Tyler's Diary

Tyler

21 Y/O

He/Him

Not new to this, don't dm me

Side blog (can't follow back)

STATS under the break

Fasted 18 hours 39 minutes

Had a fruit and grain bar and a fun sized pack of mini Swedish fish

Had a bowl of instant ramen before taking a nap for 4 hours

I binged on a large cup of Dutch chocolate ice cream, milk, chocolate syrup and cocoa pebbles

Fasted 18 hours 9 minutes

Breakfast was a sausage biscuit with a apple and peanut

Dinner was a steak and baked potato with cheese, light butter, bacon bits and sour cream

Fasted 18 hours 42 minutes

Had leftover chicken spinach Alfredo pizza

Then made sugarfree white chocolate pudding with whole milk (hoping to try it with other milk alternatives in the future) so I had one serving of that with two double stuffed golden oreos and some white chocolate chips (definitely would use oreo thins or nilla wafers instead and leave the chocolate chips off)

Got nauseous from low blood sugar so I had a bowl of ramen later than I'd like

Fasted 17 hours 25 minutes

Had spaghetti with beef bolognese and garlic bread for 1120 cal

Then some gum as a snack for 10 cal

Finished off with chicken, spinach and Alfredo pizza for 630 cal

Burned off 505

Fasted 17 hours 31 minutes

Leftover sezchwan beef with fried rice

Beef jerky and a sugar free werthers candy

Drink mix and pickles

Then a fuck ton of oreos and a glass of milk

Sipping broth 30 cals

Arby's french dip with fries and coke zero 1079 cals

Sezchwan beef and white rice 605 cals

46 pizza rolls with garlic butter and grated parm

But feeling tired and ill recently so I'm going to fast tonight and try to eat 1000 cals tomorrow? But we'll see how it goes

Fasted 20 hours and 8 minutes

Had some pineapple candy and turkey jerky

Then two packs of instant ramen and some chocolate covered pretzels

No one cares what happened to make you codependent, grow tf up

Oh did i leave my girlfriend because she refused to talk or get help? Duh, spent 2 years explaining i am not a therapist so I can't "fix" her but ignoring me in my house for 7 months is bullshit, I gave resources, I gave support, I gave comfort to the best of my ability, even bought her gifts and food to see if that would get her to even sit with me. I know I'm not a great partner, I hate human society and the need for socializing but she has the gall to say I'm the reason why she couldn't get better, the reason she developed hallucinations, the reason she is now a lesbian. Sure, I'll accept the lesbian part but really, me trying to guide you to get better while I was held to a standard that if I had a bad day or relapsed I had to hide it and not be able to get help because I had to parent a grown adult? I swear, when I was trying to be better and get better she would just get worse and expect me to be her fuckin daddy and become her sole protector and provider

Had some gum and peaches for breakfast

Then some nuts and olives for a snack

Then fucked up by having a burger and fries for dinner

Fasted 14 hours and 10 minutes

Had chicken tortellini with beef pasta sauce and cheese

Then a popsicle

Had a bunch of pizza rolls for dinner

Fasted 15 hours 17 minutes

Had chicken tenders with barbecue sauce and diet soda

Then a glass of chocolate milk and a large bowl of popcorn

Fasted 15 hours and 2 minutes

Had egg white with mustard and apple sauce (why do eggs taste so strong)

Then had a mocktail, cheeto puffs, and two bags of doritos

Had beef stew with potatoes and mixed vegetables

Didn't fast (aside from when I was asleep)

Had a bowl of cereal

Then a bunch of double stuffed oreos and milk

Had a jerky stick for snack

Pizza rolls with garlic sauce for dinner and cherry limeade sherbet

Had cereal with milk for lunch

Had chocolate, jerky and ice cream bars for snack