distressing damsel

Hello you. I have dreamt of you. A multiple times actually. Every look, every sweet talks, every touch, every kiss in my dream were a choice by me. The conscience is killing me so each time I tell this to my partner.

Because of these dreams, I lately think about us. think about that what should have been or what could have been if one of us was brave enough to take our friendship in another level. Thinking of you make me feel giddy inside. Oh boy our potential. We could have been a hot couple you know, with my recent glow up? lol jk I don’t know if it’s only me who is thinking that we could have been. I don’t know if you’re thinking or at least thought of this, us, too. 

Thinking if we ever crossed our paths, I can never hurt him. It makes me confuse. You confuse me. You don’t even think about me anymore. And it’s unfair. I am dying here thinking what happened and why didn’t we end up together.

I know you guys can’t see this anymore because we have all grown apart, but for the record, I miss you so much. 

But well I admit I was kinda funny though (my jokes/posts that were not distasteful) lol Maybe the reason I had quite a lot of audience back then.

It was my boyfriend’s graduation yesterday and he invited me to attend his graduation and also meet his family.

We were supposed to graduate together, but unfortunate things happened so I have to stay in UST for 5 more months and have my graduation next year. No big deal.

I met his mom and siblings already but this time I had to meet his aunts and uncles, also his grandparents, also his cousins, basically everyone of his family. Telling you guys it was “no big deal” would be a lie because it was a damn HUGE deal. I was so pressured about meeting his whole family, it felt like I would be facing a huge responsibility after seeing them personally. It felt like I would never have a right to break up with him anymore in the future, not that I am planning too, but it just felt like it. 

But after introductions, beso and little fights with his little sister (who is an exo-l and I am an army), I learned to calm myself down, stopped sweating, and just be myself.

His family was nice and sweet to me, they made me feel that I belong so getting comfortable didn’t come so hard. I was amused of how close to each other his family are, they (we) all gathered in a function room in Vikings after the graduation ceremony and just talk endlessly as if they’d just seen each other after 20 years. Not that my family are not close to each other, it is just I am. I grew up shy so I grew up in my family not really being “belong” but that’s another story.

Here is a photo of us in Vikings, we are literally the last family in there, not only in Vikings but also in the whole mall. 

And this is a picture of us (me and my boyfriend taken by his aunt) I really think that I look horrible in here but I’m just too happy I have to share it to you.

Hi! Can someone hit me up if my followers way back in 2011 are still here.

Anyway, I was amused by my friend’s blog when she asked for my help to proof read some of her posts. While looking at her blog, I missed the days here in tumblr. I may not be a social blogger, but I miss reading funny stuff here. Also when Gyno posted here again just a few nights before, all the memories came back.

Siguro magbabago tong blog ko, hindi na shit or anything one liner jokes from twitter, hindi na anything under the sun and moon na lang. Pag-iisipan ko na kung ano ilalagay ko dito. I’ll be fixing my blog, hindi ko ididelete yung lumang posts for memories. Sana magkaron ako ng friends just like in 2011-2012. I missed tumblr. 

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

6: do you keep plants?

7: do you name your plants?

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?

12: what's your favorite planet?

13: what's something that made you smile today?

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

16: what's your favorite pasta dish?

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

20: what's your favorite eye color?

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

22: are you a morning person?

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?

28: sunrise or sunset?

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

33: what's your fave pastry?

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

39: what color do you wear the most?

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

50: what's an odd thing you collect?

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

59: what's your favorite myth?

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

68: what's winter like where you live?

69: what are your favorite board games?

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

71: what's your favorite kind of tea?

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?

73: what are some of your worst habits?

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

75: tell us about your pets!

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

82: are/were you good in school?

83: what's some of your favorite album art?

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

89: are you close to your parents?

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?