It is Impossible

I won't ever see him again.

But it hurts so much and I'm really afraid I wont ever be able to love someone else.

I literally had no self confidence.

And then came this one person.

I was constantly doubting myself. But he told me he wanted to be with me.

he wanted to spend time with me. I couldn't believe it. I started doubting him too.

He told me I'm pretty.

He told me...he needs my company.

He told me he liked my smile. It was a year ago since he noticed me, because my smile looks pretty to him.

He told me he wanted to go places with me.

He told me he wanted to hold my hands.

Because of him I started to like myself a bit.

I felt so happy to know that I was wanted.

I dont think he'll ever realize how much strength his simple compliments gave me.

But we parted in the end.

We believe in different Gods.

So this thing called "faith"... someday it will give me to someone other than him and it will give him to someone other than me.

I accepted it. Going separate ways is the best for the two of us.

It tears me down. I'm hurt by the thought of never seeing him again. But in the end, nothing better could be done.

It was brief.short lived.but gave me so much happiness. Everything was real. I miss him so much it hurts this very moment. But I wish him nothing but a lifetime of happiness.