MARIA

hey darlings, this blog can be really triggering for ed and maybe someday sh too.

I completely support recovery so if you're recovering pleeeaseee don't go further in my blog. these posts aren't for you.

also this is a reminder that 34t1ng d1s0rd3rs are created from our own internalized fatphobia, so if you use "f4tsp0" or implant this fatphobia on other people that actually love their bodies you're just a shitty human stay off my blog please.

anyways this blog is just me talking about experiences of my relapse to other people with similar experiences. I'll also often talk about my diet so again, if that triggers you, go away.

everything is confusing, I gained so much weight and i think i might be back??

idk

im obcessed w candy and junk food but still scared of calories

my breakfast rn is a bag of string candy and water

like bitch?!?!

way better eating 500 (and maybe a little more bc I need to eat dinner)

than 2000 out of chocolates or something

my cravings are over

but at what cost

now I'm here sitting with guilt and a red lollipop in my mouth

it would be comic if it wasn't tragic

a giant pig with a big red apple on it's mouth

anyways using this as an opportunity to not eat but I feel like if I don't eat I'll faint and I'm home with my parents so I wouldn't want that and have to answer questions and bla bla bla

snack: half a banana with 1/4 scoop of protein powder and a glass of coke

69kcals

lol 69