abyssopelagic

It’s fine.

Listen. You may think you’re a robot or something, and you’ve been pretty much fucking brainwashed to be one, but you’re not. Even if you don’t grasp the concept of fun yet, maybe we can get there.

I just… Mm.

I-I... i just get told by everybody I am not ‘fun’ and thus I just avoid partaking in activities where I can only result as an hindrance to the collective ‘fun’ with my lack of understanding. No brainwashing. 

That wasn’t what I meant, and I’m not going to further elaborate on just what I was referring to, because frankly, I’m too tired to properly give a shit about it right now and stress myself further.

Dirk… I just want to be…Family. Do family things. Like…Hang out, and have fun together. I want to know you’ll always be my best friend, and words just don’t do it.

I won’t be prying further then. Sorry.

I --I find that endearing and I would perhaps indulge on that, but I don’t know if I qualify for such things to begin with. You even say that. I am not ‘fun’. I cannot conceive your idea of ‘fun’. You’ve always said that.

And I should believe that entirely without a grain of salt? You’d lied previously about taking an interest in certain things, and it turns out, you did due to physical behaviors and whatnot. I just want you to be truthful so that I may brace myself for whatever comes, so that it doesn’t just spring up in my face when I least expect it. While I think you should absolutely loosen up and stop running yourself into the ground with your work, you won’t heed that advice, and I have no choice but to watch you slowly ground yourself into a fine powder.

Sure.

I haven’t lied to you. I have kept information from you and many others ( which is not equal to lying ) because there are things of my job that are meant to remain redacted and not publicly known, and I must abid to that professionally. If you consider that a form of lyremaking, then I cannot help you. It’s your belief.

I feel as though there will come a time where that doesn’t hold true, and you might feel inclined to leave me in the proverbial dust due to finding far better things to occupy your time and attention. One of which is a current happening.

Well, I am here and I am debunking your assumptions. There is nothing that has caught my interest as of late except for the work I have to do. If not, I always was of the assumption you had no interest in whatever I might have ended fancying, because according to you, all I like is essentially dumb and work-related.

Mhm. Well, maybe I’m attempting to work out my issues so that I don’t just pile copious amounts of further stress on you, successfully shoving you away even more. Besides, you have other things to occupy your time now, I’m assuming, even more than work. I doubted you were interested in finding and/or talking to me whatsoever.

Now you talk to me.

wow, cool! sucks i couldn’t see it because, you know, pretty sure the moon is dead or something now.

Oh, right. It’s because you’re with the dirk in the middle of sideral space.