When your screams fall on deaf ears, how can you not become polarized?

A drop of water can decide if you live or die, and maybe she's not afraid of time- just aware of

time

Too sentimental, not materialistic- experiential, but not realistic

So, daydreaming became a force of a habit, just like you and me, and everything that happened

How can someone be so intertwined, yet so disconnected?

Unaffected, yet covered in blood and sweat and desperately so hopeful, wanting things to be better

a technicolor heart cursed with greyscale weather kisses couldn't mend her and her bruises just fed her,

Yet her apathy was not a surrender-rather a nihilistic salvation, an act of self preservation

Just like the moon has its phases, waxing and wading,

Torn in two pieces, cursed with a bittersweet nature

She tells him to leave when she wants him to stay,

my veins pumping nothings

my eyes dripping all over my lap

intoxicatingly sober, could never escape the trap

Stockholm syndrome is always pulling me back

if I could erase it I probably would

but these scars are forever

ugly in the mirror

so sometimes i like my mind better

a certain feeling in your soul

when you let everything else go

catharsis and release

it’s just me and me

i picked up my knife

cut so deep

committed pseudoside

Yet still, here I am,

Just plain old

feet turn purple

red and black

streaks on the window where

you were trying to get in

rain, rain,

go away

maybe if you weren’t so drunk

you would’ve realized I unlocked it for you,

waiting for something bad to happen

please

something I can hold

it’s here, this is why

you never understood

me,

You

Never really cared

we would cry ourselves to sleep

never asking why

it was so wrong to weep

dinner would me made

and god damnit you better eat

there’s children that are dying

so sit up in your seat

nobody ever told me

that i would want to kiss your body

so behind closed doors

I let you do with me what you wanted

this bed I’ve laid in

Since I’ve been 5 years old

is the only place