C19 - Shelter in Place for CA 3.19.20
It’s been awhile since I’ve written here. The last “post” from 2015 - 5 years ago! - but that doesn’t really count as it’s from when my I still linked my Instagram to my Tumblr and it would auto post my entries. My last “real post” unsure......
But I feel, something in my gut, is telling me to capture this moment. It’s gonna be the turning point. I’m hoping for better, but not sure, could be for worse.
Earlier tonight, Gov Newsome of CA called for a “shelter in place” for the state of CA. Mayor Garcetti put in place a “safer at home” policy. Same thing, diff wording - maybe a way to curtail any (additional) panic.
Today I feel is definitely a turning point to me. Up until now, I’ve been calm and collected - as I tend to be in high stress or serious, emergency type situations. I’m the one that you can count on to be even keel, stone faced, logic driven, not emotional. And not that I’m starting to panic now, but up until now I’ve been informed, but not media obsessed. While some worried, I (in my kum-by-ah soul) was experiencing this situation through a cosmic lens. Not of this world or time frame, but from a universal time frame and purview/spectrum. We’ve been abusing this land for how long now, mother earth is standing up for herself (how timely, she’s having her own “Me Too” coming of age) and saying NO, STOP, YOU CAN’T ABUSE ME ANYMORE. The silver lining of this experience - slowing down, reconnecting with oneself, one’s community, compassion for those outside our circles, seeing each other as mortal humans, not China or US or Democrats and Republicans.
But tonight, I’ve returned to my mortal state. Looking through the eyes of Jess. In this body, on this planet, in this time and have allowed myself to feel the gravity of the situation. Perhaps, it’s just hitting me now. My feelings tend to be delayed - I’ve learned this about myself. It’s great for survival but keeps me removed from true experience, reality.
People are dying. DYING. A lot of elderly, but not all. Lee told me that they’re finding that people who survive the virus have 20% reduced lung capacity. For any active person, that’s a permanent shift in lifestyle. 1% of a lot....is a lot.
