So, here I am again ~
At the end of another journey, a chapter in my life I would’ve never chosen…
I left my old life in April of 2022, sad because I left my partner of over 10 years, and excited for my new freedom and to finally be on my own again after feeling stuck and caged for years.
One day after I moved into my new home, my new city, everything still in boxes and flying on a fangirl high because something amazing happened in my music world, one of my biggest fears turned into reality.
My mum called me and my sisters and told us she was diagnosed with cancer - breast, lungs and brain. It was so bad that we thought we had to plan a funeral in the next couple of months.
What followed was a long way through constant chemo, radiation therapy and fear. We got good news and she beat the crap out of this sickness until it was almost gone - but we knew it was borrowed time, and in October of this year, she lost the fight.
We buried her two months ago, and my life will forever be altered. It is divided into a life with and a life without her, and I still cannot believe she is gone. I had my birthday without her, and her birthday came in November, and soon it will be Christmas without her.
As this year is slowly coming to an end, these years full of suffering and pain will end, but so will the last year I had my mum in my life.
The only wish I have for the new year is to heal.
I will never not miss you, mama ♥︎
