Hello dreamers and seekers! I'm Nike Monroe, writer(?), occasional artist, and CYOA lover. This is a blog for all my lovely musings both personal and writing related! Amberwood is on hiatus. Current project: Agents of Lucifer! [She/her pronouns, although it doesn't bother me} ^.^
Link to the Forum Thread for Agents of Lucifer and Direct Link to the Demo AND Direct Link to the OLD version of AoL No longer available as of now!
AoL Raziel/Lucifer Short Story (Canon): Not yet re-uploaded!
I made a Kofi! I... have no idea how to use it. Ignore this, as I'll be going to Patreon soon!
For ramblings, reblogs, and unrelated nonsense. And for my baby Monty. He deserves his own tag.
The Wall of Fame For Those Thirsty For Lucifer
Questions for Nike
Nike Doodles (for little doodles and bits I've done and posted)
Agents of Lucifer NSFW Asks
Fake RO Instagram Posts
More Under The Cut!
Lucifer Asks and Lucifer Aesthetics
Raziel Asks and Raziel Aesthetics
Eugene/Eugenia Asks (Gen's link currently has zero posts-) and Eugene/Eugenia Aesthetics
Andrei/Anya Asks and Andrei/Anya Aesthetics
Min-Jun/Ji Asks and Min-Jun/Ji Aesthetics
Maples Asks and Maples Aesthetics
General AoL RO Asks (Question for no single RO)
Agents of Lucifer ROs React to MC Asks (for questions specifically where ROs are asked for a reaction to a certain type of MC or MC doing something/MC in a situation)
Bug Reports (this will be for ALL projects and not separated by specific title/project)
Agents of Lucifer General Questions and AoL Shitposts
Agents of Lucifer Aesthetics (aka, inspiration I shared here from pinterest)
Nyx Asks and Nyx Aesthetics
Cassius Descartes Asks and Cassius Aesthetics
Ileana Dracul Asks and Ileana Aesthetics
Freya Halaema Glynneiros Asks and Freya Aesthetics
Astrid Cain Asks and Astrid Cain Aesthetics
Amberwood Theories (mostly about Nyx and what he is)
Amberwood NSFW Asks
Amberwood Fanart and Amberwood Shitposts
General Amberwood Questions
General Amberwood RO Asks (Question for no single RO)
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...I just felt like I should post something. Even if the post is basically a nothingburger. I'm trying to nudge myself back into writing since I pretty much stopped for, eh, maybe 2 weeks? So I guess you could say I took a break. Before then, I was doing it sporadically. The other day, I wrote so little that it discouraged me. My brain is completely incapable of coming up with ideas. Maybe it's stress . I've been consuming new media, which is always recommended when hitting a slump, but even still, nothing. Nada. It's a betrayal, honestly.
One day, I almost took down the wip entirely. My frustration with things and writing makes me want to chuck my laptop and pens and paper into the garbage and just give up on it entirely, you know? But even if I legitimately consider doing it, it feels unfair to those who have given their time to reading my work, pointing out errors and flaws and shortcomings. I'm fine throwing away years of work but... maybe not at the cost of essentially wasting your time.
To be fair, I barely do anything creative these days! I just don't have the heart for it. I still pop on to Tumblr and the forums though, because it makes me happy to see other authors and artists continue to put out human-made work, even if I'm stuck in waist-high mud.
Blah! I feel like I've failed. There's no other way to put it. I feel like, even if I keep trying to push myself, I've still wasted everyone's time. I wish this stuff came easy to me 😭. Maybe by now, I'd have dozens of projects out to show for all that time, regardless of their success.
Unless I explicitly say so, I promise you, it isn't abandoned. I know Book 1 isn't exactly finished! There's a lot I want/need to fix and adjust, the biggest thing being pronouns for everyone because, had I thought it sooner, I could have used multireplace, which would make the code look a little cleaner. And probably be easier for myself.
I've been working on Book 2 (inconsistently, mind you) because I genuinely want the draft done so I can get right into that once the first book is completed and all that. Is it weird? Nonsensical? Probably. But it is what makes me brain happy.
I...may need beta readers for book 2, though. And when I say beta, I mean beta. The draft so far has 76k words, despite there being an unfinished scene or two (because I got stuck). When I write, I choose not to write any branches and focus solely on writing it like it were a traditional book. It makes things far less daunting. So if I asked anyone to read it, this is what I mean by it being beta. It has no choices. I'm very worried about its pacing; I'm concerned there isn't enough happening to justify the length. It does have over 20 chapters but that's mostly because I'm trying to make them small wherever it makes sense.
I don't know how beta reading would work, honestly, as I have no means of sharing it. The most I could do is upload it onto CoGDemos and make it private, giving permission only to specific users or something. However, uh, this also requires a massive amount of trust, because obviously, no one who reads it would be allowed to share any of it. I mean, I couldn't stop them really, but it would devastate me if they did. Like it's fine to be really secretive about what you read in a "Dude, it was so ass but, hey, we can only go up from here!" way or "I stg this one moment had me messed up bro.". Maybe I'll just ask people I know. I dunno yet. 😭 That's future me's problem.
Sorry for the incoming spam 😭 I'm probably going to send a few more asks as I skim through.
Some of the chapters are really quite short, I think some could be combined together to make one chapter. Usually there would be multiple choices during each chapter but if a chapter is more just for exposition then combining them would be best imo.
Part of the ending does also feel very rushed and sometimes nonsensical. Why would the bad guy leave the hunter to be found after the fight in the forest? They have the hunter couldn't they take them hostage or something? That was another thing that stood out to me.
I wanna respond to this one- the other shall sit in my inbox so I can reference it!
I aimed for short chapters as a personal preference. I'm someone that often goes in with the goal of reading "at least one chapter" , as I personally get, uh, mentally tired?? when reading?? I don't know how to explain it. It makes the task of reading easier if I'm able to know a chapter is short or I discover it's short length. I think this is because I don't picture things in my head when reading. Meaning I can't. 😂 So unfortunately, reading is quite boring and tedious for me (which is why I prefer interactive stories but am trying to get back into reading more traditional. ...Even if the romance irks me.)
And uh. Ngl. I didn't even think about kidnapping the MC after the forest 🙃. But now that you've mentioned it- I'll keep it in mind. Although it would require some heavy rewriting. Perhaps a kidnap attempt?🤔
Maybe you can make a community where you have to invite others and we can communicate that way? 🤔 never used those so idk how private the private communities are but maybe it'll work? Something to think about.
And my wip is going great thanks for asking 🥹 sadly its a novel and not an IF. I did have a horror IF at one point but life changed and I had less time to dedicate to it. I did move some stuff over to the story tho so its been fun.
Hm. A future me concern- assuming I do genuinely seek out early beta readers from here. 😭 On one hand, it feels like a lot of trust. On the other, it's like "I've already put out the first book, oh my god".
I'm glad your projects are working out well! If you can/want to, you're welcome to PM me about the issues you had. I think I still have messages in my inbox about other issues that I'm just holding on to so I can reference and find them easily.
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Unless I explicitly say so, I promise you, it isn't abandoned. I know Book 1 isn't exactly finished! There's a lot I want/need to fix and adjust, the biggest thing being pronouns for everyone because, had I thought it sooner, I could have used multireplace, which would make the code look a little cleaner. And probably be easier for myself.
I've been working on Book 2 (inconsistently, mind you) because I genuinely want the draft done so I can get right into that once the first book is completed and all that. Is it weird? Nonsensical? Probably. But it is what makes me brain happy.
I...may need beta readers for book 2, though. And when I say beta, I mean beta. The draft so far has 76k words, despite there being an unfinished scene or two (because I got stuck). When I write, I choose not to write any branches and focus solely on writing it like it were a traditional book. It makes things far less daunting. So if I asked anyone to read it, this is what I mean by it being beta. It has no choices. I'm very worried about its pacing; I'm concerned there isn't enough happening to justify the length. It does have over 20 chapters but that's mostly because I'm trying to make them small wherever it makes sense.
I don't know how beta reading would work, honestly, as I have no means of sharing it. The most I could do is upload it onto CoGDemos and make it private, giving permission only to specific users or something. However, uh, this also requires a massive amount of trust, because obviously, no one who reads it would be allowed to share any of it. I mean, I couldn't stop them really, but it would devastate me if they did. Like it's fine to be really secretive about what you read in a "Dude, it was so ass but, hey, we can only go up from here!" way or "I stg this one moment had me messed up bro.". Maybe I'll just ask people I know. I dunno yet. 😭 That's future me's problem.
...I just felt like I should post something. Even if the post is basically a nothingburger. I'm trying to nudge myself back into writing since I pretty much stopped for, eh, maybe 2 weeks? So I guess you could say I took a break. Before then, I was doing it sporadically. The other day, I wrote so little that it discouraged me. My brain is completely incapable of coming up with ideas. Maybe it's stress . I've been consuming new media, which is always recommended when hitting a slump, but even still, nothing. Nada. It's a betrayal, honestly.
One day, I almost took down the wip entirely. My frustration with things and writing makes me want to chuck my laptop and pens and paper into the garbage and just give up on it entirely, you know? But even if I legitimately consider doing it, it feels unfair to those who have given their time to reading my work, pointing out errors and flaws and shortcomings. I'm fine throwing away years of work but... maybe not at the cost of essentially wasting your time.
To be fair, I barely do anything creative these days! I just don't have the heart for it. I still pop on to Tumblr and the forums though, because it makes me happy to see other authors and artists continue to put out human-made work, even if I'm stuck in waist-high mud.
Blah! I feel like I've failed. There's no other way to put it. I feel like, even if I keep trying to push myself, I've still wasted everyone's time. I wish this stuff came easy to me 😭. Maybe by now, I'd have dozens of projects out to show for all that time, regardless of their success.
Hello I VOLUNTEER. I'm anon because I mainly use a sideblog so I can't send asks from that account sadly :<
But its me. I sent an ask awhile ago asking if you wanted feedback for book 1 - which I love btw but there are a few pacing issues ans stuff that needs to be fleshed out imo. I just got distracted by writing my own story that has +35k words now and I haven't been able to get to AoL 💀 my bad.
I love to brainstorm with people and ask in-depth questions and I'm very thorough because I'm too curious 🥹 but I loved angels. And I love Lucifer and I'm do happy we got to kiss him so I'm happy to help if you don't mind.
Oh, please tell me where the pacing is an issue and stuff! That'd be most helpful.
I'm not sure how much you'll like the Angels after this, though. 😂
I wish group chats were a thing on Tumblr, if multiple people wanted to read the draft, because I so don't feel like making another Discord to use for IF purposes.
Unless I explicitly say so, I promise you, it isn't abandoned. I know Book 1 isn't exactly finished! There's a lot I want/need to fix and adjust, the biggest thing being pronouns for everyone because, had I thought it sooner, I could have used multireplace, which would make the code look a little cleaner. And probably be easier for myself.
I've been working on Book 2 (inconsistently, mind you) because I genuinely want the draft done so I can get right into that once the first book is completed and all that. Is it weird? Nonsensical? Probably. But it is what makes me brain happy.
I...may need beta readers for book 2, though. And when I say beta, I mean beta. The draft so far has 76k words, despite there being an unfinished scene or two (because I got stuck). When I write, I choose not to write any branches and focus solely on writing it like it were a traditional book. It makes things far less daunting. So if I asked anyone to read it, this is what I mean by it being beta. It has no choices. I'm very worried about its pacing; I'm concerned there isn't enough happening to justify the length. It does have over 20 chapters but that's mostly because I'm trying to make them small wherever it makes sense.
I don't know how beta reading would work, honestly, as I have no means of sharing it. The most I could do is upload it onto CoGDemos and make it private, giving permission only to specific users or something. However, uh, this also requires a massive amount of trust, because obviously, no one who reads it would be allowed to share any of it. I mean, I couldn't stop them really, but it would devastate me if they did. Like it's fine to be really secretive about what you read in a "Dude, it was so ass but, hey, we can only go up from here!" way or "I stg this one moment had me messed up bro.". Maybe I'll just ask people I know. I dunno yet. 😭 That's future me's problem.
...I just felt like I should post something. Even if the post is basically a nothingburger. I'm trying to nudge myself back into writing since I pretty much stopped for, eh, maybe 2 weeks? So I guess you could say I took a break. Before then, I was doing it sporadically. The other day, I wrote so little that it discouraged me. My brain is completely incapable of coming up with ideas. Maybe it's stress . I've been consuming new media, which is always recommended when hitting a slump, but even still, nothing. Nada. It's a betrayal, honestly.
One day, I almost took down the wip entirely. My frustration with things and writing makes me want to chuck my laptop and pens and paper into the garbage and just give up on it entirely, you know? But even if I legitimately consider doing it, it feels unfair to those who have given their time to reading my work, pointing out errors and flaws and shortcomings. I'm fine throwing away years of work but... maybe not at the cost of essentially wasting your time.
To be fair, I barely do anything creative these days! I just don't have the heart for it. I still pop on to Tumblr and the forums though, because it makes me happy to see other authors and artists continue to put out human-made work, even if I'm stuck in waist-high mud.
Blah! I feel like I've failed. There's no other way to put it. I feel like, even if I keep trying to push myself, I've still wasted everyone's time. I wish this stuff came easy to me 😭. Maybe by now, I'd have dozens of projects out to show for all that time, regardless of their success.
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...I just felt like I should post something. Even if the post is basically a nothingburger. I'm trying to nudge myself back into writing since I pretty much stopped for, eh, maybe 2 weeks? So I guess you could say I took a break. Before then, I was doing it sporadically. The other day, I wrote so little that it discouraged me. My brain is completely incapable of coming up with ideas. Maybe it's stress . I've been consuming new media, which is always recommended when hitting a slump, but even still, nothing. Nada. It's a betrayal, honestly.
One day, I almost took down the wip entirely. My frustration with things and writing makes me want to chuck my laptop and pens and paper into the garbage and just give up on it entirely, you know? But even if I legitimately consider doing it, it feels unfair to those who have given their time to reading my work, pointing out errors and flaws and shortcomings. I'm fine throwing away years of work but... maybe not at the cost of essentially wasting your time.
To be fair, I barely do anything creative these days! I just don't have the heart for it. I still pop on to Tumblr and the forums though, because it makes me happy to see other authors and artists continue to put out human-made work, even if I'm stuck in waist-high mud.
Blah! I feel like I've failed. There's no other way to put it. I feel like, even if I keep trying to push myself, I've still wasted everyone's time. I wish this stuff came easy to me 😭. Maybe by now, I'd have dozens of projects out to show for all that time, regardless of their success.
I just wanted to post again, since it's been a minute, although I don't have any updates. My personal situation has gotten to a point where I can't really write as I'd like? Depression is SO fun, guys! (That was sarcasm, I promise.)
I almost debated just putting everything I've written and thought of for everyone to see because I genuinely don't know when I'll be writing and uploading again. I'm scared it'll be, idk, like literal years. Which may be dramatic but it's a fear nonetheless. I have been writing to a point, then got stuck, tried other things, but none of it sticks. I don't know if it's the perfectionist talking or my god awful mental health. I just know that I don't really "feel" any of it. I think part of it comes from, real talk, the pressure I put on myself to make it "absolutely amazing because I've been gone and I'm not posting regularly like other authors so I gotta show up and prove I'm not a flake" or something like that. Does any of that make sense???
Anywho, if it comes to it, I will actually put it all out there and ya'll can do whatever you want with it. I'd probably put it on AO3 or somethin. Ideally, I DON'T do that and I have a ton of inspiration and everything going on right now smooths out and we're back to uploading with much wow and success.
Until then, the hiatus continues. I apologize. Thank you for following and sticking along this far.
I just wanted to post again, since it's been a minute, although I don't have any updates. My personal situation has gotten to a point where I can't really write as I'd like? Depression is SO fun, guys! (That was sarcasm, I promise.)
I almost debated just putting everything I've written and thought of for everyone to see because I genuinely don't know when I'll be writing and uploading again. I'm scared it'll be, idk, like literal years. Which may be dramatic but it's a fear nonetheless. I have been writing to a point, then got stuck, tried other things, but none of it sticks. I don't know if it's the perfectionist talking or my god awful mental health. I just know that I don't really "feel" any of it. I think part of it comes from, real talk, the pressure I put on myself to make it "absolutely amazing because I've been gone and I'm not posting regularly like other authors so I gotta show up and prove I'm not a flake" or something like that. Does any of that make sense???
Anywho, if it comes to it, I will actually put it all out there and ya'll can do whatever you want with it. I'd probably put it on AO3 or somethin. Ideally, I DON'T do that and I have a ton of inspiration and everything going on right now smooths out and we're back to uploading with much wow and success.
Until then, the hiatus continues. I apologize. Thank you for following and sticking along this far.
However you write is the right way to do it. There's tons of advice out there suggesting different ways to do the damn thing and each one claims they're the only way to be a writer. That's bullshit. Write. Congratulations, you're a writer.
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you can download current and past hi-res versions of these over at my ko-fi (ok to print for personal use): https://ko-fi.com/mxmorgan/shop/freedownloads
you can also snag shirts here which go to various orgs: https://mxmorgan.threadless.com/collections/pride
these get reposted a whole lot from here to reddit to twitter to tiktok and on and on, and i don't personally care whether or not i'm credited. i made these for everyone to use, enjoy, and find meaning in them. i appreciate folks who do credit me, but if able, please at least link to the threadless shop in the previous post - folks can get an official shirt where 90% of earnings go to trans led orgs focused on mental health (which is an important matter in general, but very personal to me) and not from a scam bot site selling AI-churned maga garbage where you probably won't get one anyway. i also suggest downloading the files from my ko-fi - they are free/PWYW and you can use them to make your own shirt, patch, embroidery project, whatever. tips are always nice, cuz i do like a pizza now and then, but never required for download.
final thought - breaking the pride tradition and more than likely won't make a new piece. the top one from TDOV is all i'm making this year. i have my focus on other projects currently and i don't want to force a poster design. these came from a specific head space and my current head space is Very Tired lmao so i wanna work on other things. 👍
if your response to, “I wish there was more sex repulsed asexual representation,” is to point out not all aces are sex repulsed, maybe first stop and ask yourself why you are doing that. We live in a society that’s constantly telling us we need to have sex and I’m so glad there are aces who aren’t bothered by that, but it doesn’t invalidate those of us that do not want to. This isn’t a competition, I want to see all kinds of aces, being upset with a lack of respect for sex repulsed aces doesn’t mean I think the rep that’s already there for sex positive aces should be changed. I am capable of wanting both, why aren’t you?
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