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the evil within: a trip to the hospital

A pause. Staring ahead of her. Almost seeming as she didn’t hear the question.

Until.

“It wasn’t me. But. I rememba’.. One evenin’.. I was at tha’ family dina’.. It was slow, Sunday.. I was catchin’ up on some studyin’ for school when tha’ doors burst open.”

“It was Nikki. With daddy, and a couple’a cousins.. He got shot. Bad. It was really fuckin’ bad..” Molly’s voice shuddered as she recalled the memory, lashes fluttering.

“A lotta blood. A lotta fuckin’ blood. That was all I rememba’ focusin’ on. And then I saw flesh underneath it when one of them moved a hand off him. It had ta’ have been a ratha’ point blank shot. I don’t even think Nikki’s eyes were open. I rememba’. Because I thought he was dead.”

“We took’em in tha’ back.. Past tha’ kitchen in the back room where business and just hangin’ out really happened. I was focused. I immediately wanted ta’ fuckin’ get in and fix’em. Work on’em. I’ve handled gunshots before. I could do this. It was fine. He was gonna be fine.”

“He felt cold. Colda’ than one should be. I rememba’ everyone huddled around me and talkin’ and panickin’. My hands were shakin’. As soon as I touched him it felt like I was caked in his blood. My brotha’s blood. My brotha’s whose life was slowly dwindlin’ out from unda’ me.”

“But I focused. I focused through tha’ silent tears bubblin’ through my vision. I got tha’ bleedin’ down, I rememba’ that.. But.. It was too much. Daddy and everyone else knew I wasn’t able ta’ handle somethin’ this bad. As much as I tried. I wanted ta’ try. I had ta’ help my brotha’. I had ta’. But doin’ so wouldn’t involve me.. It’d involve us gettin’ him a fuckin’ real docta’ and not some backdoor nurse who’s still in college.”

“It was scary. I rememba’ keepin’ him stable. Keepin’ pressa’ and makin’ sure he wasn’t bleedin’ as much.. Keepin’ it down.. I rememba murmurin’ ta’ him. Everyone freakin’ out and talkin’ around me, makin’ phone calls.. It was muffled background ta’ me.. I just focused on his breathin’.. On speakin’ ta’ him.. I don’t think he could’a heard me.. But I still reassured him.. I talked to him.. Spilled about how much I loved him.. I spoke ta’ him like it was gonna be my last time fuckin’ doin it..”

“We got a ride ta’ tha’ hospital not too long afta’ that.. Took him in immediately thanks ta’ some strings and they began ta’ work on him as soon as he got through tha’ double doors. I rememba’ pacin’ tha’ waitin’ room.. I was still in my uniform. My apron was decorated in blood, still had some on my hands even.. I couldn’t sit down. My head was racin’.. I know daddy was tryin’ ta’ get me ta’ sit down and calm down. I was makin’ him even more nervous. Angel wasn’t there at tha’ time ta’ try and help calm me down, he wouldn’t find out about this till latta’.. But I couldn’t sit down. I had ta’ move. I had ta’.. I felt if I sat down my legs would permanently lock on themselves. My body was buzzing. My head was swimming. My heart was ready to burst.”

“Hours felt like fuckin’ days.. But.. He managed ta’ pull through.. I rememba’ I collapsed on the ground sobbin’ when I heard tha’ news. It was ugly, broken.. I remember my throat fuckin’ hurt and I felt ready ta’ cough up blood from how raw it felt..”

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