Eleos

I tell them about violence.

I tell them about abandonment.

I’m sorry I thought that’s what love was.

Love is never what you want it to be anyways.

It could be love,

or it could be worse.”

If you ever touch me again

I will turn your ribs into wings

and rip out the heart you took from me

until you’re cold to the touch

and can’t catch your breath

from the haunting images

filling your brain

and your remains aren’t savored

by the bugs and birds eating away

at your worthless shell.

I hope you are forgotten.

frozen spinach quiche.

it’s a weirdly cold sunny day in florida.

i’ve been building ant hills for ants. their last home got ruined by the storm the previous night.

my feet can’t even touch the ground and i’m in an ugly sweat suit, but i’ve never felt happier.

i eat these at the kitchen table as my mom cleans the kitchen.

i smell the heat of the oven.

i am a little girl, and i will forever mourn the future she could’ve had.

she had no idea what would happen, only that the quiche is yummy and warm, and that was enough for me.

i wish i had a second chance at being a little girl.

i didn’t feel as though i had to move mountains to be loved.

i didn’t feel empty. my belly was full of warm spinach quiche.

You took my pulsating life.

Please

Please just give me something to hold on to

Please

More than you ever did.

I cared very much.

I had never been in love before.

I don’t know if I ever will again.

but I will consume my hands

before I ever reach for you again