Diary Of A Mad Cat Woman

Where does the time even go 🤷🏻‍♀️

5 new students and no space in my SF classes for them, so every schedule was a struggle and I had to get help making them/overrides for them. Parents up my ass via phone and email (and one just showed up thinking we could meet. LOLno.) My existing kids all want schedule changes. My seniors need to be re-evaluated and I need to make and mail letters home. Meetings on meetings on meetings. A training I didn’t even get to finish because I had to pull and dig through huge fat files for 15 of my kids so I could then scan the evals I needed and apply for their ACT accommodations (plus I found out about that on weds which is the day of the week I’m in meetings all day and it had to be done by yesterday). And at least 3 urgent situations to make me drop everything while trying to deal with the rest of that shit. I didn’t get to eat lunch Thursday or Friday and I worked from home for 3 hours Thursday night. I am disassociating from work life like it doesn’t exist today and tomorrow for sure. I need a new career ASAP. 😖😴

-Exercise. I’ve plateaued on losing weight and last time I went to the endo he wanted to add a once a week injection to keep the momentum. I’m not trying to be a twig, but another 10-15lbs off would be nice.

My @misshayleypaige #jardin gown & the barrels 🌹🥃 (at St. Augustine Distillery Company) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6CXtnDgMlb/?igshid=9o4aaxh6p3z3

My @misshayleypaige #jardin gown & the bourbon barrels 🌹🥃 (at St. Augustine Distillery Company) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6CXWdIgrhB/?igshid=1ixhakjclbwy5

I think this photo is my most accurate one out of the whole thing 😂 Thanks @jaygrubbphotography 🥳🙃 (at St. Augustine Distillery Company) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5_y3yCAI_t/?igshid=1tq865zwy8ul3

11.15.19 💕🎉 📸: @raenec (at St. Augustine Distillery Company) https://www.instagram.com/p/B482lvHgfZK/?igshid=2o27fg7h6o0e

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I thought I’d be bored and lonely since Peter is in Denver on his bach party trip, but it’s been good! The girls at work threw me a bridal shower yesterday and I was so tired from a long week that I was good to go to bed early and watch tv. Today I spent the morning getting my wedding ducks in a row. Talked to our coordinator, ordered most of the alcohol, labeled all my stuff in my drop off box for the venue and cleaned the house a little. I got the animal sitters squared away and Amelia & Lainey came over! She did some laundry and we made meatloaf for dinner and had leftover cake and watched Disney movies. Tomorrow we’re going to take Lainey to Magic Kingdom for the day! Peter will be home before I get back from work Monday. Jealous he’s off until the Wednesday after the wedding. I only took 4 days off and I wish I’d taken more. But I used so much pto when I had the flu and I have such limited availability for all my meetings between this, the credit checks I had to do all last week and Thanksgiving break. At least I only have to work 4 days and then we’re on break. My last pain in the butt wedding chore is my table cards. I bought a template off Etsy and it’s not been great, every time I solve a formatting issue I find another one. I can’t get them to print without the stupid fold guides/corner markers. I’ve redone them like 4 times now and I can’t figure it out. I’m about to say screw it and just leave them as they are. Everything else is good though, so excited for wedding day!!!

....I am very curious to see what he actually comes home with and if we actually know what to do with whatever he comes home with 😂🤷🏻‍♀️

Getting the floral quote is what spiraled this, I obviously had no frame of reference cost wise in my vision I had for the flowers. Having to cut a bunch of stuff on that to get the costs down. I love my dress so much but still feeling so guilty about the cost of that and this week I’ll get the alteration quote which I’m absolutely dreading. I know I deserve this little wedding but good god, I don’t want to pay for it anymore!!! 😭

I LOVE IT SO MUCH 😭

I’m glad I’m doing it now and getting it over with since this is where I want to be, but ughhh. I’m trapped in limbo where I can’t actually work for pay or have access to the system yet, but I have an email address and have people (staff and parents) contacting me about things daily because there is no one in my position right now until I officially start next week Tuesday. So while all the other counselors are at work fixing their kids schedules and getting their senior credit checks done, I can’t do anything so I’m going to start out the year totally behind. I’ve worked a few days for comp time and I’m doing two more Thursday and Friday, but I’m not working for a million days of comp time that I won’t use. I have tons of PTO too because it transferred over, so I want money not time! I’m also frustrated because there are two diff trainings tomorrow and Wednesday in two different locations and I can’t figure out if either of them are mandatory, I’ve been waiting for the district person to tell me what to do since last Thursday. I had only planned to be at one that is for counselors on Wednesday, but if I have to be somewhere tomorrow, I need to know. I planned to go to taco Tuesday with the Guidance team for lunch and then finally put my stuff in my office since our new building is done enough to do that tomorrow. Rahhhhh!!!!!!

Ordered this book so I could read about someone else who chose to not have kids and I think this one paragraph pretty accurately sums life up right now for me. It’s weird place to sit and I’m very happy with our choice, but it feels isolating at the same time and I am not entirely sure how to deal with it yet.

Ashley and I are gonna day trip to Daytona tomorrow to hang out at the pool at her dad’s timeshare and have some poolside lunch. I think not working at the same school anymore will be good for us, we can actually hang out and do fun things again without being sick of seeing each other.