the undomestic goddess

Hard isn’t it? Trying to stay strong for everyone around you, with a pasted on smile that quickly goes away when you’re alone. I know it’s tough trying to kill something that’s on the inside, that eats you alive, and there’s nothing you can do about it. No matter how hard you try, it just doesn’t go away. I know it ain’t easy, but I know things will get better.

Please be clingy with me. Get worried if I don’t text you back in ten minutes, blow up my phone, when were in public you better hold my hand and kiss me, get mad when other girls look at me, tell me that you miss me or love me all the time. But also I want you to trust me. If I’m dating you then it means that I’m all for you. I don’t want a relationship that will last a few days. I got into this because I saw something with you. I am yours, you are mine. End of story.

1 .Let her wear her red lipstick. It makes her feel beautiful and sexy at the same time. Respect it as well, don’t you dare smudge it. But when you get behind closed doors, don’t stop her from painting a masterpiece on your skin with her lips. 2. Don’t let her go to sleep without hearing your voice. 3. Flowers are never ever a bad idea, even when you don’t have a reason for giving them. 4. Wash her hair in the shower. You have no idea how relaxing it is. 5. Reassure her you love her. She’ll always worry about you leaving, you’ll learn why. 6. She’ll talk about her past when she’s ready, don’t push it. 7. Telling her she’s beautiful never hurts. 8. Give in sometimes even when you shouldn’t. She’s fought her whole life, it’s the last thing she wants to do. 9. Get drunk and stay in. She’ll spend most of her time confessing how much she loves you, and the rest of the night showing you. 10. She likes when you rub her back, but don’t touch her feet. 11. When she shaves her legs insist on feeling them. 12. She likes to talk about books, and loves when you write poetry about the color of her hair. 13. She hates to repeat herself, so listen closely. 14. Tell her stories about when you first fell for her, she loves to hear them. 15. Let her know when you’re having a bad day, not only will she appreciate the warning, she’ll do all she can to make it better. 16. When you count your blessings, count her twice. You really are so lucky to have her in your life.

I will never understand how this works: you and I. The same way I will never understand how some people are poems come to life, some are unfinished stories begging to be written, and some are ghosts of almosts you never want to be reminded of.