My life as I know it

okay so I have been laying low,  had to .  trying to find my way,  and get things taken care of.  and well,  I feel like I can’t get myself out of this runt.

I know it is my fault for some of it, or to be honest half of it.   But I just want to get out of it,  I want to be financially secure.  I want to catch up on my debt but I have no money to do so.

rrrrgggggg

how do I get out of this runt,  i…

Hello To All

  I have some great news,  my foreclosure sale has been cancelled!  CANCELLED!  I am so happy….. But we are not out of the woods yet.  We are still having to work on a loss mit plan with the bank.  I am hoping for good news on this too!

My GOALS update………

Yes I am still here and yes I am still working on my goals….. I haven’t given up and I am still sticking to it.

for those of you who remember I started writing down my goals in order to keep track of them and to well try to accomplish them

my goals as of 09/2013  were simple but many,  and this is how I fared so far:  dah dah dah ( drum roll please)

Weight loss :

lose weight – 50 pounds : 6…

well it’s here, it actually started on Thursday.  and we couldn’t go.  Didn’t have money for it and any money we had been going to have to go into fixing our AC unit.  and then on Friday our friend called and said that she had two tickets ( and kids under 12 get in free) .  So in short today,  We went to Phoenix Comicon…. and for those that didn’t know,  that is a check mark on my goal list……

Its Hot in here

In case you were wondering if things could be worse,  well I am here to tell you they can.  Summer has started in AZ and we are over 100 degrees now and to top off everything we have been through so far, we are reminded that things can always get worse….

Today we came home to No AC,  No AC in AZ and Summer has began.  We noticed last night that the AC wasn’t great and this morning turned it off…

conversation with my son

On Sunday around 9 or so I had a conversation with my son and I think it was the best answer I ever received

So I am watching Arthur Christmas with Michael, yes i know its late and yes he is up, But he doesn’t want to go to bed as he slept from 3 to almost 6pm, any way we are watching the movie and he says ” mama I want magic” and I said you do,? he said yes, I asked him well where does magic…

asking a friend a question

Today I asked a friend of mine a question.

Keep in mind I don’t really talk about my problems with my friends.  I don’t really know why but I guess the reason is because I am afraid of what they will say or of them judging me.  But with this friend I am not really afraid of that.  Not because she is my best friend (because she isn’t, she is just a good friend) but because she is a good person.…

luck http://wp.me/s3hBKu-luck

Okay … I think I have reached the crazy part of desperation.  you know where you are basically just wishing out of thin air..  Yep Thats me

I have reached a breaking point and now I am really just wishing for the lotto… I know a little, or extremely stupid.  But thats me right now. So I need some luck!

If you have any to spear and you can send it my way that would be great ( like I said I lost it)

I just need a miracle

Just one Miracle,  well one last miracle I guess. I am sinking and sinking fast.  please let there be a light at the end of the tunnel.  I am not sure how much I can handle

blog http://wp.me/s3hBKu-blog

So I was going to write a blog, but my daughter came up to me and wants to play blocks with me.  So I am sorry you will have to wait until later.  its time to play

Reboot http://wp.me/s3hBKu-reboot

I think I need a Reboot and restart in my life……

or maybe an extra life……… I don’t but something

  I have started to lose all focus and I am so Stressed and Lost.  I don’t know what to do next.  I am at a lost.  like I said “restart” ,  if only life was like a video game.

  Right now, I am extremely depressed, and I don’t know what I need to do to fix it.  Well I know what needs to be done, but I…

Hello all

I know its been a while,  but I am still here.

I am at ( or around) 137 pounds,  I still have around 30 more pounds to lose .  I know it seems to be a lot,  but when you are short 30 extra pounds is a lot on a little frame. ( but if I was taller, I would be okay – like 5 extra inches, But I am not)

I am trying to get everything in order and its a lot,  a lot of stress.  But I have to do…

today’s post/blog

Yes I know, lame title but here it goes

Yes I am still loosing weight,  I am at 142 right now,  which is good,  I am not loosing it as fast but I am also not walking 3 miles a day right now.   But regardless, I am loosing weight.  My goal is still going on,  just not as focused on it.

I know I haven’t been writing that much,  i can’t help it.  Its been busy and stressful over here.  With trying…

picture of the day

I want to know where this is ,  I want this house… its perfect.

So I found this picture on tumbler and fell in love with it

some day maybe