angel miller 💞

“LLAM”

Long Live Angel Miller

I struggle with my gender identity. I was born a girl with a different full name. I see myself as a boy and I call myself Angel Miller. I used to say ‘he’ in my head. it started saying ‘she’ instead recently. it’s confusing me.

I struggle with my grades in school. I’m a procrastinator but I’m a perfectionist. I’m failing 3 classes sadly and I’m stressing myself out. I was doing ELA homework and just started crying about my own grades. My history teacher pulled me aside saying I was bright and I could do better - I didn’t care about those parts since he was kinda just repeating himself. He then said he had been to multiple of his students funerals for different reasons. I assumed he thought I was suicidal. which I can’t fully blame him for, if I were someone else - I’d think I was suicidal too.

I don’t feel valid. I’m scared to kill myself and I want to from stress. I feel it’s not a valid enough reason and that I should just shut up about it or something but it really upsets me. I also feel like my friends don’t really care. I just want help. I want someone to help me. I don’t wanna die but I really do.