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rpslayed (deejay & addy) i really hope you realize soon that your blog doesn’t help, you don’t help. you’re hurtful, i made a post hoping that you would read it and maybe we could try to talk it out like adults but no you kept answering questions about me when you knew how i felt about that, the amount of anxiety i’ve experienced tonight due to all of this and for what? to come on here to see people were joking about it? the worst part about this website (which I used to love so much) is you, and I’m not bullying here I’m being 100% brutally honest. 

I’m not the first person you bullied, and I won’t be the last. I just hope you realize that your words hurt. do i blame the bullies in this community for what happened? Yes. But it’s not all their fault, I’m a very isolated person, very depressed on top of it. Your complete disregard for my feelings is what almost sent me over the edge. You didn’t even ask me if it could have been a coincidence, you just did what you do best talked shit on your blog which you claim is supposed to be helpful, I’m so hurt after tonight and as much as I love roleplaying on twitter, the fact that i can’t join one rp without one of you in it says to me that maybe it’s not for me anymore. 

for the last time i didn’t steal your muse. I created that muse last year before we ever role played together, all of this could have been prevented if you acted like an adult and came to me about it instead of blasting me on your tumblr when you knew how i felt about that, i practically begged you and your friend to stop the first time you did but only after you got bored, this time i asked and begged again and you kept going (hell you’re still going by making fun of me) you are the exact definition of a bully and i wish you could hurt like i am right now, because I am not okay, mentally I am broken inside, and i almost took my own life tonight, because of you and your friend who don’t know when to stop, when enough is enough. 

im not apologizing to you this time, i apologized so many times for what happened with our plot (SO. MANY. TIMES) i felt so bad i was sick about it, but i did nothing wrong this time, i had no idea who was running highcrests and if i had known i never would have joined. You completely assumed that i stole your muse, and used that as a way to talk shit about me on your blog.

 I’ve expressed to so many people that roleplay is my escape, my life. the reason why i ask not to be mentioned in your blog is because you can easily ruin (and you did) my reputation because for some reason people actually listen to you, and send you asks? i don’t know why and i’ll never understand why they feed into the constant drama you and your friends start in the rpt/rpc community by insulting people’s roleplay’s and trying to turn the whole community against one person. You are the toxic person, you are the manipulator, and you are the emotional abuser. you’re a bully. We could have talked about this, solved it. but no, you took it way too far. 

To the people who reached out to me, i thank you from the bottom of my heart. You helped me tonight, this could have ended so differently but it didn’t. If anyone wants my discord i’ll be more than happy to give it to you but for now I’m signing off, no more twitter roleplay for me. maybe I’ll come back someday but i highly doubt it, as long as there’s people like this (who make fun of someone in pain and at their last rope) i have no interest in being associated with them. this community is toxic, and i might have made mistakes in the past but i do not deserve this treatment (nobody does) not even you Deejay and Addy. I figured since you continue to blast my name on your blog, i can call you out on mine. 

hello yes this is ashley, i just wanted to say a few things. im not going to say anything mean about addy or deejay bc im not that kind of person, but they are bullies. On October 18th 2018 addy trashed me on her blog, i asked her to stop bc it was giving me anxiety, i also asked deejay to stop talking about me on her blog bc that was also giving me anxiety. I suffer from severe anxiety and have a major depression, i literally begged these girls to stop but they didn’t. i almost committed suicide that night and im on the edge right now, so close to ending it, all because what? two girls on the internet? yup. because cyber bullying exists it’s a thing and people actually take their lives because of it. roleplaying is literally my life, i use it as a coping skill to escape from mine, i picked it up at a very dark time in my life where if i hadn’t i probably would have killed myself a long time ago. i’ve apologized so many times for making people uncomfortable and i will still apologize. if i ever have in the community with any of my characters PLEASE come to me, i am not an evil person i promise, i take full responsibility for my actions with my past characters, but please, PLEASE do not shun me from the community, rp isn’t just a hobby for me, it’s my life. and i ask deejay and addy PLEASE stop mentioning my name and talking about me on your blogs, im sorry that you thought i stole your muse deejay but i promise you and i swear on my mothers life that i didn’t. 

I created the muse “austin baxter” last summer, i used her in another rp with an alissa violet fc. this was before i started using kendall as an fc. i had no idea you had a muse named austyn or that it was a kendall fc, it was a coincidence you don’t have to believe me but i wish you would have heart enough to stop trashing me on your rpt blog 

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