when sadness is underrated

What a pleasant stay at Artotel Haniman Ubud, Bali.

what do i do,

when i’m still i love with you?

you walked away,

‘cause you didn’t want to stay.

you broke my heart, you tore me apart.

everyday i wait for you,

telling myself our love was true.

but when you don’t show, more tears start to flow.

that’s when i know

i have to let go.

it’s been a long time. a lot of things happened. good and awful. things i thought good but eventually they’re not, and vice versa. and a lot of people come and go. but yea, well, mostly i’m the one who left.

i will write down below all things i learnt (in the hard way) and i hope i can remind myself when i read it again in the future. a reminder that i have to love myself first, and not to be taken for granted by anyone. and also to live in the present. not the past or the future.

1. failure is fine. 

2. take your time to grieve.

3. it’s okay to feel not okay.

4. it’s not always because of you. maybe it’s because of them.

5. try not to take things personally.

6. you’re not perfect and it’s normal. you’re a human being.

7. don’t love to hard. disappointment is a total shit.

8. take care of your mental health.

9. too good to be true IS A REAL THING. don’t trust that shit. take care of your heart, your feelings, your sanity.

10. your body is not perfect. but love it unconditionally.