im okay, im fine, im happy , im okay , im still okay/// what do you mean im loosing my brain

Did I lose sense? did I fall to a empty lense, a layer of my realities all kept. Just to breath the words that keep me in my bed. I'm corrupted with love tucked in my deepest parts in my head. I gambled with love and I got the darkest feelings to ever be feed. But it's okay... White walls creep under me, the carpet seams to be the core of my feelings . I hold tight the agony of lost love,only to be 5 feet from me... I deserve the cold and confusion poking at my innocent chemistry of loving spiritually... Now I choose to fall . Fall and fall and fall and fall. Fall. To the point I laugh at my own life that has been lost ....

The world is around me I cannot feel it, I feel numb I still sense the type of fun but it doesn't seem like it's enough I