annesoph11

i dont care if anyone reads this I just need to type this out rn

My life is so much different than last time I updated yall omg. I have a new friend group which I love so so so so much and they make me feel accepted; it feels so nice to get a text from a group chat when I have not gotten one in forever. We actually call and hangout and I just feel so grateful for them. I also will have classes with them next year so i am so happy about that like so so so happy.

I have been getting into The 1975 more lately, as well as Phoebe Bridgers. I started listening to more of Harry Styles today also; my music change is def changing a lot now but I dont mind. But i have been listening to less of Lorde lately so I need to get back to that otherwise I might go crazy.

I am still 15, but I turn 16 soon. Getting my license sounds kind of scary but also ill be able to drive whenever I want so im happy. I will also be able to drive my new friends around so that is fun.

I have had 4 solos in band this year, and each time I wanted to throw up but honestly I am so glad I did them because now I dont get nervous for presentations anymore lol. I also bought a guitar, and I think I have been making good improvements since I got in in February. I am about half sure that this guy in my band likes me and he is so nice and sweet but I do not like him back and I kinda feel bad. Every time he texts me I feel like throwing up so I know that a relationship would not be good for me tho.

On that note I can feel myself developing a crush on one of my new friends and it is driving me crazy. Last time this happened was in middle school and when we eventually stopped being friends over time, it hurt me so much and idk why. I still think about them and feel a pit in my stomach because I was so stupid as a middle schooler and regret being so cringe omg. Whenever someone mentions my new crushes name I have to act normal but I feel like my feelings are starting to show, even tho I am usually good at hiding them. fuck i know this is going to hurt me so much but I cant stop myself anymore honestly. Also, my old crush (which I am pretty sure I only liked because he liked me) started snapping me again for the first time in a few months, but honestly I dont care. Like I see the notification and I just feel kind of weird. Last year I did go a little insane over it but we do not have to mention that.....

Also I realized that I actually do want to be a teacher. I want to teach history to high schoolers and hopefully enjoy it. I know that I am not going to be making a lot of money but I think it will be worth it to have a job that I enjoy rather than a job that I hate.

Lastlyyyy, I do not want this school year to end. I have made so many friends and this has actually been the best school year of my life. I might cry on the last day of school. Okay I just visualized what it is going to look like on the last day of school and I am definitely going to cry omfg. Like i know that I am coming back to school next year but I my life changes every single school year, and I do not want it to change. I think that I might actually love my life, and I actually mean it this time. I still have a week so I will try my best to enjoy while I still can. Okay I just thought about the last day of school and I am actually crying as I type this right now so maybe I need to prepare myself because I do not want to bawl in front of all of the boys in my band class oh hell naw. fuck it we ball

so sorry that I have not posted anything blogs lately, i lowk have been forgetting. but anyways, since my last blog I got a solo in band. it was sooo scary doing it, and i messed up one note but otherwise I think it went well. but i dont think i had ever been more nervous than in that moment. the whole week before winter break was so stressful omg. i had the solo, 3 tests and an ap euro midterm. i almost failed the midterm but i somehow still have a B+ in that class sooo. my grades have slipped a bit, especially biology.

enough about school, i hate the winter here so much. like out of everywhere why did my parents choose minnesota. i just miss seeing leaves on the trees when i went outside. now i see dull, gray, and barren ones. there were a few days where it was like 35 degrees, so i went on walks those days, but today its in the negatives. i just need to wait until may, then my life will get better.

the semester at school is almost over, that means im switching out of 2 classes, and into 2 english classes. I dont want to do english, but i mean i dont really have a choice so its fine. im gonna miss the people in my math class tho, i hope i can still like talk to them and stuff. anyways im happy to be switching out of my business class because i hate my fuckass teacher, but im also going to be missing the people in that class too.

okay sorry for not posting yesterday, so ill do a 2 day thing

so basically i dont remember much from yesterday lmao but i do remember that I had spirit band, or you guys might know it as pep band. so it is the band that plays at basketball and hockey game. so rehersal was fine, we just played a bunch of songs we did in marching band, i feel bad for the freshmen because they got all the high parts for some reason lmao, they also dont know how to play any of the songs lol.

okay but today nothings too much happened in school either, execpt for a fuckass debate in ap euro. i want to erase that from my mind it was so embarrasing i cant. im done. but besides that, i had band, and our songs are starting to sound better, its still hard to play some of them because the notes are really high but its okay lol. anyways, I went to this mexican supermarket today, and i got an aloe vera drink, so so good. also tacos, good aswell.

im not sure what to say now, not much else has been going on lately. im halfway through my stranger things season 2 rewatch, its going good, on ep 5 rn i think. oh i have some more to say

so i leave for texas next sunday, and i am so excited!! ugh i love texas. i go to south padre island, so i can go to the beach and see palm trees, which i love so much. anyways, ive been listening to solar power a lot lately, which makes sense because im starting to miss summer. but it was really nice out today, so i thought Oceanic Feeling would make me feel like spring, and it did, lol. ughhh i miss summer. my favorite few days is when the leaves are growing back on the trees, and you finally see green and not just gray and black. it still has not really snowed surprisingly here.

okay so probably a shorter one today, not too much going on

so today I had a math quiz, and i think i did good, it was not too bad. in intro to hospitality and tourism we had to do some sort of hotel simulation, which was a bit confusing but like overall not too bad again. in ap euro we are starting this project about enlightened rulers, it is boring but fine. we also got new seats, i sit next to this random guy, but almost directly behind Sam. I lowkey dont know if I still like him, like I of course still think he is cute but like, ik he does not like me. and ofc we didnt talk because we dont sit next to eachother, so i think i just need to try not to think about him as much.

but thats all for school, i dont have alot going on outside of school right now. i have my first spirit band practice tomorrow, so I think that will be nice because I get to see my friends from marching band again. Also, I got a fortune cookie at lunch today. it said that a party with my old friends is in the future, and my birthday was one of the lucky numbers. so i have like a lot of lore with my old friend group, which like we are still friends but we dont really talk too much anymore. so like lets hope that the fortune cookie is real, because i lowkey like need it rn.

im not really sure what else to write about today, i am watching stranger things rn, i am just finishing rewatching season 1, it good. im glad im rewatching it because i dont remember any of it lmao. but be prepared to see a lot of posts about stranger things from me, especially when i get to season 4. oh the nostalgia. i might kill myself when max gets possesed by vecna, she is my favorite character.

oh my god will just got saved. this fuckass song is playing in the backround. omg stop. i cant with this song. i dont know the title. ugh wtf, what is it with stanger things and having such good soundtracks.

northern lights from Minnesota today-first time seeing these

okkk so hey guys, some updates about my classes today

So in math, im in geometry by the way. we are doing something about cosines and sines and tangent whatever the fuck, and it is not too bad, but sometimes it is a bit confusing. in my second block, intro to hospitality and tourism, my teacher told us about like a thousand assignments that are due. like this is literally an intro class why are there so many goddamn assignments leave me alone. also some girls moved seats, so i had to sit somewhere else, but i still sit next to this senior, she is nice and funny so im fine with it lol. but the other girl at our table does not do like any work.. so i think im gonna sit at a different table tomorrow, but hopefully the senior sits next to me again. there is one guy who i think is cute, and he was looking at me a lot yesterday, but i found out he is a senior so. he also probably does not like me anyway lol. in ap euro we did a seminar, where we compared things happening in this book to real life, and it was nice to talk about politics with other people my age, a lot of them agreed with me on that so I really enjoyed that. we had a sub in biology today so we didnt really do anything, but i went to a college visit. the way it works for us is a counsellor from the college visits my high school, and students can sign up to visit. it was luther college in iowa, my mom went there so I thought it would be good to learn about it. it sounds like a good school, i can get a ton of money off my tuition if i maintain a 4.0, so thats nice. but they dont have the major i want, so i think iowa state is still my number one pick.

enough of school, basketball tryouts are this week, and i am happy that I quit. basketball was terrible for me mentally, especially the last year i did it. i miss it sometimes, sometimes i wish i did not quit. but i know that if i did do it, i would literally be in one of the worst mental states of my life currently, especially with winter approaching, thats what it was like last year. butttt i dont have to do that!! i still miss it, i have a bipolar relationship with it lol. oh i miss it. but like i dont. i miss my friends, but not my bitch teammates. i miss the high of getting a good block, but i dont miss the feeling of messing up. basketball fucked me up forever mentally omg. wth. is there something wrong with me like fr.

uhm anyways for the future of my account, i still think i will be posting blogs, i like posting these. less for people reading them and more as like a journal for me i guess. it would be nice if people read these too. anyways yeah, ive been posting some other random things too, like stanger things stuff. im watching it rn too, im still on season 1. oh to go back to 6th grade and listen to that kate bush song again. i would give anything. i miss 6th grade. omfg take me back please. i think i am going into a manic episode today guys please forgive me. i think ap euro might be stressing me out too much. but i was never stressed about school work in 6th grade. TAKE ME BACK OMFG I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE PLEASE. I AM BEING SO FUCKING DEADASS TAKE ME BACK PLEASE PLEASE. I WOULD DO ANYTHING PLEASE. okay i need to realize that time travel is not real, and that i will never be in middle school again. i will never be 11 pulling all nighters and listening to depressing music 24/7 ever again. I will never be in 6th grade english class ever again. I will never be friends with emily ever again. take me back. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE fuck my life

hey guys, some bigger updates today

So first things first, i saw my crush walking with some girl, ive never seen her before. but like lowkey i dont really care, is that crazy to say. like i feel like from the start I had a feeling that he probably does not like me back and today just like confirmed it. but im not mad or anything, or sad. just like neutral. i mean obv i wish he was not walking with girls because than i would have a chance, but whatever.

okay next, my new class started today, into to hospitality and tourism. its fine, i guess. my teacher seems funny. so he made everyone stand up by themselves, and say a fun fact. i said that i play trumpet and he started grilling me on it. he asked if i am good, and i was like yeah because i am first seat, then he asked if i wanted to do it in college, and i said that i didnt know. and he was like "well why dont you know" blah blah blah, like omfg. he was also like "well why do you play if you dont want to play in college" and im like, because I like it??? wtf. but the class seems fun, i sit next to all girls in different grade levels, so i hope they dont like hate me lol.

next, I have literally have so much fucking ap euro homework like its not funny. so much bruh. we have a seminar tomorrow, and i have not done the required questions yet.. im writing this instead lol. also i have a feeling i am gonna fail my next test, idk why.

also, the way lunch works at my school is that there is 1st-4th lunch, not divided by grade but divided by what your third block class is, so because my third block is ap euro, i have third lunch. but the problem is i literally do not know anyone in third lunch. like nobody, except the people in my ap euro class. and the one girl i was friends with moved away, and everyone else at that lunch table switched lunches, so i was left by myself. So I asked this girl who I am kinda friends with, and she said she did not think there were seats at her table, and i was like okay whatever. so i sat with this other girl from my ap euro and it was a bit akward but its fine. I think i might have found someone to sit with tomorrow but we will see.

hi guys, today I am doing my blog a bit early.

So today is sunday, and i went to lunch with my dad, and went to costco. We went to this mexican restaurant and it was good as always, but my fuckass dad made me order for him for some reason, to improve my public speaking skills, istg someone needs to take facebook away from him. and then we went to costco and got like batteries and diet coke and stuff. I drove, because i got my permit in july, and we listened to lorde the whole time because he let me have aux. but like other than that I have not done anything else today.

also, minnesota had our first snow of the season today. the first snow is always nice but i hate winter so after that, it becomes hell. especially in minnesota. ugh i just wish i lived in california or florida so i wouldnt have to worry about the fuckass weather. i actually think i have seasonal despression. but to me, nothing compares to the feeling in early may where you see the leaves grow back, it makes me so beyond happy like so so so happy. but thats not for another 6 months soooo.

I need to rant about the men in my life. starting with my brother, who is a year older than me. he literally is so so so annoying, he lacks spacial awareness and like does not care about anyone but himself. he always laughs so obnoxiously loud at tiktoks that arent even funny. he also eats every single thing in the entire house, the other week he ate an entire medium pizza from dominos for dinner, like what??? how does that even fit in his stomach. also my dad, the other night he must have had a bit to much to drink or something, and when i was trying to fall asleep, maybe at 11 pm i hear him laughing so fucking loud at his fuckass phone. like so so so loud that i can hear it from my room, and literally it went off and on for like 30 mins. like how are you so stupid you dont understand that there are other people in the fucking house and maybe they are trying to sleep!! also, my mom was out of state the past few days, so i had to take my dog out more and stuff, which is fine. but literally my dad and brother do nothing around the house, they dont walk the dog, they dont do any dishes, and they dont clean up after themselves, it is so weird.

okay whatever moving on, I start a new class tomorrow, Intro to Hospitality and Tourism. im kinda scared because i probably dont know anyone in that class, and also it is a new class so the teacher is probably shit. i am gonna miss marching band, smh. but also, in ap euro, the class where i sit next to my crush, he was supposed to switch out at the end of the term but they fixed his schedule, so i dont think he is switching anymore! thats nice.

also i want to rant about this dream i had the other day. so basically i was in my room with the football guy who is in the grade above me. and we like kissed. it was lowkey weird because i have never talked to him before, but i think he knows me because we had spanish together last year. but like, i dont like him i dont think. idk i just wanted to say that. i hope my crush still talks to me tomorrow, if we get new seats.

Hey yall, im back for my second blog.

So today is saturday, and i am listening to lorde again, this time it is melodrama. Homemade dynamite is playing rn, my favorite part is when she says "we'll end up pained on the road, red and chrome, all the broken glass sparkling." she always talked about cars a lot and the graphic imaging with this one just stands out for some reason. But anyways, yesterday I listened to Virgin on my walk, and Virgin is lit the perfect album for that. I never truly understood it until I was in iowa, over fall break, riding around the Polaris Ranger around the farm and listening to it. Current Affairs and Shapeshifter really spoke to me then. Unfortunatly I saw lorde a week before I had this realization so I did miss out, and i seriously regret it everyday. I always think back on how lucky I was to be able to experience that, but I wish I could have understood her songs more. But I really did not do much today, I went to HyVee and got some claw clips for my hair, so hopefully that will help with styling, because I saw a video where the girl uses the claw clips and she has like a ton of volume in her hair, so I hope it helps. Incase you were wondering I have thick, curly hair so like imagine lordes hair but a bit less curly. Maybe ill post photos later, but I dont want anyone from my actual life to find this acc, so idk, but probably. I feel like if they find this account, I wont post the same, I would hide my self to try and sound interesting, but when I am behind this false identity I can truly say whatever I want, so lets hope it stays that way. So I was not expecting to get any likes or anything on my posts, and I havent, and thats fine. But i was thinking about posting photos I take sometimes, and of course more blogs, even though nobody reads these lmao. I think I just like posting on here so I feel like others can listen to me.

I am going to share some goals I have had for myself lately, I hope I can lose like 10-15 pounds, I am not like overweight or anything but it would be nice to slim up a bit, and 15 pounds would be good. also i dont have an ed dont come after me. I hope i get a bf. also I hope that i keep a 4.0 gpa, because if i keep it throughout highschool I can get like 12,000 bucks off my tuition for iowa state, so that would be nice. I hope that I can keep my spot as first seat in the trumpet section for band, although that probably will not be too hard considering my competition, more below.

So how it worked for my school is, in 8th grade you try out for freshman honors band, if you want. And I did, and I made it. Moving along, in freshman year I was in the honors band, and in the beginning I believe I was mostly second trumpet, meaning I was on the worse half of the kids there. But as the year passed I moved up to first trumpet, meaning I was one of the better kids there, but I was right on the edge of being second trumpet. Again, tryouts for band came around and this year there were 2 options, try out for a high level band, or dont tryout and be in normal band. I chose to not tryout because I knew that I would be more likely to be first trumpet in the normal band, and thats how it is now. moving on, for marching band, all of the cool juniors are in the high band, that you have to tryout for, which I didnt. and i am so made that I cant be in class with them, just because i wanted to be stupid fuckass first trumpet when I could have been with my friends bruhhhhhh. also for some reason I was fucking antisocial for the first half of marching band so like I am not really good friends with any of them and i regret it sm. and next year, they will probably move up to the highest band, while im stuck in dumbass middle band. that was like the stupidest rant I have ever been on but idc I just wanted to talk about it to someone.

I really want to share the story of my first time getting high, but like I want to do it where people will actually read it so I am saving it incase I ever get more followers on here. I am planning on being active, so hopefully I eventually gain some traction on here. also this page is basically just a lorde fanpage atp. Supercut is playing rn, one of my favorite songs by her. I almost cried when I heard this live, I wasnt even thinking about a romantic relationship, because lowkey I have never even been in a talking stage before. But i was thinking about my past friendships, where I get to attached and then when they leave, mostly because we dont have classes together, I literally play a supercut of them in my head. especially this one girl, emily. thats not her real name but whatever. ill talk more about it later. omfg liability reprise is playing. i cant rn. bruh

can we all agree this is the best song of 2024

like “let’s work it out on the remix” can never be recreated…”people say we are alike..they say we have got the same hair”