Turning me into me

Piece by piece

Cigarette by cigarette

He showed me the highs and the lows

look like him

talk like him

move like him

sound like him

But the man you loveonly exists in your mind

He is a mere fantasy

"I’m not going to ask you to kiss me

Neither ask for forgiveness when I believe that you have done wrong or that you have made a mistake.

Nor am I going to ask you to hug me when I need it the most or to invite me to dinner on our anniversary.

I’m not going to ask you to go around the world to live new experiences much less ask you to give me your hand when we are in that city.

I’m not going to ask you to tell me how pretty I’ am even if it’s a lie or that you write me anything nice.

Nor will I ask you to call me to tell me how your day was or tell me you miss me.

I’m not going to ask you to thank me for everything I do for you, for you to worry about me when my moods are down and of course I will not ask you to support me in my decisions.

I’m not going to ask you to listen to me when I have a thousand stories to tell you.

I’m not going to ask you to do anything, not even to stay by my side forever.

Because if I have to ask you

I do not want it anymore."

I asked for you to keep my flame burning.

To keep my love alive.

You heard me, you even understood my request, yet nothing happened.

You failed me a thousand times.

And I left, because I grew tired of asking.

Rest assured, I'm never going to ask anyone ever again to show me love.

They either do on their own, or...

She felt like crying so she danced instead.

She felt hollow and hopeless, so she danced.

She was afraid to lose control, so she danced.