Inside AndyLese

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Twenty-Eight of 30 never ending free-writes💖 I drowned the day that I let you love me. -ATS

Poem Twenty-Seven 30 Days of Free-write💖 Let the rain wash away at my skin Allow it to bleach me and cleanse me from its midnight sky Lessened Below average I was tainted from birth No hope Just darkened darkness Let the rain wash away at my skin Allow its acid to bleach me For I am bound Raised into captivity My skin is a ticket Yet they won't let me in... Everything Closed Shut... -ATS- (An unfinished piece but I wrote this because of the language I hear daily at present. People speak from a lowly place sometimes. Makes me sad. Open to a response through poetry...)

Poem Twenty Six- 30 Day (playing catch-up) free-write Photo credit: Metlina Chan I do not want them to tell me that I am Fabulous Beautiful Courageous or strong Those mouths speak lies They spit hate and within a second they want to love I don't want that two-timing love I don't want that back stabbing Double crossing Unfaithful love That untruthful love Will raise you up and stamp you down and I don't want it. I don't want to hear That my beauty goes beyond my skin and that it is 'deep' I'll grasp it for myself and hug her tightly You don't tell me, I'll overhear the words slip from my own tongue I'll allow my own phrases to shatter through me Only love and love alone can speak such truths into my being. You do not tell me 'who I am' Not even I can carry such a responsibility... Leave me... Let love, love me and let it love me alone -ATS-

Day Twenty-Six 30 Days of Free-write💖 I collided into the universe Only to become one of its own... Now I spit meteors and cradle planets in my arms There is no end to this... There are no verses Simply suspended into universal researching -ATS-

Day Twenty-five 30 Days of Free-write💖 I plunge myself into the ocean Body fully submerged I thank you for the ocean I thank you for the sea Thank you for its depths Thank you for its widths Thank you for the salts Washing away at the wounds I thank you for the rock -ATS- (at Durban, South Africa)

Day Twenty-Four 30 Days of Free-write💖 I used to be a rock star I lost my rock and I no longer live in the sky. Today I'm an amateur Writing a book Crashing stories onto galactic stages Watching them burn... I used to be a rock I used to be a star Today I am no longer -ATS-

Day Twenty-Three -30 days of free-write💖 Circle of life Of love and of hope Beyond all The circle of happiness The circle of fun Playing as children should Smiling as children would The circle of giving Of offering and receiving Circle of life Of love and of hope Beyond all The circle of happiness -ATS- (at Phoenix Settlement, Bhambayi)

Day Twenty-Two 30 Days of Free-Write💖 The day I grew up The day I exited adolescent years Is the day I hugged myself Played tag with nature and slept in open fields The day I grew up The day I smiled with laughter and cried with joy The day I shook hands with God The day I grew up Was the day I disregarded all notions of adulthood The meaning unnecessary I drove through valleys and enjoyed the shade Picking up flowers and poppies along the way... I basked in the sunshine on the otherside and bathed in rose petals and refused to hide The day I grew up and decided to be okay with it Everyday growing Learning Living Laughing and crying Embracing the sorrows and rejoicing in the joys... The day I grew up was an ageless day No numbers no restrictions Bans on responsibility yet embracing every single one of them The day I grew up was the day I lived free... The day I roamed the earth with strength and dignity... -ATS-

Reblogged:@affinitytree Loving this quote at this very minute... (at Durban, South Africa)

Day Twenty-One 30 Days of Free-Write💖 Believe? I didn't want to I didn't want you Yet needed you so desperately To let you in Every edge of every book I ever read gave me paper cuts of a thousand lovers I hated her Myself Why I couldn't let her see Or let you in so freely For myself As you kept your arms wide open Constantly wide open Every door, every window, Unlocked and wide open I drank honey and milk at your feet once before Yet returned to breadcrumbs underneath an unworthy table An unhealthy stable I drank out of tin cans To recover the labels I once held on so dearly to your seat Now out of reach from them I only preach I tasted and had seen I had loved and had been loved The aromas so divine Oh so sweet To trust again Oh so sweet To feel the same feeling I once knew Tis so sweet to trust again To take refuge To love and be loved In an everyday calling An everyday truth Constantly forming Constructing Deconstructing Building belief within these truths... Believe? I didn't want to I didn't want you Yet needed you so desperately To let you in I still struggle, The only difference is I am willing to make everyday the beginning... -ATS-

Day Twenty- 30 days of free-write💖 We glow Yes, we share within our greatness Casting subtle shadows As we breathe and as we grow Moving like trees Dancing with the breeze We waltz and we flow Flowing like silk and the ocean's water Smoothly running free and ever-so slow We glow We shine and we grow... Ever growing Retrieving Recieving Never ending knowledge Open and willing Dreams dreaming of beginnings We stop and we show No parade the same We are beautiful colours We dance in the shade Embracing every sharp droplet of rain Yes, we do We glow We shine and we grow... -ATS- (at Durban, South Africa)