Goodbye tumblr, I’ll write down my thoughts with a pen on a paper.

Hope we meet again.

Even in ten years

Even if I have kids

I’ll celebrate you everyday

When I drink whiskey , wine or gin

When I drive around the island

And when I sing in the shower

I’ll celebrate you everyday

Even if you’d never read my posts

Even if you’d never hear my voice

Even when I’m tipsy at a bar

I’ll celebrate you everyday

In my failures and successes

On my mornings and evenings

Went home rushing

Set up the roof rack on the car

Tighed up the surfboard

Packed the wet suit

Drove to Keel

Met Sean , Thomas, Queeva, Sophie and Fionne at the end of Keel next to the mountains

Breath taking view

We all changed , waxed our boards and walked all of us together on the beach to the water

We were not walking very close to each other but close enough

And I was looking around the whole view

The whole panorama

And we all surfed

Sometimes we rode waves in pairs or three of us

It was amazing

Took off my suite

Put back the board on the car

Said goodbye

Drove back home

But where are you in all of this?

I made this whole life for you

I built up the house that I told you i’m building and now I have all I need

except you

Where are you in this?

I moved to an island

Finished fucking school

Got driving license

Bought a car

Bought surfboards

All for you , all to be the person you imagined to be with when you were fourteen

I’m so fit

So healthy

I ride waves like in the movies

I smell like the ocean

I don’t use shampoo and my hair is so curly from the ocean

I’m so hard

And where are you in all of this?

Why I wasn’t just enough for you?

Why you treated me this bad?

Why you let me go?

I made myself for you, I made my life as it is for you

And still it was never enough

Still you looked elsewhere

Still you abandoned me

My love , my sweet sweet love

Why you did this to me?

I miss you so much.

If you ever appreciated me or understood me as I did to you, we would have never arrived to this.

Deserves my hug,

My kiss

The grib of my hand

My chest

Sharing a shower

My naked body

My food

My jokes

My voice

My strength

My sight

My tongue

My caresses

My soft hair

My stupid accent

My indecisions

My spontaneity

My words

And my love