Marionette In A Doll's Mind

Hello, hello everyone, coming out of comfy coffin to give (maybe) important information.

AWW (and another one of my work) has been hidden in AO3 for violation of terms (completely my fault). 7 days ago, I tried to edit it to remove the violation but maybe I missed some so AO3 peeps hid it now. I tried to appeal but not sure if it’ll go through in time because they said it’ll be deleted in 7 days.

Season 1: Evil

Season 2: screaming.mp4

Season 3: Not evil anymore, I want to be loved :(

Season 4: EVIL AGAIN

Season 5: “I didn’t know where else to go” *collapses at Baxter’s feet*

Andy apologizing to Thomas when Thomas offers to teach him how to read - I think this is one of the few honest apologies Thomas has ever received.

Master George gifting Thomas an orange after his attempt - I mean, how can you not love this?

Cora thanking Thomas for rescuing Edith from the fire (literally one of the only times the family genuinely thanked him).

Robert realizing that Thomas, after all, is just as a human being with feelings, emotions and pain as everyone else.

Phyllis being genuinely concerned for Thomas in S5 and constantly asking him if he's alright and not giving in, even though he shakes her questions off everytime.

Phyllis not asking questions about 'choose your own path' but instead instantly understands and takes him to the doctor right away.

Richard asking Thomas out for a date multiple times (in the ''swan on the lake' scene, in this deleted scene at the servant's table and after the prank, making sure, he knows where Thomas will show up).

These two absolute legends at Turtons who whistled after Thomas, trying to flirt with him (underrated queens).

The moment Phyllis realized that what Thomas meant with 'he hopes, Joseph would make more of his life than Thomas has ever made of his.'

Mary visiting Thomas after his attempt, asking him how he is doing.

Richard gifting Thomas the pendant and Thomas looking like he's in a dream - the first time I saw this man speechless.

Mrs. Hughes comforting Thomas in the pouring rain in S3 after he got fired and basically kicked out of the house.

Thomas standing up for himself when Carson called him 'revolted' and 'foul'.

Phyllis basically encouraging Thomas to go on a date with Richard.

Every Thomas + children interaction.

Thomas talking and comforting Edward Courtenay in S2.

Thomas asking Richard if they want to be friends... FRIENDS...

What I'm saying is that it is very much a choice that the minute Thomas was saying something that contradicted the "loyal servant" role the show likes to romanticize, the show undermined his opinion by making him especially mean, in a way that both the characters and more importantly the audience are left thinking more about how cruel he is rather than the fact that he did make a good point about how a servants life is essentially consumed by the family they serve. Maybe it isnt wrong to not want to share in the family's grief or even feel a need to.

On the one hand, he totally gets Thomas being attracted to men. Who doesn’t fool around with other chaps at school or in the trenches, come on now??? But eventually you grow up, get married to some nice girl, have children. That’s just how it’s done. So Robert simultaneously juggles confusion regarding Thomas’s inability to “get with the program,” so to speak.

Robert: look I get it, everyone’s a little bit gay

Thomas:

Robert: I kissed every single one of my classmates on the mouth at Eton. That doesn’t make ME gay.

Thomas:

Robert: