everything’s okay Kris, look.. I’m smiling!

“I cant wait to go homr and relax” a d than im sitting in a dark room doung nothing because i cant find much of a want to do anything

It actually sucks that sometimes i feel like. im not ill or. bad enough to have accomdaions made dor me Maybe its me nog requesting it and not taking my own struggles seriously enough but it does affect me and i wang. someone to judt understand or notice I know i set myself up and i know i donf taljabiur myself bur it still hurts

Nobody wants me around no one wants to be with me none of you actually like me im dragged around because im forgetable or im useful or quiet or nice or comforting not because im a person worth knowing i want attention but i never want to be percieved im angry aand i dont know ehy im sensitive all i do is cry I’m useless useless useless everyone judt wants to hurt me Its simple i hate it all

I wanted to get out of bed today, but i always get in my way!

Im gonna develop really bad pill trauma one day

I dont wanna feel like i have to take care of people why do i always. I dont feel like my age. I dont feel 16. Im alwayz 12 or 14 or mych older than i am ane its never me im never me

I hate everything im so scared of showing im scared for people because whatt if they do the thing where they Think their a burden and instead of trying to improve they leave me bc “they worry me too much” or they “think its best for me” or theure not good for me because its easier to leave me than try ti change for the better