sometimes I'm not that sad

when its getting bad again but you can‘t talk to anybody about it so you lowkey just sit there and let your thoughts consume you

no one will stay. in the end, you'll always be alone.

i wish i was a “love me loudly or don’t love me at all” person but i was cursed with abandonment issues so im a “love me however terribly and abusively you want just don’t leave me” person

sorry i've been off lately every day is blending together and i'm losing sense of time.

i really hate when people ask me "so, what are you doing these days?" because i can't say, "oh, you know, rotting in bed, suicidal thoughts, lesbian loneliness, daydreaming & yearning." so instead i just say "eh, nothing important."

I've been relatively doing fine these days, probably that's why I'm feeling so low today. I'm just extremely exhausted and empty

Man, I need to start writing down the dates, I've been soooooooo sad and empty these weeks, also I've been having the worst mood swings in years!!!!! And headaches !!!!!! Will i ever feel better someday????

the years pile on but i have not lived