Kasey

Reason to Live #11718

I was so goddamn stupid to believe you actually loved me.

The whole point of first love is that.. you let go eventually.

“you say communication is key, but you’re ignoring me.”

this is stomp dog it shows up to stomp away sadness

“I think of you so often you have no idea.”

I can’t tell the exact colour of your eyes. They are blue like the sky but not really. Maybe grey. Sometimes green if the light hits them from the right angle. In the middle they are yellow and gold like a sunflower. I’ve never seen eyes as beautiful as yours before. They are deep and kind and I always get lost in them.

Sometimes I think I’m over you. Sometimes I’m so sure that I’ve forgotten you that I rejoice at my ability to move on. “Thank god” I think to myself. “Thank god I’m finally over this.” But then there are other times. Times when I’m brushing my hair in the mirror one second and then the next I’m collapsed on the floor and crying that you’re not here anymore. Times when I’m in my car and I think about the fact you’re going to get a new job and I’m never going to get to hear about it. There are times when I’m sitting in my room, quite content with my own company, and it hits me. We’re strangers again. There are some moments when I am glad that you left. But there are others when I know that if you were to show up at my door, I would take you back in a heartbeat.

even though