Take you at your word, baby, I just overdosed.
Bitter pill to take, gasping as my throat is closed
Hanging on your wires, saltwater in my eyes
Stringing me along while the one you knew dies
And the woman I've become bleeds out from her nose
Your "love" is burning sour, I cry while changing clothes
Every song I write says it all, but too verbose
You only saw a man, all your words were lies
You thought of it as night, but I'm in my sunrise
I called it long ago, see the day when your heart froze
I'm not who I was, I pretended too long
Memorized every word and sang the wrong song
Not the soul you wanted you vowed to through smooth and rough
You knew I was wrong and cleared the thicket in the road
Showed me the right path knowing ours couldn't hold
I was all yours and you helped transform me to not enough
Twenty-eight long years, entropy would never break
I never faced my fears, just prayed my soul to take
A body less of flesh, a prison house of cards
Cracking through my skull against limiting bars
Like swimming upstream, just to drown to death in the lake
It's been another four, and even though I'm wide awake
I look at coated glass, and my outside just looks fake
Halfway through my life, still waiting just to start
Every part of the past, dining on my beating heart
Continuing to live, though I'm impaled on a stake
I'm not who I was, I pretended too long
Memorized every word and sang the wrong song
Becoming who I wanna be, but every second's tough
Before I was wrong, but now I have knowledge
I was meant to bloom in full even as a small kid
But will I be myself? Will I finally be enough?
Through the forest, missing the trees
Will the nightmare ever cease?
My name carried on a gentle breeze
I'm not who I was just four long days ago
Carry that poor soul, where the wind may ever blow
I was still wrong, but this time I'll be right.
Whisper a new name, leave the nest and then take flight