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i'm just here to ask for advice, really.

i think i'm autistic and with the support of people in my life, i'm getting an evaluation in april.

i have to ask you all though, does it ever get better? will people ever stop acting like i'm weird and an inconvenience for my sensory issues? will they ever stop being irritated by how bothered i get when they yell? or how gullible i am, or how i can't keep up with conversations, or change the subject... i mean really, do people ever learn how to.... get it?

will getting a diagnosis make people understand why i am the way i am and be nicer about it? or will i just be infantilized and stereotyped?

for a long time, despite a couple people telling me otherwise, i never believed there was any way i had autism. i blamed it on all types of things, mental illnesses and stuff, which my therapist said i had... but what if it was all just autism? i mean there's so much overlap. idk.

i also can't help but be afraid that i'm faking it and there's nothing abnormal about me but at the same time like there's no way i'm not autistic ???? man i don't know. i'm also an afab woman so .... that makes this whole thing harder i think.