i stopped taking laxatives that i have been abusing for the past 4 1/2 years cold turkey mid july, naively thinking i can eat the same as i have been. its so painful my stomach is so bloated and i’m not hungry. the worry about this on top of normal life problems makes me just want to devour so much food and i’m such a fat cow with no control i can’t stop eating even though it’s making me sicker.
tomorrow starts a week of only smoothies or broth. which will be so hard because i have never been good about controlling what i eat, beat myself up for eating xyz and the cycle repeats. wish me luck.




















