I Don't Know Who I am Anymore

“Oh I know. We were once of those houses once when I was little, never again.” He chuckled “I once had a reindeer near knock me over.” He said. “Actually the whole reindeer sleigh. If I recall.” He thought back to when he was carrying presents home and the whole reindeer gang shot out playing Christmas music. Thankfully none of the presents broke. Elan would have been in real trouble. “I understand. I don’t think your the grinch or anything.” He laughed. “It can be frustrating but the end result well the Celebration part makes it worth it.” He said with a faint smile though for Elan it had been years since he felt a real Christmas.

“I suppose it’s because people always need something exciting to look forward to. Christmas is always enjoyable and there’s not really many Thanksgiving decorations for people to put up.”

“Yeah but I’m talking the super intense decorations...who can afford to do all that, only to take it down like a week later...it just seems like a lot of effort for one day out of the year, I don’t get it.”

“Because Christmas is fun!!”

“I get that it’s fun, has some religious significance and its a holiday for family...but the intense decorations and sweaters...its too much,”

I guess they want to keep some kind of holiday spirit year round.

I’m talking like animatronic Santas on sleighs with all of the reindeer...in their front lawn. So many lights on their house that the nasa satellite could pick it up from space...that is too intense

Not particularly. I guess people just like the energy and maybe to get the stress of if out of the way.“ He admitted a little softer. That was certainly the case for him but Elan had to admit he liked it. He preferred being sent out shopping and decorating earlier rather than the day before Christmas like they had done many times before. "It’s not all bad.”

“You do not like my music?” Navi asks, truly surprised a she lowers her ukulele down.

“Well when I come out here for peace and quiet, then no I don’t tend to enjoy music,”

“Well, I only wish to go about my life without causing harm to any others involved within it. I know the past, and I know the present, I do not know the future, and thus it concerns me.”

“You have a point,”

“You are totally being a grumpy gus. What’s wrong?”

“What the hell is a grumpy gus? And nothing’s wrong, I just come out here to think,”

“Perhaps so, but I believe all would find my country beautiful all the same. Well it seems we are of two different philosophies, I find myself concerned with the past as much as the present. The future only holds worry. But, your business is your business, should you prefer to live that way I hope it brings you peace.”

“The future only holds worry when you let it hold worry. It does bring me peace, my home was not good for me,”

“Very well, Sasha then. Well, Arendelle is indeed an exquisite place, though as its King I may be slightly biased. We specialise in trade mainly. Where might you be from?”

“As its king, you are more than slightly biased. A faraway place really not worth mentioning, it’s small and crass, the people were awful and are completely in my past and I have a motto that I don’t look back, I keep my past behind me and keep moving forward,”

“Please, think nothing of it. I am Elias Blanche of Arendelle, it is a pleasure to meet you Ms Sasha.”

“Please, just Sasha...Ms Sasha makes me feel really old and more important than I actually am. It’s a pleasure to meet you as well Elias...Arendelle, sounds really fancy,”

“Oh, I’m so sorry. I haven’t really figured out the whole walking thing,”

“The whole walking thing? Yeah, it’s a bit strange, isn’t it?”