Mew

I don’t want to leave him, he’s the only one in my life left, this morning, I caught him texting this girl - he had told me he finds her annoying. He talked to her about us, which she responded “You guys should break up.” He never showed me the texts, I just made him explain after I saw it. It hurts, a lot. He keeps making the excuse “She lives in a different country” That doesn’t mean you can’t flirt. I feel pathetic, like i cant make decisions for myself, Like i can never be single ever i always have to search for something or someone to love. It’s like a horrible fucked up parasite that I can’t get off of me no matter how much help i get. I cant live without a partner.

Heyyy day 2, I don’t think i’m gonna do these everyday, maybe once in awhile. I know i overshare a lot and i’m sorry - last post was a little upsetting i can understand.

I met this guy, i really like him i think. I’ve met him once, he’s so handsome and he has this horrible cali accent. I bought us frosties and stuff. I’ve never talked to anyone like that, Hes around my age and hes probably the cutest ever. I hope it works out, he teaches little kids but, he’s the sweetest seriously.

Hey guys i’m starting cursed emojis again, so what happened today?

Today a package came in, i’ve been planning to kill myself for a few months so i thought it might’ve been the stuff needed to do so. However, my friend texted me. They were saying how my presents had came in (my birthday was yesterday.) So i opened the package and was greeted with presents.

I don’t know about my plan anymore, i don’t think i’m going to do it.