I log on…occasionally

Why is my life just an endless series of being shat on

Nothing seems to block out the pain anymore. It just feels like I’m trying to keep my head above water. It’s so fucking pathetic that I’m letting such stupid things get to me but I can’t not. I’m not built for this. The only time I’m happy is when I’m pissed and don’t have to feel the pain

Well I’ve just had my heart utterly broken.

Why do people act massively full on and then act so flaky. Over and over again. Fucking communicate

Not to be that person who’s like “this app solved all my problems!” Cus that would be expecting a lot but I’ve been started trying mindfulness a bit and it is amazing how it can change your mood ever so slightly. Recently I’ve been so busy here there and everywhere the business will distract me momentarily but the anxiety is there. I think I need to find a healthy way to recognise it and address it healthily. In other words here I am at work listening to nature sounds cus the negative noise in my head got too loud lol.

Life’s funny. I used to be anxious because people spoke to me. Now I’m anxious when they don’t speak to me.