I want to romance Ryan just to see what it's like but my Alex always leaves Haven so I feel bad romancing him.
I feel you anon! I actually struggle to romance Steph because I'm the opposite, I want my Alex to stay in Haven, and I just feel like romancing Steph is holding her back.
And narratively I KNOW the point of the romances is that Alex becomes Steph's adventure, while Alex becomes Ryan's home. So the game is saying that Steph can be happy in Haven, and Ryan can be happy not in Haven.
But personally, I just struggle with it because I think I'm seeing it too realistically instead of from a video game perspective where these are characters instead of people. Because the game says "Steph will be happy wherever Alex is," but I as a person who knows how other people usually work think to myself "Giving up your dreams for another person is a lot."
And to be fair, sometimes dreams do change! Sometimes you think you want something, then something happens and things change, but you're happy with how they changed! That does happen, but also with Steph and Ryan's characters are so wrapped up around travel for Steph and Haven for a Ryan, a part of me is like: How long until a on the road Ryan starts wanting to settle down, and starts suggesting that maybe they could find a permanent home somewhere? How long until a stay in Haven Steph starts wanting way more than a small town can give her, and starts getting an urge to leave? In these two routes, is it inevitable that Ryan and Steph will be less happy than if they just stayed the path of what they wanted originally?
And like I said, maybe I'm just being to cynically realistic about a video game. But I JUST replayed Steph's side story, and when she was struggling during pride month because of the lack of community in Haven, I did think to myself "I'm glad I picked Ryan to stay in Haven with, because I don't know if Alex will give Steph that community feeling forever. Steph seems to want a large community, and parades, and plenty of queer connections, and that's a TOTALLY valid thing to want, but I don't know if she's ever going to get that full experience in Haven, even with Alex with her. Small mostly straight towns are still small and mostly straight even if you have a girlfriend.
So yeah, I know what you mean and it feels like a weirder choice than the game makes it. The game is saying Ryan and Steph can happy wherever, but I've seen a lot of players be more realistic about it, and be like ".......Will they though?" And I see both sides. The game says they will be fine, but IDK.