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 Here i am again, wandering and contemplating about myself so i decided to open my blog again. I read through my old posts and weirdly enough, i haven’t really changed that much when it comes to my approach on love and relationships. It’s 2018, im turning 24 soon and i am still the hopeless romantic that i was like from years back. So it got me thinking, what is wrong with me. Why can’t i never be good enough for someone. What is it that i keep looking for but is nowhere to be found.

Recently, i had an argument with a guy I’ve been dating. Even tho i was drunk, some of the things he said got stuck in my head and made me question my being. He said that I am just good for fun and games but will never be a wife material. He said i need to bring something to his life more than just the superficial looks. I then ask myself, is he right? What can i bring to the table? I mean, I can do household chores, I may be jobless atm as i just finished my degree but i sure have ambitions on pursuing my career, I am fun and easy going, I have a good personality as told by my exes, i am not a drama queen and i respect and give them freedom to do their own business.. What else do i have to be in order to be seen as wife material? So i asked Google and read some blogs about what guys perceive..

She is loyal - okay this part i totally understand i fail because from the beginning he knows that i have other fubu’s which is not really an ideal way when you want to build a serious relationship but i am willing to disregard the others if i know that i have to behave and the relationship is going to be exclusive

She is kind - i am very kind and friendly to everyone i meet regardless of who they are and where they’re from. Altho i can be slightly bitchy at times but often just as a joke and i never mean to hurt someone intentionally so yes i consider myself to be kind

She caters to his needs/is a helper- i try to be off help and cater to the needs of others. If the house needs cleaning i automatically and freely do it. Altho it’s debatable since i have to be comfortable first or else i might make a mistake of doing something which my help would be seen otherwise.

She’s mature - some say i am matured for my age when it comes to certain discussions and the way i hold a conversation, altho of course i it depends on the topic since when it comes to talking about emotional stuff i sometimes cringe and avoid it.. but im aware i still have alot to learn about life and im very open minded on new things. Meanwhile, when it comes to looking matured, i dress accordingly depending on how i feel and where i go 

She is vulnerable and can be herself- i know i have a lot of issues and everyone has their walls up the first time but it’s a process to take the guards down and i am willing to share my stories as time goes by and trust builds. Altho my attitude and personality is always transparent and i expect my partner to do the same and never change himself just to please me because it’s great to be comfortable around each other and just being free. I think this is very important in order to build trust in one another.. but to be able to open to someone, both should listen without judgement and share without fear

She isn’t afraid to speak her mind- well i definitely am not afraid to speak my mind, im pretty much frank and upfront on everything especially on my opinions tho maybe sometimes i should put a break on my tongue lol

Those are some of the things that makes a woman a Wife Material but there’s a very interesting thought ill leave here..

“if you have a long list of things that you’d like to change about your partner, he’s probably not the one you want to marry. Please, please hear me on this: you cannot change another person. You can change your attitude toward him/her and his/her flaws, but if you can’t get past certain things, it’s time to move on.”

Dear Diary,

So i was alone wandering in the mall, feeling just like a normal day. It was rush hour and people were coming from all directions walking briskly. I was on the way to a store, until HE and SHE walked past me.

HE, the guy that i have been seeing for a year and a half and yet we really don’t know what we are. He, who knows me very well and my deepest darkest secrets. He who accepted me and liked me despite of the things he knew and heard. He, who i also have feelings towards with but never really told him. He, who has been my main intimate partner all year round. He, who made me stop dating other people and settle because there is he. He who bothers me alot and makes me laugh at the same time. He who i can be myself with around.

And and i saw HE with SHE..

SHE... the mystery girl ive been wanting to see. She, the one he sleeps with every night. She, the reason why i havent stepped foot in his place for months. She, the reason we cannot be seen outdoors anymore. She, the one who gives him the love i cant give. She, the one he gets to experience beautiful things with. She, the one who makes him happy.

Dear diary,

Here i am, laying down on my bed in a rainy afternoon, watching chick flicks and contemplating about life. stalking over my ex lovers’ profiles and seeing how happy they are with their new found love. it got me thinking, why has it never been me? what is wrong with me?

guys always tell me, im cool and open minded, and they love it. That im not dramatic like 90% of the girls. That if i ever have a boyfriend i would let him do what he wants and still give him freedom. Although it sounds like im the perfect girlfriend for that matter, the result is otherwise. Somehow they end-up with the sweet girls type and suddenly gives up the freedom that they always wanted. Somehow i’m just the person they can talk about everything and yet doesnt want to be with. That girl who is always welcoming them when they get bored or need to rethink about their current relationships. Im that girl who they talk to when they say they are not sure if they did the right decision. And I’m also that girl who is a sucker for saying no and still open arms when they need someone.

I thought being understanding is a good thing. But i think its an understatement. Sure they love hanging out with me me, they love that i dont give them dramas and hassles and just have fun. They love my personality and looks. But they never love me deeply enough to be emotionally connected. Never going to love me enough to be the other half.

Which kept me thinking, what is wrong with me? How can i actually be a girlfriend material and not just a fuck buddy? Who says pretty girls cant be friendzoned too?! LOL. i think this is KARMA killing me. I have been too confident about myself and too experienced with reality and been used to always getting what/who i want. Too confident on having guys chasing me and yet, this one insecurity breaks it all.. I can never be good enough.

Love hasnt been and is still not in my favor. I have never been in a real and long-term relationship. 

Why do i even put myself in this situation? Sure, I have guys wanting to be in a relationship with me but i always push them away cuz i think i cant love them as much and i am not worthy of them. That they should shower their love on someone else’s who wont break their heart. 

But im also this girl who i would gladly be in a relationship with these guys who doesnt like me as much cuz in their eyes i cant be their partner. Just a friend.

We humans have this bad habit of wanting things we cannot have, and its a terrible and exhausting habit. Why cant we just embrace whats in front of us instead of yearning and wishing for something near impossible.

Whenever i talk to my friends about relationships and marriage, somehow they are as hopeless as i am when it comes to my lovelife. I may act cool and careless about it but damn, It hurts alot to think that ill be the last one to get married or i will grow old single and that it is not a surprise for people. Deep inside me i want to experience those love i see in the movies, or online. when people brag and post alot of cheesy stuff about their relationships. Deep inside, i wanna feel loved and be loved. I dont want to be seen as the carefree me who just goes out and have fun all night and never wants anything serious. I want to be able to grow and share experiences with someone. 

But the truth about being single for too long, even if prince charming is right infont of you, you wont notice it because you’re busy looking for much more. Like being a perfectionist. You’ll pin-point the flaws rather than appreciate what they are. You will tell your mind and body that this cant get too serious and that someone out there is better. Yes, alot of people out there is better one over the other. Like someone will always be better than you. But its not a battle of who’s better or not, its appreciating someone for who they are and loving someone truly. Right?

Why are all of our past relationships so messed up? Why are all of our current relationships messed up, too? Why are we always staying when we know it’s so, so wrong?

Why do we say we want one thing and never act on it?

Whenever I think about relationships, a quote from one of my favorite movies comes to mind:

“I’d rather be miserable with you than without you.”

The heroine of the film makes the decision to accept a lifestyle she doesn’t believe in to end up with the man she’s in love with. As the saying goes, where you invest your love, you invest your life.

She concludes she would rather live a life she hates than be equally as downtrodden living a life of her choosing, but alone.

We revel in the misery, don’t we? Go on. Admit it. We all do it. We all enjoy festering in the piercing abyss.

Sometimes it feels good to feel sh*tty.

When it comes to our hearts, we never think in the long term. We don’t want to think about the future when the present is so consuming.

We stay in toxic relationships because we’re so afraid to put ourselves out there for something good.

We stay with the familiar because it’s simpler than looking for something new.

It’s easier to accept bad things that are familiar than good things that are new. Can we even recognize what’s actually GOOD anymore?

We hold on because we’re addicted to the codependent dynamic. We feel like we need someone to feed off like bloodthirsty spiders.

We feel like we need someone to be there, no matter how awful the person may be. We don’t want our corner to be empty.

We put up with the sh*t in relationships because we’d rather avoid building something, fixing something or changing anything at all.

Misery loves company.

Life seems less scary when you aren’t alone. We think we’d be even more despondent if we were single. Being in a couple is comforting.

It means you aren’t lonely… or at least you aren’t supposed to be.

We want someone to be as miserable as we are to share in our dissatisfaction. Sadness is a lot more fulfilling when there is someone to join us.

It has more depth, more substance. We want someone to complain to and someone to complain about.

We don’t want to sleep alone, and we don’t really want to be happy. So we stay with a person who adds to our need for self-pity.

It’s better to have fights than to have no one to talk to.

When you argue all the time, it’s exhausting and exciting all at once.

It feels good to fight for something, even when you’re fighting more than you’re talking.

We’d rather focus our energy into arguing than we would into dating.

The prospect of having no one to talk to at all makes fighting seem like a superior alternative.

We don’t want to go through the pain of losing someone again.

The truth is breaking up hurts so f*cking much. We’d rather stay in something that doesn’t satisfy us and then have to leave it and be heartbroken.

We’d rather have something damaged than have nothing. Every single time we break up, we swear this is the last time.

We promise ourselves we’ll never do this to ourselves again.

We say we’re finished making stupid mistakes, yet we always subject ourselves to them again. It just gets scarier and scarier every time.

Once we let someone in, we latch on.

We are all guarded. Letting someone in is exceedingly difficult, and we’re undeniably skeptical every time we agree to embark on a new journey of “love.”

Once we DO allow ourselves to get attached, we hang on with everything we have. We’ve already invested so much time in this relationship.

We’ve already pushed ourselves so far from the realms of comfort we were once so acquainted with as singletons.

To go back to that feels like a huge waste of time. We can’t give up. We can’t be quitters.

We’re great at giving advice but terrible at taking it.

We don’t know when the f*ck to walk away. We’re great at making excuses for staying in something that is stifling.

It’s so easy to give our friends dating advice when we can see their relationship from the outside. In fact, we give some of the best advice out there.

When it comes to our own romantic endeavors, we can never see outside of ourselves. We think with our emotions, rather than logic.

We can say we know something is wrong until we’re blue in the face, yet we still cling on for dear life.

We tend to hope the relationship will be what we want instead of what it is.

We trick ourselves into thinking we have something better than we do. We don’t acknowledge and accept what’s right in front of us.

Instead, we choose to ignore the red flags and continue on in our romances as if nothing were wrong.

No matter how many times our SO does us dirty, we just look the other way and decide we’re going to stay in the relationship.

It’s hope that drives us, the hope that he or she will change and be what we so desperately want him or her to be. We have so much faith that we end up losing ourselves to delusion.

We don’t know how to communicate.

We’re afraid to ask for what we want out of love because we’re afraid we’ll scare away the guy if we dare to speak up. If we make demands of our partner, we’ll end up alone.

So, instead we grin and bear it, only to become more and more discontent in our relationships.

As we become exponentially unhappier, we become more silent.

It may sound silly to a guy, but sometimes a girl needs to be told she’s special every single day or maybe she just doesn’t want to come second to everything else in a man’s life.

We don’t know how to ask for that without sounding crazy. We deserve to be treated beautifully, and, yet we settle for “barely okay.”

We just continue to tell ourselves things will get better — and if they don’t, hey, it beats being alone.

I’m not hooked on drugs or alcohol, but I am drawn to something I believe is just as dangerous: I’m addicted to giving unworthy men priority roles in my life.

They’re bad at communicating? Oh yeah, I’m on the fast track to loving them.

They rarely publicly show they’re interested in me? I’m swooning.

They ignore me for hours? My heart just skipped a beat.

They aren’t ready to commit? Let’s definitely sleep together repeatedly.

They’re emotionally broken? I want you to meet my parents.

I’m not addicted to your typical run-of-the-mill assh*le, though. (Those guys are just unbearable from the very beginning and are obviously not worth the time.)

I’m more into mind games. I’m into the guys you give your all to because you think you have a chance with them.

After you’ve already fallen for them, you realize you don’t have a chance in hell of ever having a healthy relationship with them. But, it’s too late.

You’re invested, and you better buckle up. You’re in for a rough ride that won’t be coming to an end anytime soon.

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.”

Everyone has heard this Mark Twain quote. You’ve heard this quote; learn from this quote.

Usually, your friends tell you this quote as they watch you get upset over the same guy who’s done the same thing he’s done before. It’s the same thing he’ll continue to do as long as you allow it.

You nod as they tell you because you understand what they’re saying. You’re just choosing to ignore it.

Of course you shouldn’t make someone your priority if you don’t hold the same significance his life. You know that.

And he’s right. You aren’t his priority, and you know that, too. You wouldn’t constantly feel this way if you were.

But then you talk to him. He makes you laugh, and he’s charming. He has an excuse for his questionable behavior and suddenly you seem like a priority in his life.

Other people aren’t there all of the time to understand how much he values you.

His behavior may make him seem a bit like an assh*le to outsiders, but you know he’s just complicated.

He calls you when he’s stressed; he checks on you when he knows you have a busy week coming up.

You tell him about your day, you make each other laugh and you “get” each other.

His friends know who you are; they like and approve of you. These are obvious signs he cares and wants to be with you, right? No.

How about when you see him at a party, and he barely acknowledges you? Later on, he’ll say it was because he was busy catching up with people and hardly saw you all night long.

You were the one he couldn’t find. He won’t answer your texts or calls all day, but he’ll post on social media. He blames his inability to see you on work, school and previous commitments.

He sleeps with you when it’s convenient for him and him only.

He shuts down when you try to talk about where you two are headed.

When he senses you’re almost at your breaking point, he’ll reel himself back in, have an outburst of emotion and tell you how much you mean to him.

He’ll tell you he wants to spend time together, just the two of you. Maybe it’ll actually happen.

It’s a rarity that will mistakenly draw you away from that breaking point that could’ve actually provided you with freedom. Maybe it never happens. But it’ll happen next week, right? Right.

You wouldn’t have stayed around this long if you weren’t a priority for him.

You aren’t a weak girl, and you aren’t stupid. You know your worth, and you know he knows it, too.

Except, he doesn’t know your worth. And you aren’t a stupid or weak girl, but you’re acting like one.

So, wake the f*ck up. You’ve bypassed the stage of “talking,” along with the possibility of having a healthy relationship. You’ve now entered completely new territory.

You’re becoming an addict, too. You’re being strung along. He’ll give you a little here and there to keep you close, but he’ll never commit the way you want, need or deserve.

Maybe he genuinely doesn’t realize he’s doing it. He isn’t intentionally setting out to hurt you and doesn’t realize how much damage this “relationship” is doing to you.

It’s just inherently how he is when it comes to girls.

And that’s what’s so dangerous about the addiction. If he’s never outright an intentional assh*le, you can never fully explain why you’re constantly so unhappy with the way things are going.

You just know you are. But, you don’t want to walk away now because it’s not all bad. Maybe he’s just about to turn a corner, and things really will improve.

They won’t.

You’re romanticizing about a relationship that will never happen, and you shouldn’t justify waiting around for him to eventually change.

I woke up in the middle of the night last week, and the only thought on my mind was, “We accept the love we think we deserve.”

I do not think I deserve this love, so why have I been accepting it for so long?

It’s taken me 22 years to realize if somebody wants to be with me, he will be. There are no ifs, ands or buts about it. It’s literally that simple.

There should be no mind games, no false hope and no “limbo stage” between dating and friends.

I’m not a stupid or weak girl, but I’ve been acting like it.

And so, I’m stopping. I choose to not be an addict anymore, cold turkey.

I choose self-respect over the comfort of sometimes having someone there. And you should, too.

Recognize your self-worth and realize nobody deserves to become someone’s relationship security blanket and be fed false hope.

You can no longer continue to allow yourself to be there for someone who is only there for you when it suits him.

Acknowledge you’ve allowed him to fill a large role in your life, and you hold little in his.

Getting attention from someone you care about is a huge confidence booster, but when you constantly feel so uneasy about where you stand with him, you aren’t being confident.

Be strong enough to break the pattern, walk away and realize you deserve more than that.

Dear Nice Guy I Let Go,

I know I disappointed you.

We had a connection. You complimented my brain more than my body. You spoke in articulated and calculated sentences, just like me.

You were a kindred spirit, one who’d already taken the chances that at the time, I’d only dreamt about.

But you weren’t perfect, and neither was I. You made plans and broke them when I was almost done getting ready. You changed your mind to revert back to initial plans after my makeup came off and sweatpants came on.

Things with us moved slowly — really slowly. Then suddenly, there was an escalation that left me with more questions than answers. I knew so much about you, as you did about me.

What you didn’t know is that I’d spent my entire life being kept at arm’s length. I feared we were heading down that path and just taking our time to get there.

I definitely wasn’t your girlfriend. We didn’t talk every day, and didn’t see each other often enough for me to think that.

You met a few of my friends who were important to me. They really liked you, and I watched as you fit right into our group of people from all walks of life and diverse backgrounds.

But I couldn’t do it anymore; We are not on the same pace. I am not ready to jump into any commitments. I have my walls up to protect me from being hurt and im still not ready to break it down.

You were special and important to me, but I couldn’t get any closer to having an “us”.

We were two nice, smart people who got together, but can’t end up together.

Our metaphorical hourglass had few grains of sand to spare, regardless of what might have been, had we addressed my concerns earlier. There’s no use playing “what if”; there are only lessons to learn.

maybe the spark just burned out. Our energy had been off for weeks by the time our flame extinguished entirely.

The fact that our flirtationship ended doesn’t make either of us a bad person or undesirable, and it doesn’t mean we should stop being nice.

We just didn’t work for each other.

The only regret I have was not giving you an explanation — not that I had one at the time. I didnt allow you to understand me because i also cannot understand myself. It was immature of me, but that doesn’t mean my feelings weren’t real and genuine. 

I always meant to tell you that I was sorry, but I was out of sync with the outside world at a time when it would have made sense to repair the damage.

You’d been a bewildered witness to a crime scene: a robbery of closure and the truth. Under any other circumstances, we would have been able to stay friends, to reconvene and salvage some groundwork beneath the rubble.

Sometimes, sh*t happens. It’s not a slight against you or me; it’s just that it didn’t work out, romantically or otherwise.

Wherever you are in the world, I hope you find something and someone who does work out for you. We both deserve it.

Wishing you the best,

In response to this article,  http://elitedaily.com/dating/an-open-letter-to-the-girl-who-let-the-nice-guy-go/589089/ , I have to say this: 

Dear Guy I Walked Out On,

You thought I was nice before when we were together, what changed? I need you to know something. I didn’t want to walk away from you because you were too nice. I want to walk away from you because I’m not IN-love with you. You were wonderful to me. You were kind, caring, patient, selfless, thoughtful, and you put my needs above your own. You taught me a lot about what real love looks like. You also unknowingly made me realize that I don’t want to settle just because someone is nice and treats me well. When I realized that I didn’t love you and wasn’t going to, wasn’t it “nice” of me to want to leave you as soon as I realized it instead of breaking your heart even worse? I would’ve left you even sooner, to keep it from hurting as much. You wanted me to stay as you’re healing and hoping for a possibility of being more than friends. So I hoped I would love you. It didn’t happen. So don’t do that to yourself. Don’t try to push a girl into staying when she is trying to be nice and leave for your sake. Not for hers. Because she’s fine with staying and being treated like a princess. But that would be wrong. That would be using you, which is something I dont want to do. So I have to set you free to heal and have the chance to be with another nice girl who will love you as much as you love her. Because that is what you deserve. You are so amazing and I still believe that. I want you to have the best in life, and that is not me. You deserve better than me, and that is not because I am not a nice girl, but it is because I don’t love you, and you deserve to be with someone who feels as passionately and deeply about you as you do them. You deserve that happiness. I would like to give you a chance at that is by stepping down and walking away.

I won’t ever forget you. You made such an impact in my life. It was all for a reason. I cherish our memories together and I know you do too. We had great times and you were a great friend. Sometimes friends come in and out of our lives and our paths cross for only a short season. We don’t always know why. But we do know that we can learn from each one of them and those experiences. You taught me not to settle for less than the best. You showed me that there are real men out there who DON’T play games, and that’s not what I want either. And yes, the goal for most of us is to ultimately settle. But that doesn’t mean that we have to “settle”. I don’t want to settle for “the guy that is nice and treats me like a princess.” I want someone that I have that chemistry and spark with. That person that I can’t live without, because I miss them after not being with them for 5 minutes. The person doesn’t make me feel like I’m settling, because they are the person who will go on life’s adventures with me, and we won’t settle. We won’t settle for less than encouraging each other to accomplish the dreams and goals that we share together. 99% of relationships fail and only 1% work out. I’m glad that you were a part of that 99% whose path crossed mine on the way to the one. You showed me that I won’t tolerate an a-hole or how he treats me. Because I’ve seen better. How a real man should treat a woman. I’ve learned that the way you treated me should be reciprocated and should be THE NORM in a relationship. I will not accept any less, and I will not give any less. I am worth too much and will not settle with some guy who treats me like crap just because I feel like I am damaged goods or maybe I do have a past that someone messed up. Just because I left you, does not mean I want conflict and hardship. I may date a few frogs along the way while, but as soon as my jerk alarm goes off, I will walk away from them, as well. I will stay nice when doing it. Staying nice when hurt is just a sign of maturity. I can do that too. I will be kind to you, and others who hurt me, no matter what. Because I am a nice girl. Maybe I make mistakes sometimes, but we all do. And we all have to learn. So thank you for teaching me some things. 

So nice guy, sending me this letter trying to scare me into thinking I should run back to you and settle with you because maybe there is no other “Mosby” out there, isn’t very nice. It’s not nice to yourself and it’s not nice to me. 

You deserve better than me coming back to you, only wishing I could love you when I can’t, and it’s not nice to scare me into thinking there is no one else out there. Because that’s silly. There are enough fish in the sea for you and me both. I will love you in the best way I know how, which is to walk away and give you your chance at true love. And I won’t settle for an asshole, you just wait and see.

Sincerely,

You shouldn’t love me because I am not as good of a person as everyone seems to think I am. I have a fickle heart and run from one extreme to the next. I am selfish and insecure and full of doubt. I am an emotional vampire and will drain you of all that is pure, but you will not realize it until you finally walk away. I am broken and the only one that can fix me is myself.

You cannot save me and you cannot be there for me just to prove you’re the exception. Because if you try, you will end up drowning in the process as I lean so heavily against you that you can no longer support yourself. I am telling you this because I love you and because I know you deserve better.

I realize I am different and I will enchant you with my attention. With my fun questions and nonstop compliments and at times I will be so happy that you will get high from my joy and laughter but I am telling you now that it will not last. I will switch and withdraw and you will do anything to make me smile and bring back the magic I possess when I am filled with happiness. I realize how addictive I am when I am light and airy and I will give you that as much as I can, until I am empty and have nothing left to offer. And I realize that without that bliss, I have no magic. I have nothing special within me. I will become so desperate and will cling to all that is giving and decent within you and I will use you to claw my way out of darkness again and again but it will leave me exhausted and leave you with bruises and scars from my desperate grasps. Those moments of magic are not worth the battles you will face with the hungrier parts of me.

I need you more than you need me, can you not see that? I will drag you down with me and you will not realize you are drowning by trying to save me until it is too late.

Love does not come with conditions, stipulations, or codes, Love is about giving. Love is a verb to be acted upon. Love is when you are vulnerable. Love is when you are comfortable around him/her and you cant be anybody but yourself. Love is when you share yourself, your dreams, your life, it's when you want your partner to be involved in everything that you do. Love is when you wait for him/her, no matter how long it is. Love is when s/he will never ask you to change who you are in order to be loved. Love is when you FULLY accepts your partner for who s/he is, But it's also love when you change yourself on your own decision because you know its for the better. Love is when you respect him/her as a person and respect his/her life goals and decisions. Love is when you become selfless and you think of your partner's sake more than your own. Love is when you are willing to do EVERYTHING to make him/her happy, even though it means not being with you. Love is when you care for your partner and has his/her back, no matter what the circumstances. Love is when you do things just to make her smile, no matter how ridiculous and embarrassing it is. Love is when you look into your partner's eyes and you see nothing but your future together. Love is when you want to be on his or her side, ALWAYS. Love is when you're willing to fly and cross the ocean for him/her. Love is something you'd fight for. Love is when you can imagine spending your whole life with him/her and growing old together. Love is when you see your partner standing beside you in front of the priest (marriage). Love is when you want to have a family and take care of kids together. Love is when you understand each other and communicate without speaking that only the two of you can understand. Love is when you know what s/he wants without even asking. Love is when you have seen the best and the worst of him/her but you still choose to be with him/her. Love is when your relationship doesn't revolve around sex. Love is when you will NEVER hurt him/her, emotionally and physically. Love is when you put God first and offer your life and love to Him.

"And they say that a man who puts his woman’s happiness first is very rare, and therefore is someone to be cherished." (disclaimer)

But being single for almost all my life is not a bad idea at all. We get the love we think we deserve and i believe my man is just somewhere out there and i will wait patiently until he comes into my life and by that time, i know everything will be worth it. I dont want to love any man, i want to love THE man :)

So here's my hopeless romantic side speaking since it's the love month. Happiness, bitterness, people have mixed emotions during Valentine's Day. But remember it's not only for couples, its all about different kinds of love, love for friends, family and everyone else.