Alice were foggy. You learned that treating asthma down on The Ground was trial and error. Your first few visits were painted in a haze of low oxygen levels and lethargy.Ā
August let out a low āooooohā. The blond was listening, then. Neither of you had deviated from your weird, tilting game of chicken. You really wish you had some eye coverage of your own, because the staredownĀ with Augustās goggles feels unfair.Ā
Alice huffs, āSomethinā like that. You were both kids.ā
That seemed to be that, then. You hum at August, āWell, guess neither of us remembers that, huh? Itās nice meeting you, though ā again, I guess.ā
Pleasantries. You didnāt have a reason not to be polite. Not that you needed one to be mean, either, historically speaking. You ignore Enjinās mocking coo at your side. You knock your boot a little harder into the side of his leg.Ā
August, however, is staring at you. Or, you assume he is, at least. The goggles kept fucking with how you were reading his whole -- vibe. Eyes were the window to the soul and whatnot. Luckily, like with the once-over, August seems to choreograph his movements to an obvious degree. His body angles to bend forward and a fraction closer to you, like you were an ant rather than a person, āBut Iād remember you! Your face,ā A gloved hand makes a vague gesture to you, ā And the rest of it, too. Youāve got a vibe!ā
āRest of itā is vague. On one hand, you have half a mind to think maybe this guy might be hitting on you. He just doesnāt really seem the type, frankly (with his energy, you really can't tell if it's personal appreciation or just enthusiasm as a whole). You know what it feels like to get hit on, versus a general compliment. If this guy was a designer, an artist, you suspected it was the latter.Ā
(Also, because you understand exactly what heās saying. He had a vibe,Ā too. Logically, you couldnāt really imagine forgetting someone this fucking loud either. Yet, the world works in mysterious ways, and minds are fickle. You know all about that. You let the skepticism go easily.)
All you can do is shrug with slightly warm cheeks (because it was flattering, especially considering it was a two-way street), āI used to dye my hair a lot, and my attitude was pretty shit back when I was younger. āSpecially when I had to visit the doctor. Probably for the best we didnāt really meet. Iādāve pulled your pigtails.ā
Your words are lazy. Was it flirting? Maybe a little. In that odd, roundabout way that took most people a minute. The messy train of thought was as follows: boys bully girls they like ā pulling pigtails ā you were mean and a terror and would have given him hell. Despite your odd flirting, you donāt look much like you said anything out of the ordinary. Thereās no bashfulness or awkwardness on your face as you sit there on the med-table, feet kicking lightly.Ā
Augustās head dips to the side sharply, like a dog hearing a whistle at a frequency too high for human ears. Pearly whites appeared in a stunned, pleased grin. You got the distinct impression that he understood the tangled compliment. The red tint to his ears might have given him away.
Your smile is downright smug.
ā¦
Eventually, you made it out of the infirmary. Enjin seemed much more interested in August trailing you two out than you did. You hardly glance back at the (literally) lumbering man. Heād apparently decided it was vital to hold his arms out in front of him ā you donāt know if it was to grab at either of you or simply for the fuck of it all.
āIām out,ā you drawl, voice flatter than the pleasantry in the infirmary.Ā
āAww, thatās a lie,ā Enjin coos in that particular tone ā the one that had panties on the floor or hands meeting his cheek with violent passion. His words are aimed at you, but his eyes are on August. You donāt glance behind you.
āOn my momma.ā
āYour momma?ā You ignore the hoarse voice behind you.Ā
Youād said your piece to the designer. Youād also talked to a lot of people today, had more than your fair share of auditory stimulation, and not a drop of alcohol for any of it. (Yet.)
āYou hate your momma,ā Enjin wags a finger at you, then back at August, ātheyāre lyinā.ā
āNot lyinā,ā you correct, slowly maneuvering to the writing on the wall. You were trash at navigating this godforsaken building. Enjinās no help, as usual. He liked to watch you get lost before stepping in. āIām gonna get home, drink some wine, and read āā
āSo sophisticated.ā The word is purposefully broken down in mocking cadence -- so-phis-ti-cated.
You turn on your heel to give Enjin a flat look, but your eyes only meet the stitch of overalls and a snug white shirt pulling over pale, lean muscle. From your lower peripheral, you could almost make out the bottom of the white shirt. Loose overalls peeped at the shirtās cropped edge.
Oh.Ā
Looks like August had moseyed up quite close behind you.Ā
Huh, your head slowly tips back to meet orange goggles. Your brows furrow and create a wrinkle between your brows. āYou know, I typically charge people if theyāre getting that close to me from behind ā and Iām a lot drunker. Can I help you?ā
āOh, this is good,ā and a wheeze from behind August (who looks like Christmas came early, which is somewhat alarming) has you trying to lean around the man to glare at Enjin. God, you had been lying about being done for the day at HQ, but now you arenāt so sure. Going home to your dust scented shop and bed was sounding better and better. And wine.Ā
(Truly, it was more like moonshine. You traded with someone once ā a favor from you for their booze recipe. Your shit memory and wonderful knack for finding dark, cool places often left things steeping for far longer than the recommended amount.)Ā
āYes!āĀ
You pause. Well, at least the guy had honesty going for him. You donāt interrupt.Ā
āI wanna trade ā you said that was part of it! Gimme some of that sick ass thread andāā he drew out the last word, hands up a he waved them in a general whatever motion, āIāll make you a rig!ā
You already have a rig. One you designed yourself, so it wasnāt the best, but still. It wasnāt like you went to no-manās land a lot, but you arenāt shocked he assumed. You do have āgiver eyesā. He probably thinks that shitās up your street.Ā
Still, you arenāt against it. There isnāt a whole bunch youād say no to in terms of deals, so long as something was being offered. Plus, if he gave you a better designed one with your stellar materials, then you could just sell your shit one that youād made yourself. Youād be up a business deal and down a few asthma attacks.Ā
Speaking of ā you stare (dumbly, youāre sure) as a gloved hand shakes your prescription bag. Not hard, but enough to rattle the contents. This little shit fucking pickpocketed you ā what the fuck?Ā
(You couldnāt quite reconcile that this guyās Aliceās grandkid. Alice, whoās such a stickler for respect, didnāt seem the type to let such behavior slide. Youāre confident he got his ass popped black, blue, and red all over when he was kid.)
When you snatch it back, he doesnāt fight you. He does talk.Ā
āYou got asthma, so thatād be hella helpful! And my rigsāre the best. Plus, you gotta be kickinā some ass if you got those eyes, or if youāre just--ā Another vague wave of his long arms, and now youāre starting to think itās a physical attempt to look for the right words, āthere, on the scene, itād help! I havenāt made you a rig, or Iād know ya, and I donāt, yo!ā
Youāre preoccupied staring him down as he yaps like heās getting paid for it. That deal you thought of earlier, the one you didnāt even let yourself think on too deeply, comes to mind. Would it be creepy? Your eyes squint harder as you try to decide, and unbeknownst to you, it looks a lot like youāre glaring August down to an early grave.
āAugust, I think youāre about to get your ass beat if you donāt shut up, dude,ā Enjin (as the afternoon had gone) interrupts only when it seems absolutely necessary. Augustās mouth snaps shut after a few more words you donāt register, and from your proximity, you hear the click of his teeth.
āIām not gonna beat his ass,ā You argue, not even trying to look around August to Enjin anymore.Ā
No, because youāre busy staring August down, which does not reaffirm your statement in the least. You take the time to look at the designer closely, and now that youāve caught on that you look pissy, you do derive some pleasure from the fact it might be a little nervewracking.Ā
Except August doesnāt seem even a little bit on edge. He looks as dialed up to 12 as you do sometimes.Ā
Heās tall, yes. His shoulders are broad, but not anything like a linebacker. Heās lean, but you see how the sleeves of his shirt hug his biceps. Muscles and tendons move under pale skin -- the kind workers have and genetics give, not the kind from fighting. He gave the vibe of someone with freckles, and youāre vindicated when you see the faintest dusting of them. Less clusters and more like distant constellations. Heād likely have more if The Ground got more clear sunshine, you realize. Your eyes rove up toned arms to a slender, equally toned neck. The choker all cleaners have sits snug at his throat, and you find that distracting and a great source of contrast.Ā
His face is already angled down to you. His heavy, thick blond hair is a curtain that shades his elfish face. Elfish isnāt quite right though, because his features arenāt as sharp as you thought. His jaw is a little more square. His brows are thick and straight.Ā
Your eyes meet orange lenses again, and you can now make out the shape of heavy lidded eyes. Unfortunately, that is what makes your brain stem burn -- your ears, the back of your neck, and the courage you had shrivels up like a grape under the sun.Ā
Because his eyes are the sharpest about him. Theyāre unmoving on you, watchful, and you canāt even hold eye contact long enough to try to see if you can tell what the look in his eyes is. Focused and unbothered, likely.Ā
āWell, maybe they donāt want to beat your ass. That face isnāt really saying I want to beat your ass, more likeāā
āShut the fuck up,ā You absolutely bulldoze over Enjin, but your voice cracks. You thought the situation couldnāt get worse. You stand corrected. Your face is stinging with heat, traveling from the apples of your cheeks to your throat to disappear under the collar of your shirt.Ā
Now, apparently, itās your turn to ramble, as you devoutly move your eyes around the room but not on August. Youād always been good at eye contact to listen, but you evaded it like a bandit when you were being listened to. āIām not going to beat your ass. Yes, we can trade, and, I mean,ā Your eyes squint, like obscuring your vision is a haze of dark lashes might make glancing at August easier.Ā
But your deal shrivels up again, because no, people do not ask strangers to model for them. Thatās weird. That would be creepy, and itād be weird because heās doing it for thread -- You deflate with a sigh.Ā
(You miss how August leans with your sigh, eyes even more intent than before.)
āA rig is fine. You can stop by for some thread next week, or Enjin can grab it from me. 10 spools. Deal?ā
āMm,ā Augustās lack of immediate agreement is noticed, and your eyes automatically move to him. Heās back too peering, careened over you. You do not back up into the wall out of sheer hatred for cliches. āWhat were you gonna say? Because you totally had a look on yer face, and I get that look! So,ā the āoā is drawn out, his eyes on yours, āWhatās up, babe?ā
(If youād seen behind August, you would have seen the absolute enraptured expression on Enjinās face. The man looked one more word away from putting his hands over his mouth. Youād seen elderly women less interested in what tea was goinā on. Absolute shithead -- heād always been an awful fucking gossip. Youād argue if anyone said you were worse.)
Oh. Oh.Ā
A beat passes. You might have spoken if you werenāt factory resetting.Ā
(You called people ābabeā. Other people called you ābabeā.Ā You were not mentally prepared for that word making an appearance after your mortification and from the subject of said mortification.)
August seems to take that as a sign to keep going, āāCause I get that face when I wanna draw somethinā, or like I see somethinā really--ā He only waves one hand this time, faint, and a breeze wafts your hair, āHot, or tight, or just nice. So you totally have somethinā you want from me, yo!ā
You had snapped a hand up in a universal āstopā motion after hot, but he didnāt notice. The āyo!ā rings in the hall.Ā
Youād always had a problem with getting called chicken. You never backed down if people clocked your shit outright. And, well -- he noticed. So maybe asking wouldnāt be weird?Ā
Youāre entirely ready to weigh the pros and cons of falling to your base desire as an artist, but then you see his eyes again. August looks patient, really, head cocked with platinum blond strands almost creating a privacy curtain and those lidded eyes not moving from your face.Ā
(āThis shit is getting so good,ā Enjin mutters from a distance, slowly working a hand to his choker. Semiu would eat this shit up.)
Itās his eyes that make you blurt out, āI want you to model for me.ā
Thereās maybe half a second of silence after your words, then --
I have a type, what can I say? Random HCs with no rhyme or reason. A little warm-up as I get back into writing and posting.
He didnāt always yell. He was a distracted and fast-paced kid, but he was more of a rambler than someone who didnāt know his own volume.
He chose to be loud when he heard people always complaining about his grammaās yelling ā which he did not like.
At about 10, he started yelling just as loudly when he spoke. His young logic was this; if his grandma was seen as loud, heād just have to be louder.
The efficiency of this was debatable, but people at least chalked it up less to her and more as a family thing.
Because he started this so young, he actually did just naturally start projecting 24/7.
Only really becomes aware of his volume if Eishia gets overwhelmed. The two made their own hand signs for when Eishia goes nonverbal.
Family man, literally would set the world on fire for his sister or gramma.
That being said ā August is lowkey kind of a pacifist. He doesnāt really fight and rarely gets involved. This tends to make people forget he can.
He has been in a few fights, mostly when he was younger and people would pick on Eishia. Despite the fact he's always been tall, he fights like a little shit. Hair pulling, biting, throwing things -- the works.
The biggest disagreement he and Eishia have is about volume. While he'll be quiet in private if Eishia gets overwhelmed, he's loud on principle around people. The reason Eishia got bullied so much was because of the volume of August and Alice.
bro does not believe in gender norms at all. Think 'Dress' by Charlotte Sands.
Used to be mistaken for a girl before he hit puberty. People often thought him and Eishia were fraternal twins. Certified pretty boy.
Actually has no current piercings, aside from impulsively piercing his ears when he was 13. They're too much commitment for him, since occasionally piercings don't 'go with the fit'. Has a fuck ton of fake piercing jewelry.
(The flipside of this is that he has had piercings or given himself them if a fake looks weird, but Eishia got tired of healing them for convenience.)
Ambidextrous! He was a lefty, but he learned to use his right after stabbing his fingers way too much when first learning to sew.
Negative spatial awareness. Can and will bump into things and people.
Awful at interrupting and talking over people. He doesn't mean to, but he jumps ahead in conversations and tends to blurt out his thoughts or questions. Gets especially bad if he's interested in a conversation.
This man is queer. Like, terribly queer. Certified girl, gay, and they kisser. Definitely operates somewhere on an asexual spectrum, but simultaneously has not given it a single thought. Does not think it's maybe a little unusual to be less interested in sex and more interested in capturing how someone might look during sex. Bro would be bricked up because it's an artistic experience.
Can do make-up! Doesn't do it because he breaks out easily, and the feeling of it "makes him itch". Sensory issue, my guy. Shaves really regularly for the same reasons.
Actually doesn't like drinking! Had one memorable experience with someone saying he mellows out and "is tolerable, for once". He cried. After that, he stopped drinking out of spite and some lightly unacknowledged insecurity.
(This was also one of the few times Eishia has ever seen her big brother cry. Eishia doesn't know if he remembers her hugging him after he came through the window crying. She'd stayed up after leaving it unlocked for him. They were both pretty young -- August was 15, she was 12.)
Alice is their maternal gramma. While both siblings resemble their mom (blond hair, lean, general facial features), they have their dad's eyes (pink).
August was 7 when they died, with Eishia being 4. August remembers them both. Eishia doesn't.
(August used to tell Eishia stories when they were growing up. Eishia started asking him after Alice started crying. When August cried, Eishia stopped asking about their parents at all. She didn't think having answers was worth hurting either her brother or gramma. She does remember every slight comment the two have made about them, though.)
Sneakitypeakity. It IS in the works. I fear I am juggling this, some other ideas to get back into writing, the closure of AAATC, two art WIPS, an animatic WIP, one half finished light novel, and two half unfinished audiobooks. I like options.
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Also such a jump because I do want to get back into writing ā yall might getā¦gachiakuta content from me. Light-haired men have such a painful grip on me that it should be studied, and Iāll let yall stew on which ones Iām talking about.
You've been missed, I'm glad you're doing better now! An Archaeologist and Their Crystal found me in a time where I yearned for comfort through escapism, and the fanfic provided such. It was also a great inspiration for me as someone who's heavily passionate about character writing.
I was always hooked on every word of the series and your other Venture works. It gave me something to look forward to when things were unraveling in my life, for that I would like to thank you. While I'm a little sad AATC may never have a conclusion, the memories of my excitement while reading will always be happy ones. Thank you!
I appreciate this so much. I am actually (and certainly encouraged by this) writing a ācloseā to aaatc. It will essentially be an epilogue of sorts, with a few mentions to the past and thus the plot of events I had planned.
Im honestly always baffled and flattered to hear that people enjoyed my characterization and character writing. I truly came into writing Venture with nothing more than a few audios, a wiki page glance, and a lot of free time. I never expected people to like what I wrote, and it makes me infinitely happier that you were encouraged to pursue your own passion by it.
Itās been so long since Iāve written them that I can only hope itās the same for everyone reading, if not better.
I donāt know when the chapter will be posted, but Iāve broken it into about 5 parts. The first part has been drafted, coming in at about 2k on the first rough draft, so it will at least be a decently long read once Iām finished!
Extras:
Have received a very eye opening ADHD diagnosis of sorts from my therapist, which was as hilarious as it was a little painfully ironic to get at 24.
The final part to AAATC will be (this is TBD) titled āCurtain Callā (true to every theater themed chapter title), and the songs driving it (rn, because u know ill post a playlist) are āThe Handā by Annabelle Dinda, āLover, You Shouldāve Come Overā by Jeff Buckley, and āWaiting Roomā by Phoebe Bridgers.
I will be including an overview of the plot, as well. Any extra asks about the story are totally fine!
So I'm actually going to use this sweet ask to roll into an update after about a year of hiatus. Slick, I know. I appreciate it, my guy.
When I started An Archaeologist and Their Crystal, I was depressed as fuck. I feel like thatās the most direct, honest statement, and pretty much knocks the elephant out of the room. My headspace when I wrote each one of these fics was that I was alone and lonely. I had so many feelings of grief, anger, sadness, and longing that I would write entirely with the intent of illustrating these feelings to the best of my ability -- because I wanted to be understood. In the beginning, I wasnāt even expecting people to read any of my works. I just wanted an outlet to get out what I couldnāt. I wanted to be able to tell people how I was feeling through my writing, because I lacked the communication skills in my daily life to tell people exactly how I felt. The truth is that there wasnāt anyone to tell, so I indirectly told strangers. I, unfortunately and genuinely, hated my life.
Iām saying this now because itās no longer true. Thereās no need for worry, or pity, or sympathy -- none of that. Iām nowhere near the headspace I was in when I started this. This story and the feelings I was pushing into my writing, everything I was trying to get off my chest to strangers, all the understanding i was trying to find -- I donāt have or need any of that anymore. I think itās because I understand myself enough now that I donāt need to find parts of me in other people. No searching for all the loneliness and melancholy in others, to not feel so alone experiencing it.Ā
I used to be reader. But Iām not anymore.Ā Unfortunately, for anyone still waiting on an update (and those who have sent me DMs about it, some of which were nice while others left me avoiding writing even more), I canāt continue it in the way I had envisioned when I started it. To me, writing is always symbolic of my state of being. The āmeā at the time I started this was depressed, full of loathing, envious, turbulent, and hoping to find healing outside of myself -- whether that was in others, experiences, or outlets. Then, I was bordering on suicidal and stopped writing altogether because I felt no need to create, to be here. The āmeā now has found what I was looking for in myself, and Iām a lot happier. Itās made a world of difference.
All this being said, I havenāt written Sloan in a year. I still have a rough mental map of what this story was meant to be, because I did have a plot in mind. I, frankly, will likely never finish it to the degree I wanted. No more chapters, or plot twists, or character reveals like I thought.
But I do understand the importance of closure. Everyone wants an ending to anything they consume, and I could rant about how thatās because an individualās personal ending remains unknown, life is unknown, etc. I wonāt.Ā
Instead, Iāll get back on topic -- closure.Ā
Some people, not that I know if anyone is still into my main story, might want to know how An Archaeologist and Their Crystal was meant to pan out (Or just some odd question about how I characterized Sloan, etc). Iāve contemplated reworking the story many times to make it an actual original work, just because I put an embarassing amount of thought into the plot. That being said -- Iām going to do some stuff. Weāll see how well I can emulate the writing I did at the time (the tone, but namely the characterization of Sloan).
Iām gonna take pretty much any question about the plot/characters/setting/OCs -- anything.
Provide a (somewhat) structured overview of what was meant to happen for anyoneās little maladaptive daydreams of where exactly this story was going.
A RARE possibility I am trying to work on -- An epilogue. A literal closure. A jump to the āhappy endā (which, mind you, my original idea for the ending was not happy. Again, guys, I was Not feeling swell.) that yāall have been deprived of. Possibly including snippets of the plot as memories.
Or, if no one wants any of that, then thatāll be that! If any of you do, let me know (liking the post, commenting, reblogging, ask box -- take your pick).
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iāve started replacing āi want to dieā with āi feel overwhelmedā in my internal monologue, which is usually more accurate and more productive
āI canāt do thisā -> This will be a challenge for me, itās normal to feel intimidated
āI hate thisā -> This is a tough situation to handle and Iām doing my best
āI hate myselfā -> Iām struggling with low self esteem right now, I need to support myself as I would a friend
āI canāt believe I forgot againā -> Itās tough to balance so many things, maybe I need to let go of some of them
āTheyāre not going to like meā -> I donāt have to perform for anyone, my personality is valid and loveable just as is
The list could go on and onā¦
Redirecting the āblameā from yourself and recognizing that you are a human suffering through normal, difficult human experiences is important. Support yourself like youād support any of your close friends if they said these things.
I canāt tell you how delighted I am to see Actual Scripted Examples!
Iāve known I need to modify my self-talk like this for three+ years, and Iāve been trying for that long, but I never know what to replace it with. So the examples are super incredibly helpful, thank you so much. ~<333
My revolutionary phrase has been āI am not having fun right now.ā Because instead of exaggerating/catastrophizing, I usually go in the opposite direction: every time I think āI canāt take this,ā the logician in my brain reminds me that *technically* I can, and so itās not a problem. Iām capable of withstanding a hell of a lot, so waiting until I hit āI actually literally cannot take this for one more single secondā is generally not the best idea. But reframing to āI am not having fun with thisā has let me modify or straight up quit uncomfortable things much sooner, because it doesnāt have to be that bad for me to acknowledge that Iām not having fun anymore, and once I acknowledge that itās easier to give myself permission to make a change!
this isnāt about hating her this is about recognizing there will always be a small part of me a little hurt and a little scared and itās my job to care for that part in the way she needed at the time