well, it's a bit of a long story, but if you'll permit my musing, i will tell you.
i've always had a connection to infection, i think. honestly, it was just a matter of which aspect claimed me first. in the end, the swarms are what made their home with me. though perhaps others will join us someday, but i digress.
as a child i was terrified of most insects. the way they looked, the way they moved. the way a colony of ants would swarm the sidewalk - a dark, roiling mass of bodies moving in tandem. it was a visceral fear - one that, if i thought about it too long, would cause me to feel phantom bugs dancing on my skin. ants crawling up my legs, mosquitoes piercing my flesh to consume me, wasps buzzing about my ears. as a result, i slowly stopped spending my time outside. not that it truly protected me.
as i grew older, that terror dulled to fear, then apprehension. i believe a zoology class is what truly sparked the change in my perspective. i became fascinated by the miniscule workings of each beautiful creature, how they came to be, how intelligent they really are. i could still feel my skin crawl whenever i looked at the things, but i no longer cared. did you know there are several species of worms that hatch and spend their larval stage in the digestive tract of dogs and cats, then grow to maturity inside a human's body? or that ants count their steps when traveling? or that botflies use mosquitoes to plant their eggs in human flesh?
the moment the hive finally touched me, i was in my garden. it was a small thing, only a few square feet, but it was enough. i had intended to plant some common vegetables, but before i could do so, i heard it. their song. their cries of home infested my mind, and what could i do but to listen?
now, i am a part of something greater. i am a protector. and really, what greater purpose is there, than to give your life, your very existence, to the ones you love?