the safe house feels like a cage, bell's mind right along with it. he feels like he's trapped beneath a cave collapse, where the sun peaks through the slivers of rock, teasing at the world outside. so close but so fucking far from freedom. he's sure that he's the only one who feels this way, no matter how many times he's told certain memories being fuzzy is normal, or that he's just overly tired; none of these half-truths comfort him.
it's when the glimpses of an almost past life reveal themselves in the cracks of bell's mind that things go south. the overwhelming sense of anger, the hyper-violence he feels building under his skin until there's no pushing it back down, bell's a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. the darkroom is in disarray, and park will likely sport bruises in a few hours from the latest break before adler got to him. bell's anger is almost always exclusively aimed at park and adler. his brain is only half capable of remembering why.
bell's teeth sink hard into his lower lip as he's shoved into the lab, and adler's hand is wrapped around his throat. the copper taste of his blood hits his tongue, but he can only focus on the cigarette between adler's lips and the hand on his throat. "fuck you, adler," he bares his teeth, reaching out to roughly grab at adler's shirt, even though he's practically submitted to the hand at his throat, "no."