Almost 2 years back, my mom, brother and I left our abuser. It was a crazy and bumpy ride but luckily we got a protective order. However, our abuser kept breaking it until they commited the most terrifying crime yet. He stolen a gun then went after us to kill us. Luckily, he was apprehended before he could do anything and we were granted extension of our protective over but itās left us more terrified than ever.
When we thought the legal system was going to help us but they DIDNāT. He was never given a trial but luckily his bond was too high for him to leave so he was kept in jail during this whole time.
We ļæ¼received a call yesterday that he was going to be released next week and better yet, his record would be cleared. We asked if there will at least be a probation. NOTHING. no probation, no protection for us except for the protective order. But people donāt realize that itās just a piece of paper. You still have to be watchful and even if you call the police, they might do anything or be able to press charges.
Also, itās not life when you have to look over your shoulder, you have to isolate yourself, etc. It stressful. We did moved to new town and got under address confidentiality program but with this day and age, itās still easy to find someone.
It almost feels like our abuser has more freedom than us. Our abuser got away from his charges and is even give social security money while with us, we been struggling financially and coronavirus just made things harder.
I just donāt know what to do at this point. I canāt work from all the anxiety and ptsd I developed from the years of abuse and with my abuser loose, I donāt know where he can show up. I know people say to face your fears or not to stop living for others but what happens if your fear can actually kill you and they wonāt rest until they get their revenge. What happens if your fears is actual life and death situation?
