Broken af
I needed a safe place to vent where real people can hear me. I am hurting. I am sad. I am angry. Most of all, I am just broken. My ex-husband (Pj Dickerson) left in November 2019. Separation lasted only 4 months and before I could blink our divorce was finalized and we were over. Back in October things started to change dramatically. I found that he wasn’t being faithful to me and as a result he was asked to leave our home. I offered forgiveness many times during our separation; instead, he chose to end our marriage. I hate who he has become and all that he's put me through.I hate myself for not seeing this coming, or ignoring the signs. The rejection has been almost unbearable. I sacrificed so much during our 9 years together. I sold things, lost things and time. I loved with all of my existence. I have such low self esteem after this experience and my worth has been devalued. Where do I go from here and how do I make myself stop obsessing over the loss and move on? This shit is crazy. How do you accept things when you can't understand them? I’m ruined.
