Now: The eating disorder wants me to never eat anything again and to get as thin as possible.

i can't sleep so i need distraction

1) 69.7 kg

2) 54kg

3) I don't know exactly, it is definitely a restrictive type. But I would rather say ednos, because I'm not sure

4) That is hard to say. it started when I was 12 or 13 that I didn't eat in front of others. At the age of 16 I realized that I had an eating disorder. I'm 20 now, so it's been around 4 years that I've been consciously stuck in the eating disorder

5) I don't have a favorite ed song. But The Smith song This Night Has Opened My Eyes reminds me of the eating disorder. At that time I did a lot of sport and always listened to the song

6) No

7) i don't like black coffee

8) I like tea, but only very specific flavors

9) I am a vegetarian but eat vegan as much as possible

10) My favorite safe foods are pasta, rice cakes, and soy yogurt

11)Definitely fast food, oil and generally anything that is not home-cooked

12) A few people know about it, but I'm no longer in contact with them. I recently told my boyfriend about my eating disorder

13) you don't need a bikini body if you don't go to the beach 🌚

14) no, I'm studying at a university

15) I am 20 years old

16) my dress size is 38-40

17) nope