Chapter 6 Trial: Trauma Tango (#44)
“WHAT, you think you can tell me to TALK and I’ll just start TALKING?”
“I’m NOT some trained LAPDOG!”
“Your dog talks?!”
At least that distracted her from punching him.
“Perhaps you’re more in the mood to complain, then, Mister Tokino?”
“For working so closely with Miss Tanukihara, you certainly don’t seem very fond of her.”
“And what happened to death being the most disgusting thing in the world?”
“Right. That sentiment didn’t seem confined to any one...”
“...persona? Emotion?”
“How cómico you should mention both these things in one breath, my loves!”
“For they are very nearly the same.”
“Loathing your end and loathing the ‘master’?”
“My end? Tu plaisantes! You misunderstand.”
“We’d understand better if you stuck to one language, I think.” Though even that’s debatable.
“But can any sentiment truly be understood in this life? You’ve yet to comprehend even the simple ways of fickle emotion...”
“Though I’ve no reason to believe it will make a difference, I can tell you my woeful tale.”
Oh, your tale is woeful, is it?
“What should I fear of my end? A terrible process to ruminate upon—but ultimately only a moment’s pain. And after, no self remains to feel a thing.”
“It is those earlier ends that I can so despair of, for I will still be accursed enough to bear witness to them.”
“Earlier ends like what, dude? Kiddie school graduation?”
“Hardly.”
“It’s the deaths of others I loathe, you oaf. The less change in the world, the less beauty. It’s not difficult.”
“Then why on earth would you sponsor a killing game?!”
“Can the peasant children stop yelling? The grown-ups are talking.”
“...!”
“Well, the grown-up. Obviously none of you people qualify.”
“I’m fairly sure you’re not a legal adult, either, buster.”
Ichiriki just rolls his eyes.
“Since I can’t expect commoner trash like you to listen for long, I’ll put it briefly.”
“Indeed, your time is running quite short.”
Ichiriki doesn’t seem particularly threatened, but he switches to scaredy-cat mode anyway.
“I-I-I just don’t understand what it i-is that you peop-ple feel!”
“It’s n-not that I c-can’t understand read-d-ding about it, or a-anything like that...”
“B-but it’s all j-just from a d-d-distance, if that m-makes any sense?”
“It d-d-definitel-l-ly doesn’t! I’m sorry!”
“An understanding in theory but not in practice, I would guess.”
“Like, I don’t really practice my feelings, though?”
“I pr-practice a-all the time! F-fear...”
“...jo~y...”
“...RAGE...”
“...sorrow...”
“...love...”
“...hate.”
He drags his capelet back on with a sigh.
“Yet the only thing I can say I’ve truly felt is disgust.”
He shrugs. “I can’t help but wonder just what it is that you base types fuss over so much. All those things that are supposed to be what drives the arts.”
“And that was Kokoro’s proposal. That by living here with all your feelings stretched to the limit, by surrounding myself with death—the one thing so disgusting I’ll always feel some pang of it... Maybe I could finally understand.”
“....”
“.....”
“All a sad ruse, of course. But it seemed worth a shot.”
“Worth a shot?”
“All our suffering was WORTH A SHOT?!”
My blood is burning, but I force myself to breathe slower. If we all fly off the handle now, we won’t get the whole story. That’s the only reason he’s still here now, right?
“.....”
...Aside from that. We definitely won’t figure out how to neutralize Monochap if we’re busy working up a shouting match. I can’t do this yet. There’s plenty of time to get mad later.
“........”
I say that, but enough pressure is building in my chest that I might explode if I open my mouth again.
Breathe.
“What a truly horrendous way of thinking. You mortals sicken me.”
“Dude, don’t lump me in with him!”
“Like, I guess we’re both human or whatevs, but.”
“If one could even consider such a viewpoint ‘human’.”
“Oh, so I’m the bad guy just ‘cause I don’t feel things the same way you wimps do?”
“No? You’re the bad guy because you trapped over a dozen human beings and repeatedly subjected us to inhumane treatment in order to force us to kill each other??”
“For real.”
“.......” Deep breath. We’re just trying to get his story for now.
We’re not finished yet.
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