Aries

changed blogs, refollowing mutuals, probably gonna abandon this one

one of my coworkers referred to me as invisible girl

"i know i've been difficult to be around i've just been so depressed everything bugs me i let my boyfriend treat me like shit and do whatever he wants bc i am so afraid of being alone and unloved i'd rather die than not be in a relationship" "well i love you but it's hard cuz you're always mad all the time and i feel like i can't do anything right bc you're always so snippy and annoyed and you're hard to talk to and i wanna be around you but i don't like people like you and and and"

you can tell i only want to die in theory but my stupid survival instinct remains bc i am still afraid to be near windows cuz i feel like i'm about to be shot in the head at any moment

no like i really should kill myself there is nothing for me here and never will be

it is so frustrating that my family acts like i'm this big scary intense woman that gets violent when angered when i am not like that, all because when i was a little child i would have violent meltdowns bc i didn't have an outlet for my emotions and would see my parents behave that way, i was angry cuz i was being abused!!!!! and i get treated like the monster!

like only one in every 500 men i meet smell good to me. most dudes either smell like nothing or just sorta funky to me regardless of their hygiene

i do think it's funny when i'm trying to schedule an appointment and the ladies on the phone start getting annoyed with me bc i can't form coherent sentences when talking on the phone