It was March 15, 2019 when I said yes to a commitment with a man named Mike. It was the easiest decision that I’ve made for myself so far. We’re so full of emotion that I cannot put into words how many butterflies I felt in my stomach. The feeling was indeed superb. I met mike in a dance group before, when our eyes met, I was stunned by his brown eyes. I do not believe at love at first sight, but since that day, I think I do. Everything was going so smooth and completely fine. I enjoyed the weekend hangouts at his house, we enjoyed every slice of pizza that we shared, as well as every movie that we both chuckled, cry and laugh at. I treasure those late night walks that are full of shared stories, those dates that we made at park. Enjoying the swing and running around like 5-year-old toddlers. But not until the day when Mike seems to control every move and things that I make. It was September 2019 when I felt that something is different. On September 13,2019 it was just a normal school day where I woke up at six in the morning, brushed my teeth, took a shower, chewed on granola bars and packed my school stuff. On that day that I opened my eyes and got up for school, I knew that there was something wrong. It was a normal day at school where my feelings and emotions were strange, and was not normal. I was daydreaming the whole math class, until the bell rang. It was a typical morning break were Mike used to wait for me at the canteen. But since I am not emotionally well that day, I refused to meet him. I texted him right away so he didn’t have to wait, I said “Cannot meet you, maybe later at lunch” he texted back in a few seconds saying “Sure, I’ll meet you there”. I was waiting for myself to feel a little better so that I could meet him at lunch. But to my disappointment, the bell rang again. Yes, It’s lunch and still I cannot help but to overthink. I texted him again and said, “I’m sorry, I cannot make it to lunch, maybe dismissal” he texted back, “Are you okay? You are acting a bit strange” I replied, “I am. I think I’ll have my period real soon, I am not feeling well.” Then he texted me back in a minute, “Do you want me to grab you some lunch? “ I replied so fast in a panicky manner “No, It’s fine, maybe I can meet you later”. I badly wanted to go home, I do not feel so good at that time. I easily get irritated, I find everything and everyone so annoying. I just want to spend the rest of the day on my bed with dash. And if you are wondering who is dash, he is my dog shaped stuffed toy that I cannot live without. Dash is a gift given by my grandparents on my 10th birthday. He’s been with me for 9 years now and I literally bring him during sleepovers or whenever I travel. They said I am too old for a toy, but I said that I am not too old for a best friend, right? I cannot sleep without hugging my dust full stuffed toy best friend. Anyways, it is 2:55 pm, five minutes more until I can finally get to go home. I was still undecided whether if I’ll meet mike or not. I am still skeptical. I forced myself to make a decision in a span of 30 seconds. Then I finally made my final judgement, I met I mike at the hallway, he attempted to hold my hand but I avoided it. He asked me right away, “Are you sure that you’re okay?” I replied, “Yes I am.” Then he offered, “ I can drive you home” then I refused, “ No, thanks. You don’t really have to” then he stuttered, “But..” I replied immediately, “No buts, I’ll see you tomorrow at the park near the subdivision at twelve noon, bye” then I left immediately and walked as fast as I could. He waved me goodbye and yelled “See you!”. I am finally home, I cannot describe into words how comforting it is to be finally home after a mentally and emotionally tiring day. I went upstairs and changed my clothes, then I laid on my bed and hugged dash. The moment I rested, millions of thoughts were bothering me. Why mike tried to control everything. From the clothes I wore, social media posts that I posted, to the people that interacted with, I could no longer talk to my guy friends either. And what I am worried about the most is that he controlled every decision that I made for myself. Little by little, I lost my passion. Right from the start, I knew that I had a passion in running a business. Maybe it is because I am a daughter of entrepreneurs, or maybe I just like the feeling of having money in my pocket. Kidding aside, almost everyone knew me as an independent person. My parents saw that at an early age of mine. I did not seek for help with my home works because I do believe in myself that I can do it without anyone by my side. I did not need my mom to assist me in baking cookies at the age of 9. And before I met mike, I ran my own business. It was a small business of mine where I sold personalized stuffs. The business was doing good, but I needed to stop. Because Mike demanded for time and attention as much as I did to my business. I did not really have any regrets till the day that I realized I lost a lot of the opportunities. It was the 14th of September at 12 noon when I was supposed to meet mike at the park. But this time, I stood up for myself and made a decision. I refused to meet him. Because every time that I face him, the harder it was for me to choose whether to stay in our relationship or live my independent life. I texted him instead, I said “I’m sorry, I cannot make it today, do not attempt to visit me because I am not ready to see you.” I am glad that he listened. As soon as he got home, I texted him this, “ Hello. I know it is a bit confusing, but let me get it straight. Few days ago, I had a thought, not a random one, but a serious one. I noticed that you managed to control everything that I do, from the way I dress, to the way I talk to people, you made me stop my business because you said that I did not have enough time for you as much as I did with my business ventures. Before I entertained you, you knew it yourself that I am not a typical girl. I am an independent young lady who has her own business and managed to make big decisions on her own. I do not know why I let these things to happen, but all I know is that I wanted to be a best version of myself. Remember the day that I told you that I do not want you to be a pilot because I am afraid that if something bad happens, I will lose you. You would have enrolled to your flying school this year but I refused to agree with your decisions. I am really sorry for that, I should’ve understand. Just like you, who wants to be a pilot, I also want to be an entrepreneur. I can see that it is not healthy for us to stay in this relationship with these kinds of differences. Know that I am grateful for all the things that we shared, and I believe that our relationship had a purpose. It made us realize that we are the pilot of our own planes. We have personal lives outside our relationship. It is not realistic that we think that the world only revolves around us. Thank you for making me appreciate of how independent I am, and of how successful I am prior our relationship. Surely, this lesson will stay with me for the rest of my life. Safe skies, Captain.” After I sent him a message, I blocked him on my social media accounts, I did not wait for is reply. Because I believe that it will be more painful for me if I read those. Fast forward of who I am now, and how far I became, I am now the CEO of our family’s company, and managing various businesses such as hotels and restaurants. Did I forget to tell you about our family business? It was just last 3 years when this company was offered to us, My parents and I gave it a go. And now, I am a CEO of an airline here in the Philippines. And I am engaged to a pilot who used to stop me on my businesses years ago. I am amazed on how destiny played its role in our relationship. Sometimes, we need to choose a path. A path that we think is best for us. Enjoy the moment and live with it, let destiny do its job.